cute lil candy snowmen ^.^

its beeen a while.. the last few weeks have been very confusing, yet also very enjoyable... strange yes .. i know

confusing: trying to rearrange my life.. straighthen things out. .figuring out what i've been doing wrong.. reprioritizng my activities..

i've had a sudden change in heart.. about many things.. i mean.. ive kinda tried to avoid certain things in my life.. just simply because i was afraid of what has happened, what might have happened, what would happen, what might happen.. and now that i look back on it.. sometimes i screwed up really badly.. and i didn't necessarily have to.. b/c of my fear, i couldn't see the logical answer..

and if i had.. i guess my life would have turned my differently.. i dunno whether for the better or for the worse tho.. i guess it doesn't really matter what the past is about.. a lot of things made me realise.. the past is the past.. ur mistakes in the past can't be changed.. u can however change how the future will be..

there are many things i kno that i need to work on:
having faith in myself
having faith in others
honesty
admitting that i'm wrong
dealing with $$$.. man i'm a chronic shop-a-holic.
relying on HIM
trusting HIM
having faith in HIM
loving HIM with all my heart
staying in the right path..
and the list could go on and on...

but on a brighter side..
life has been very enjoyable for the last little while.. at least in comparison to b4..

in so many ways.. ive realized that i've been blessed..
with a great family ^.^
with amazing friends :P
opportunities to DIE for!
just having "things".. basic necessities.. i realized how fortunate that i've been just to be able to grow up in the environment that i did. having food and clothing and water.. technology.. transportation.. loving family.. relatively healthy body with no serious medical problems or diseases.. I'm Grateful...

and i can't even tell u how long its been since i've felt that way.. i've always thought.. its not fair.. life is unfair.. y can some ppl live the perfect life.. have everything.. and why couldn't i have it?
why couldn't i have this?? and why couldn't i have that.. i always wanted more..

and i mean i still think that life's unfair and wut not.. but i've kind of learned to appreciate the things i have..

many times.. u dun realize how privileged u are.. until u see what life would be like otherwise... and its kinda sad that we only realize it afterwards.. but at least we do.. so i'm very grateful for everything that i have.. and i dun think i would trade it for anything..

ah.. so this past weekend.. awesome i say.. sweetness.. lots of fun.. was longer than expected.. even better..

thursday: both profs for the day were away.. so no classes.. took 5pm train into london.. had dinner with jo & her housemates.. went out for the night w/frankie.. saw james.. meet their housemates.. fun fun :)

friday: went to the nerdy music classes with elise :), then lcbo with jo.. haha.. good nite.. drinking.. and german ppl!! hehe.. sorrie for falling asleep.. went out to G.T's on richmond with alexa, andrea, and jo.. was fun. well except for the creepy asian dude.. haha

saturday: i woke up early again!!! 2 weeks in a row!!! mad shopping @ birch run.. met some pretty kewl western ppl.. OLDIES all the way!!! bought some new gear.. sweetness

3 new shirts
new pink tongue twisters by kswiss!! baby!!
some christmas gifts for ppl
man.. mad cheapness @ bath & body works
mad cheapness @ aeropostale
mad cheapness @ reeboks

dinner @ big boys.. haha.. mad oldies for 2 hours on the way home!! woohoo!! man i miss the oldies.. thanx.

sunday: slept in.. breakfast with the "alma" girls.. minus sarah..add layla.. fun fun.. good food.. cheap tho.. :) very happy

so good weekend :)

HOLY FUCK!!! i fuckin hate bell mobility!!!

they fuckin stole $101 from my account w/o my approval!! i had never ever signed up for pre-authorized payment with them!!! and they just stole it!!! they didn't even fuckin send me a bill for the $101!
FUCKIN BELL!!!

i swear.. bell business office is gonna get one hell of a beating tommorow morning!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!
the $ in my account.. i needed to pay stuff tommorow too!!!

FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK

aah.. this wkend.. tho short.. and not as expected.. was still great :)

friday:

stupid damn ass train got in 45 mins late.. oh well..
korean bbq with 'rents.. yummi :P haven't had that since hk
dropped of @ mcbc
went to demetres with jo, cheryl, guy, peter, garway and tim.. hmmm.. yummi crepes.. thanx for coming out
went back to jo's house.. raptors game & pigging out.. ewww dessert alcohol.. gross!!!

saturday:

believe it or not.. i woke up @ 9am on a SATURDAY morning!!! ha!.
went to vaughan mills with jo and her mom..
meet up with my mom at 11ish

shopped around till around 4.. bought lots of goodies :) new roxy jacket, 2 sweatshirts, 1 sweater (pink) hehe, pants, pjs, skirt

afternoon tea with my mommie.. got my hair cut short.. wanna see??

drove mom 2 church.. picked up there by d and chris... got a pretty necklace.. wanna see?

went to pizza hut.. yummie

drove around till lepp got off work..

went to an interesting choice of destination... haha.. saw lepp make a fool of himself in the midst of about 50-60 strange men.. and like 10 women.. (thanx d & lepp for the drinks, & chris for just staying there :P )

went home

sunday:

woke up .. had bkfast with my mommi.. went to mcbc with her..
lunch with mom, dad, uncle joseph and auntie rosetta..
costco.. yeah i'm a costco member now!! haha
cell phone fixd...

OMG!!! i luv chinese stores & their discounts!!!!

went to fmp.. was gonna buy a new cell.. but then saw one of the stores had repair service.. so decided to check that out.. man.. $30 and my cell phone is now officially fixed and workign!!! ha! props to chinese ppl and their cheap prices!!!

compare $30 @ chinese place.. and over $100 with rogers techs.. boo urns on rogers

train home..

so i had a pretty good wkend.. cant wait till the next one @ western..

too tired to blog all bout this weekend.. 2 highlights

1. Demetres

2. Lepp making a fool of himself in public!!! "strip"

will blog more later..stay tuned

good morning.. good morning..

y the sudden jolly mood?? well..

its my day of legalization after all.. ha!! i'm finally 19
and continuing with tradition.. well at least from last year...

props to:

momi & daddi
ivan
miranda
tiff
maddie
tamara
6e
LL
Aimee
Sarah
Melissa
Faith
Sam
Jo
Leppo


i'm very excited this weekend.. hehe.. can't wait ... this weekend and next.. loads of fun

heres the lowdown..

friday: train home @ 2pm.. dinner with 'rents.. out with jo, and some mcbc'ers
saturday: shopping with mom..haircut.... dinner with mom.. out with leppo and cds ppl
sunday: mcbc.. lunch with ???... out for some fun with the fobbers.. 7pm train back to the ghetto

next weekend:
friday: train to western @ 2pm.. either dinner with cds western fellas.. out with them after?? or shopping in states with jo, sam & their friends
saturday: out with jo and sam.. man i missing them.. haven't seem sammi since summer
sunday: out with jo and sam... train back to the ghetto at 7pm

itll be fun :)
fun i desperately need..
i'll take pics and load later

Happy 19th Birthday to Me!!!!!

i have this new blog thing.. its just a place for me to randomly pictures.. things i'm feeling.. things i'm missing.. and wut not.

My Life Thru Visuals


basically its a photo blog...

Flutters & Brows again 

Flutter 

Flutters & Brows 

Countdown!!!!!!

5 days!!! wee!! i'm so excited..

5 days till:

1) i'm legal to drink
2) i'm legal to buy cigarettes
3) i'm legal to gamble in casinos
4) i'm legal to go clubbing..
5) no more worrying about using fake id
6) my 1st legal hangover in windsor

6 days till:

1) my 1st legal hangover in t.o
2) going shopping for winter gear

12 days till:

1) my 1st legal drinking esponage @ western
2) my 1st legal hangover in western
3) a good weekend.. courtesy of jo & sam
4) my tattoo!!! wee... i'm so excited about this.. yet freaked.. its gonna hurt.. and i'm scared of pain.. but thats ok.. i'll have to deal

but unfortanetly... b4 i get to do all of these things.. i gotta deal with a test on friday!!! the one day of importance!! a test!!! boo urns!! it better not spoil my day!!

enuf with the whole lovey dovey backgrounds... i'm so past that now..
thought i'd go back to my own and only original love.. of jay chou.. ha!

surprisingly .. he looks pretty good in the pic.. thats pretty odd.. jay is not exactly a good lookin fella... but he's very "cool".. "yau ying"..

i luv his musik and his image matches that of it..
so yeah..
enjoy

so i'm sitting here at 3:22 AM ... unable to sleep.. just like every other night this week.. well except for last nite...

i dunno even kno y this whole insomnia thing is.. its not like i'm really busy or anything..

every night i find myself @ the same place... wanting to fall asleep b/c my body physically is tired.. i'm yawning.. and my eyes are starting to shut..so i change and get ready for bed.. i'd lie in my bed for 30-45 mins w/o no avail.. not being able to sleep.. i've tried so many different things too.. more blankets.. less blankets.. heat.. no heat.. music.. no music.. lights.. no lights.. warm milk.. warm tea.. lots of different things.. even sleeping pills.. and i'm still stuck..
i dun end up being able to fall asleep usually till like 4am..

man..major suckage.. i wanna sleep.. i have early classes that i actually have to go to.. and i can never wake up for them.. i sleep rite thru my alarm clocks.. and i have 4!!!!!! 4 different ones that go off in 5 minute intervals... I DUNT HEAR ANY!!!!!!

i need to go see a doctor or something..


and then i set my clock to wake up at say like

so it ends up.. i HAFTA get a new cell phone..

my motorola c350 decided to break down on me.. wont even turn on.. went to ask rogers..
my warranty is over.. so

i have 4 options...

1) get it fixed.. $25 labour fee just to see whats wrong with it.. plus like $50 -$100 to get it actually fixe

2) cancel service.. $200

3) preupgrade.. $100 to upgrade.. plus $27-$87 to buy the phone

4) buy a new cell phone on my own and use my sim card..

now the first 3 options make no sense to do.. so #4 it is..

i now need to find a good cell to actually buy w/o having to spend too much $.. i'm definetly low rite now.. i need a job.. but nobody wants to hire me.. :(


all the ones that i wanted are too expensive

anybody got any cell phone suggestions for me??

aah.. my week's been going good so far.. yeah

parents came to visit.. then got some extra $$$
went shopping yesterday.. bought new jeans.. new sweater.. aah and best of all

"NEW FOSSIL WATCH!"
mad cheap too.. only like $45
yeah!!

went & bought aimee's 20th b-day present.. as well as finish off felicity's 17th b-day present.. kinda a lil late. woops

on the bad side.. boohoo.. i can't seem to find my reciept. i cant get my MD fixed.. urgh

and its gonna cost $60 just to bring my cell phone in to see what's wrong with it.. and then i'll prolly cost more to fix it.. so annoying...

but anyhow.. been a good week so far..
have 1 midterm, 1proposal, 1 test due this week.. not too bad

aaah!!! its so nice to have visitors!!! unexpected ones tooo!!!!! yeah


i luv my mommi & daddi

i'd had a good saturday so far.. woke up..went to worship pratice.. went home.. had rehearsal with accompanist.. went home..
was just gonna check with my dad about $ for nov.. so i called him.. and they said they're almost here..

almost here?? huh?? turns out.. they decided to make a surprise trip here!! weee!!! i'd previously email them cuz my monitor was going crazy.. making really high pitched annoying sounds.. so i was gonna go home and buy a new home during b-day weekend.. hehe no need now..

they went and bought me one already!! yeah

they bought food for me tooo!! my fav.. Sweet and sour pork!! wontons!!! weee

i hadn't seen my mommi in SOOOO long.. since august 31!!!!

so we spent some quality chatting time .. while my daddi slept.. hehe.. long 4 hr drive..

then grocery shopping!!! yeah.. me no pay for groceries for next week!!! yeah!!!

then dinner.. woohoo.. free food and no cooking!! even better

oh to top it all off.. early b-day present from HK..

1. Burberry scarf!!! i luv my auntie 3
2. Shu Uemaru makeup.. i luv my auntie jenny
3. Perfume.. woohoo
4. $$$ ... who can ever have too much?? no one.. especially not me!!

so as u can see.. my avg saturday.. has just become an AMAZING saturday!!! i just hope this continues for the rest of the day...

something that made my day

I can't wait till 2005 and INITIAL D comes out!!!

check this out..

Initial D

Jay Chou
Edison Chen
Shawn Yue
Jordan Chan

4 of my fav singers/actors in the same movie!! how great will that be!!

in regards to dealing with things.. how long is considered too long?
i mean dealing with ppl, relationships... moving on with ppl.. trying to forget about a previous relationship or things like that.. is 2 months too long a time, too short a time or about rite?? i think that 2 months is a rather long time.. and i think that its more than sufficient to deal.. especially if you don't see or talk to the person.. and u just move on.. am i so wrong to think that??

i kno ur reading this.. so pleaz move on... its been a while..and im flattered that u feel that its worth contemplating.. but as we've talked about b4... i've made my decision..please respect that..i thought u had done so too..but i guess u haven't..i'm sorry again for this.. i didn't want it to be like this.. i really didn't.. but things wont get better b/w us unless we both move on...

and in regards to the small world thing

one equation:

best friend + ex-bf = engaged

best friend who i've known since i was 4 who lives on other side of world.. meets ex bf who i dated for a year on some website.. and one two three BOOM and they're engaged.. haha.. funny eh??

Thought for the day

The World Really is THAT SMALL!!!

explain later..