had a good day today...there was this amazing music therapy worksite.. omg!!! you don't understand.. it was amazing.. i just saw there in awe.. and like.. omg!!! so amazing.. i kno.. this is what i'm meant to do.. when the guest speaker.. amber.. just talked about passion and how there was this great feeling when u kno.. u've touched a lil's one heart.. when everybody else abandons them.. u try your hardest to try to move them.. even its just one lil step.. a smile.. a clap.. anything.. there's this overwhelming feeling.. and its amazing.. I know.. i doubted.. whether this was the rite thing for me.. and i kno.. i just kno.. its hard to explain.. it just overwhelmed today.. by how touching it can be.. and when she described what its like .. i imagined myself there.. in that school.. helping those children.. participatin in the activities she taught us.. I know!!!

went to lunch with some of the girls.. and was fun.. then did a lil bit of praticing.. i admit.. i haven't really praticed all that much these last 2 weeks.. cuz of the stupid stones.. but it was fun.. elizabeth.. taught me this new uh.. ombiture .. and its kewl... i have to pratice whistling.. thats how i get a good ombiture..

went to belle air.. they have the book!!!! i've been looking for this book forever.. not even gary's downtown had it.. and stupid oboe stores on internet.. nope.. but belle air.. yup

"The Oboist's Concert Album" Compiled and Revised by Albert J.Andraud..

great book.. all the most famous oboe solos and excerpts all compiled into one book.. i used it for my auditions.. and i kept on trying to find one.. cuz i couldn't take wendy's so.. yeah i found it now.. and it was only like $20 bucks.. or so.. including tax.. but hey.. there's always tax... bought some new pics.. they're pink!!! yeah..

went to the mall with lauralei, aimee, sarah and ashley.. bought a pair of black pants for wind ensemble from old navy.. a pair of cord from gap.. i swear.. its been a long time since i shopped at gap... dirty girl lip balm from green earth.. a roxy top.. !!!! yeah.. roxy..

went to walmart... bought some glow in the dark halloween stickers.. gonna decorate the room.. and new nail polish.. i swear.. i ahven't bought any in a while..

then went to dinner with norris and jeff.. was fun..

i still gotta study for theory midterm.. its wednesday.. and basic skills test on monday.. at 930... and then friday!!! going home!!! yeah.. can't wait.. i'll get to see sam and jo.. and jer.. and jon.. and rachel.. and joyce.. and cheryl.. and jess lam.. and all my skewlers.. oh.. gonna be great.. can't wait!!!! woohoo...

on the topic of midterms..yesterday was psyc.. i kinda screwed up a lot on it.. i didn't really answer one of the 10 mark essay questions.. and im pretty sure i got quite a good # of m/c questions wrong too.. im pretty sure i passed.. but its definetly not gonna be a 90 or anything... so now.. gotta study nice and hard in hopes of pulling that mark up..

latz

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

lates

starting today on a happier note.. i'm trying to figure out whether i should do 40 days with wcbc.. i mean.. at mcbc.. i never did it.. b/c i was all not liking mcbc ... but i mean here.. i'm finding my place.. my belonging.. and in a way.. i feel like i'm being called back to the father.. in the last few years.. ive drifted.. first only a lil bit.. to completely shunning him out of my life.. first it was only skipping sunday school every so often after worship.. to completely not goin to koinonia.. to not even goign to sunday school and occassionaly goign to worship.. at least only when my parents are home.. and even rejecting words of prayer. words of worship.. anything that had anything to do with the christian faith..

in the last 3 years.. i've gone to the extreme.. i've done everything he's told me not to.. and my excuse for doing it.. was i wanted to enjoy life while i still could.. but someone told me that was no reason/excuse to live the way i was.. i didn't listen.. and at moments i even dreaded their conversations.. but now.. i guess i wanna say thanks.. to trying to help me.. even tho i tried to push them away..

they could have chosen to give up on me.. leave me to be. but yet they stuck with me.. challenging me... helping me to find my way back .. and i really do appreciate.. the things.. and at moments then.. i may have said things i shouldn't.. done things i shouldn't.. and i kinda regret the things..

i admit.. there are still questions.. that are unanswered for me.. but at least.. i've gone to the point.. where i realized that i had to turn back.. i realized my mistakes.. and i kno..

thats why.. at this moment.. i'm stopping.. and i'm turning back.. i've reached the big stop..

along the way there have been ppl.. who helped me.. and i believe this is the time to say thanks..

orange
tiff
jess lam
sam
jo
peter
cy
jon wong

i just wanna say thanks.. its greatly appreciated for all the help that you've given me..

thank you.. from the bottom of my heart..

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

lates

so life is finally starting to be hectic.. with tests and work... and reading.. a chapter a week.. for music therapy and pysc... gonna go crazie... he..

but uh.. i went home on the weekend.. it was interesting.. to see how things had changed in the last 3 weeks.. kinda felt out of place.. tho.. kind like.. everything was happening.. and i was just looking from the position of a bystander.. plus nobody went home.. sammi and jo were originally gonna go.. but no.. they all decided to ditch me.. they sux.. ha

jks... yea.. i went back and cut my hair..my hair is quite short now.. ah yeah... i miss my hair already.. i've never had my hair that long for such a long time tho... it was getting kinda shabby..a nd plus.. one disadv. of working at wonderland.. for games.. u stand in the sun for 8 hours a day.. the sun shining on ur hair.. my hair was so sun bleached. my ends of the tips were honest to god... yellow... disgusting...

returned to life at windsor.. gonna be here till thanksgiving.. really looking forward to thanksgiving... cuz everyone is gonna be back.. everyone.. even jer... so we're all gonna get together.. that should be loads of fun

have class. latz

so its been the end of the 2nd week.. and as i am finally adjusting to life here... i realize.. im leaving next weekend.. i'm going back for the weekend.. to hang with d and chris.. and all my younger friends.. the 'rents' and who ever else is there as well...

its kinda freaky.. i never thought that this moment would come.. cuz i'm in university!!!! how freaky is that??

main thing to blog about would probs me.. my sudden change in opinion about religion.. i realized.. that i didn't hate religion... at least not as much as i use to think i did.. i realize it was the bad memories at mcbc that made me so awkward.. and so pessimistic about it all.. but i mean ppl at wcbc.. windsor chinese baptist church.. are so not like mcbc.. they're genuinely nice and i feel at hoem with them

i met some new ppl when i went to fellowship on friday.. i admit it was a lil strange.. cuz it is a dominantly chinese/cantonese fellowship.. and i've always gone to koinionia which is english..

and after fellowshiop.. we had noodles and stuff.. played some ball.. they're not ball hogs.. liek some ppl i know.. ha.. and when we got back.. i was talking to two guys that i met that night.. they live in building beside me.. and it was pretty cool.. everybody's so nice.. and i feel like i'm pretty good friends with a lot of ppl already!!

so yeah.. thats all i gotta. say..

so far not too much hwk n stuff.. but that probs will change in the next week or so.. cuz midterms are 1st week of october... gonna die then...

latz

Happy Mid -Autumn Festival ppl.. Time to eat some mooncake.. i'm glad i have some in dorm.. sweet deal.. not much to say.. but enjoying life so far..
hope u all are too

latz

so its been like a whole week.. and i have to admit.. i'm actually enjoying it here.. i admit.. i tried to not enjoy my time.. that way i wouldn't feel guilty for transferring next year... but ppl that i've met here are amazing.. i feel like that i've known them for a long time.. they're great friends... and we all share a common bond... MUSIC!!! which is really cool.. my roomate is not some psychopathic killer.. which is really kewl.. she's quite nice and we talk a lil about stuff... i'm glad for that too...

but there is a sad part to this all.. i miss all of my friends..i miss all the cds'ers i miss them all so much..

all my music buddies: i expect to turn around and see them... I want to make stupid music jokes with you guys.. i miss having u guys in my band...

d: i miss having you in my class... I miss not being able to pass notes to u in calc class.. I miss our daily lunches in the hummer....

sarah: i miss those daily lunches.. i miss the philosophy classes...

chris: I miss your lil comments.. i miss having u and d around all the time

to the 'bones': i miss having ur obnoxious trombone noices in my band class.. i miss having u guys around

elise: i miss sharing those lil music moments.. i miss being able to ask u questions when i don't understand

sterney: i miss ur ultimate "blondness"... i miss having u around to brighten up the day..

colting: i miss being able to annoy u... i miss having u to make me feel better

cap: i miss ahving ur smartness around.. i miss ur funnie stories...

i miss u all so greatly... u wouldn't believe.. and its hard.. because i know that we'll never be exactly the same.. thigns won't ever be exactly the way they use it... and i miss that.. b/c things were great then.. nothing will ever beat that.. and its hard .. b/c its all a thing in the past.. and tho we will still remain friends.. we're all separated by the many miles b/w us... and we're all starting a new chapter in our life.. we're moving on.. to better thigns.. and to new opportunities.. new friends...

sigh


i miss u all..

first nite was okay... i went out to dinner with sean, paul, winnie, auntie sarah and uncle brian.... it was good.... talking with auntie sarah made me realized... wow... i am actually starting this new chapter... and i dunno.. i still dun think i'm ready for it... i mean i've had the whole summer.. but it just doesn't feel rite.... but maybe by thursday.. when school starts.... i'lll know....so i dunno..... we have faculty-program orientation thingy majing... today.. so i'll get to know all my program buddies.... boo hooo... no more elise to be my music buddie!!! *sob sob*... but was talking to some ppl on msn today.. they seemed pretty happie with where they are now... so thats good... i dunno.. i haven't quite adapted... quite yet... so it'll take me a while.. but yeah... not much to say.. cuz it is 8:40 in the morning.... not quite awake yet... i'll update again later... when i'm incredibly bored... latz

so i officially started my first day at dorm.... it was so incredibly boring... like you wouldn't believe.....i have no internet until sunday... untill sunday!!!! i swear i'm gonna die.. and i was suppose to get a DVD drive.. but for some odd reason.. Future Shop ran out!!! they ran out!!! can u believe that??? ugh.. i'm gonna die now.. i swear i will.... anyhow... um.. so i moved in yesterday... my room is all clean and organized as of rite now.. it won't be for long tho... ha...
i met my roomate too.. she was nice.. her name's tracy.. i was so afraid.. before.. that i was gonna get some creepy pyschopath... but i'm ok now.. she seems really nice.. and like a good study person.. u know what i mean..
i put up pictures on my wall.. but i realized tha i didn't bring enuf...half my wall is empty.. so i need to get/take more pictures when i come out.... that is on the 20th.. i think... for now at least... i dunno.. might change laterr.. i'll have to see about that...

anyhow.. oh...

two b-day shoutz...


Happy b-day to you..
Happy b-day to you...
Happy b-day dear Rachels
Happy b-day to you...

its Rachel cheng ealry b-day and Rachel Tam's belated b-day.. YEah!!!!!!!

so yeah.. oh ppl... i miss y'all already.. just to let u know.. i'll be using comp at comp lab... every so often.. so i will check email and stuff... if u ppl are bored ever.. and wanna email me... hehe... *hint hint*... gotz to go..

chilz

so.. had grad nite tonite.. and i realized.. i valued more things out of friday nite fellowship than i realized...
for 1.. my friends.. wow.. i never realized what they really had to say about me.. really kewl...
and you all know.. i dun cry very often.. not for a song at least.. but this song... was hardcore.. i took it off rachel's site tho.. www.rrrachel.blogspot.com

mark shultz & rachel lampa-- think of me
Packing my bag this morning,
Was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy,
Compared to standing outside your door,
right now to say goodbye to you.

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground,

I know that it feels like leaving,
Is a part of letting go.
But I'm praying with hope and believing,
That I'll see you once again down this road,
I hope that it won't be long.

Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground


and tho i'm not religious.. not in the way most of the ppl i know are.. this song was very touching.. very much so..

and tho after grad nite.. i was quite disappointed.. i made a pact to myself...

I'm giving myself 3 weeks time.. and in those 3 weeks.. i must forget.. or at least.. try to forget as much as i can.. cuz if i dunt... i'm gonna spend every waking moment thinking about it.. and i can't... i can't.. do that....

so.. jo.. ur gonna have to help me out here.. and sammi too... plz..

i'm leaving on sunday.. so i won't be seeing anybody.. for a good 3 weeks.. and yeah.. i'm hoping life will be fun.. and exciting.. and full of surprises.. otherwise.. how boring will it be..


last note: I rox at mini golf!!!!!! 53 was par.. i was like 48... something like that.. i redid the math jo.. hehe.. i mad rox!!!! woohoo.. if u dun believe.. ask jo.. she's my witness.. or ask chris n'dez.. they were there too..

last message to y'all until i move in.. it'll be a few days.. so


enjoy your last few days of summer or
enjoy your last few days of having nagging parents around...

lates

so i guess its goodbye.... school is officially going to start on monday.. and i'm moving in on saturday.. and all my friends are moving in to their respective skewls on sat or sunday.. and i guess its kinda scary.. i mean..
i've never been one to wanna make new friends.. unless i need to...
i've never been one to like change....
i've never been one to like not being with friends...

and all this is going to have to change now...
i have to make new friends
i have to adapt to new change
i have to learn to be without friends...

i dunno what i'm going to do... but this much i know..

it'll be a hard and enduring time... but eventually i will survive.. and get thru this.. but before i embark on this journey.. i just have to get some things out of my system...

i wanna say thank you... goodbye wouldn't be the rite word.. b/c i wanna remain friends with all these people... its just a temporary goodbye.. but also a sincere and utmost Thank You!

1) for all the happy moments
2) for all the sad moments
3) just for being my friend
4) stickin there with me throught everything
5) helpin me to get over the troublesome and trying moments in my life
6) supportin me thru every stupid decision i've ever made..

my school friends:

you guys have stuck with me and tolerated me for 4 years... and god only knows how annoying and bitchy i can get... but you guys never gave up on me.. stickin with me till the very end... we've had our moments.. whether it be... "band" camp... nyc... france trip.. arrowhon.. or whether it was just cruisin around at lunch.. these moments will forever remain in my mind.. and i will never forget them. thank you for sharing these moments with me.

d- once i got past of being scared of you at arrowhon... you have been my good friend.. you have been there for me all these years... and you were there when i needed you.. to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on..... you were there.. to drive me to lunch.. you were there... to let me express my anger.. you were there to provide some comical relief during calc class.... you are one of the best friends that i have.. and its sad that we will no longer be together like the way we were at cds.. but i know that we will remain friends for years to come.. i wanna thank you for being my friend for the last 4 years...

sarah- princess... we've had our memories.. whether it be crusin in the hummer.. or my spare.. ur art class.. you were there when i needed to talk.. you were there... for me.. always.. and i wanna say thank you.. though the distance between us may be far.. i hope that we will remain friends... thank you for the last 4 years

elise: my music buddie.. i'm glad that there is someone that i can share this interest with... we've had our fun moments.. "band" camp X 2...... band.. when ever i showed up.. choir.. and last but not least.. SOM... we had our fun making fun of piano lady.. didn't we??? though ur in western.. and i in windsor.. i hope that we will continue to share this bond..for many years to come..... thank you...

sterney: blondie.. thru the many years of butt smacking... and poking... and blond jokes.. you have stayed with me for so long.. and i wanna thank you.. for providing me with basketball memories.. spare memories.. society memories.... and i hope that we will continue to be friends.. b/c i would hate to lose someone to say blond jokes to... and you know.. that you will always remain my friend... madelinus sternus...

krystel: my newmarket buddie.. thru the painful pokes in society... and the endless celebrity life dreams in spanish.. we've had our many memories.. as you embark on your journey in life.. always remember... that i am always your friend.. and i hope you will remain mine as well.. thank you for the last 4 years...

cap: hey smartey pants... thank you for being there.. thank you for sharing nyc and band camp memories.. i wish that the distance b/w us wasn't so far.. but i hope we will remain friends till forever..... i wish you the best of luck in washington....

caitlin: gurl...we've shared some good moments.. whether it be, being lost in paris.. band camp.. or just sitting on a dock talking... we've shared many things.. and its sad to see us not together anymore.. i hope that we will continue to stay in touch.. i wish you the best of luck.. as you continue ur life at cds.. you'll need it.. lots of luv

to my music bois.. frankie.. james.. shay.. leppo.. will...

thanks for all the memories that you have shared with me... nyc.. band camp.. som.. whether it was skipping band or making fun of ms. piano lady... we've had loads of fun.. thank you for stickin with me all these years... you have all seen me at my most cranking and bitchy moments.. friday morning band.. and still you have all continued to be there for me.. thank you.... thank you for "bobo"... its something i will carry with me for the rest of my life.. at first.. i hated that name.. but eventually i realized.. it was something special b/w all of us... and i will never forget it.. ever.. i promise... and i hope you won't too... let's keep the bond alive

to all the others.. tommy seymour.. chris.. ang.. alana.. hubbert.. shortie #1.. olivia.. vaness.. liz..

thank you to you all.. for being there with me thru everything... tho we will no longer be together.. i want you all to know.. that you will forever remain in my heart.. i will be always thinking of you.. and the moments that we have shared will always be cherished..


to my other friends:

sammi: we've known each other for a long time.. since markville?? i think.. and... you've been there whenever i needed someone to talk to.. even if it was about something stupid.. and you've been one of the most supporting and reliable people i know.. we've gone thru many things together.. you've helped me get over a lot of things.. and i truly want to thank you for all the help, advice, and love you have given me.. thank you so much.. and as we go forth into different paths.. i hope that our paths will once again cross... and i hope that we will remain forever friends.. best of luck in western... lots of luv

jo: my "sis".. so many ppl think of us as sisters.. b-ball camp.. just random ppl.. and in a way.. i feel that it is somewhat true.. i've known you for as long as i can remember... like a good 10 years... long long time.. and from the very begginning.. you were a great friend.. we've been thru a lot together.. some happy.. and some not so happy.. but even so.. you stuck with me till the very end.. and thank you for that.. i hope that we will remain friends.. best of luck in western...

jess: my paul frank buddie.. thanx for being such a great friends these years.. we've shared many good memories.. karoake in hong kong.. westlife fever.. thanks for the many memories.. best of luck in mcmast

cy: you've been a great friend.. and tho we might not always agree on all the same things.. we've still managed to have lots of good memories.. thanx for that... good luck in your last year of highschool

peter: tho, we've only known for 2 years... we've shared many great memories.. as we go our separate ways.. i hope we will remain friends.. good luck in tyndale

jer: once again.. we've only known for a short span of 2 years.. you've provided me with a lot of comical relief.. thanx for that.. we've had lots of memories in the last while... i will remember them.. dun fret.. when you're lonely in halifax..remember.. that i'm always here.... to call.. and bother.. whatever you like... good luck at dal...

edga: tho in the last lil while.. we haven't talked as much as we use to... i still wanna thank you for all the many memories that we shared.. whether talking about girls or just life in itself.. thank you for being my friend...

miu miu: thanx for being a great friend for the last 10 years.. i think... we shared many good memories.. pioneer club.. pokey boi.. thanx for being my friend...

to all the others: rachel, joyce, jon,

thanks for being my friend.. these years.. we've shared many good memories.. i will never forget.. good luck in high school

BLACKOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aaah... this lil incident with the power and stuff.... made me realize.. how much we rely on technology and how much of it we actually take for granted... i mean... thursday nite.. got home early from work at wonderland cuz park closed... .so driving home.. i called my daddie n' asked him if we needed can goods.. went to the nearest convenience to buy can foods rite.. i walk in.. its PITCH dark... and there's a humongous line up to buy food and stuff... wow..

and then got home..me n' my daddie cooked food using our camping stove.. uh.. u know.. the hot pot stoves.. yuppidy do.. thats what we made.. we had dumplings.. interesting.. and then we had steak after too.. cuz our fridge was thawing out... and our yummi steaks were gonna go bad.. so steak it was...

sat around...reading magzines... attempting to play the piano with no lite... that was rather interesting... lots of wrong notes.. and then my daddie had this brilliant idea... let's go cruisin.. to look at stars.. we drove.. and u know the strange thing.. i never appreciated street lites.. but with the pitch darkness.. it was scary yet really pretty.. everything was dark.. except for the occasional flitter, flatter of candle fire... and then it was dark...

dark enough to see all the constellation.. and oh. oh. oh.. MARS it was so bright and pretty.. aaah.. amazing...

i never realized how important some things were...
1) communication
2) basic fan/ac..
3) lighting

i mean really.. like no phones.. no cell phones.. couldn't talk to any body.. so forced to sit at home n' talk with my daddie...

and some things.. i realized.. i spent way to much time on.. like TV... i watch too much of it... and even the computer.. i'd spend hours none stop.. and just surf the web... for nothing in particular...but when u can't surf anymore.. u realize.. there's more thigns that you can do .. that are equally satisfying.. such as board games... i found my simpsons.. chess set.. yeah.. i'm a nerd.. but surprisingly enough... i spent an hour.. playing chess with my dad.. at like 3 am.. when it was just too hot to sleep.. i woke up cuz it was too hot..

but yeah.. just so much realization after this black out... so many things we take for granted... so many things.. we waste our time and money and effort on.. that eventually.. will be useless to you..

chilz...

so its been a few days since i blogged... and nothing much has happened... in fact.. NOTHING!!!!!... thats how boring it is... the days starts.. and i wake up.. go to work.. come home.. 8 hours laters.... eat something.. watch a lil tv... usually till conan ends.. and then.. around 1:30... i go to bed.. and then the next morning.. the cycle starts all over again..

oh one thing..

why are kids of this era.. not as sweet and innocent as they should be.. i mean they're kids.. right... i'm talking lil 4-8 year olds... i was talking to my mommi on the phone d otha day.. and i asked how my baby eric was... he's my almost 3 years old cousin... and my mommi said he was mean.. and rude to everybody...

the last time i saw him.. precisely a year ago.. he was this lil sweet boy who always refered to himself in da 3rd person.. he was cute n' adorable.. but now he's mean??? what happened??

and its not just my lil cousin... i mean lik... i c kids at wonderland all the time rite.. and these kids are rude and disobedient and ugh... so frustating... if they were my kids.. i swear.. i would have like thrown them away.. haha.. no.. i just dun understand how they can be so Ugh.... like these lil kids.. they come up.. and start poking me for now reason.. and they stick their hand in my apron.. try to take some of my money.. and i'm like??? Excuse me?????? or worse.. one kid.. takes a hockey stick from the sports range.. and tries to hit his mom and his lil brother with it.. they didn't even do anything...

what the hell is wrong with kids nowadays??? man.. so bad.. ignorant, rude, and everthing else.. i mean.. for sure.. there are kids out there who are very good kids.. but it seems those kids are slowly disappearing.. and reappearing as stupid idiotic rude kids... whats up with that??


anywoo...

latz

yesterrday.. i swear was the most hectic day ever.. at least for me during the summer.. even more so than when exams are going on .. i swaer.. so let me tell you

8:00 ~ wake up
9:15-4:30 ~ work at wonderland... 7 hours.. 7 hours.... aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
5:00 ~ pick up guy
5:15 ~ went to hallmark to buy melody's gift...
5:30 ~ drove to church to pick up jer to get cake
5:30-6:00 ~ waited at church for haf an hour.. for jer.. only to find out.. he could have ordered the cake on the phone..geez
6:30 ~ had dinner at fmp with guy.. a lil bonding time.. ha...
7:00 ~ had to pick up dinner for cy.. a lil rat incident.. ha
7:30 ~ drove peter to get dinner.... y?? i dun really know
8:00 ~ concert of prayer thingy at church.. stayed for a haf hour.. was... "interesting"
9:00 ~ went to pick up jo.. thinking she was coming for the b-day party.. but she wasn't.. so i wasted haf hour and gas to drive to her house
9:45 ~ went back to church to pick up cy.. he had to get his wallet from home...
10:00 ~ went to pick up cake all the way at yonge n' elgin mills.. mad far...
10:30 ~ MHQ

here's the worst part.. at MHQ.. a bunch of ppl nobody knew came along.. precisely gr.9's nobody knew who this one kid was.. litteraly.. i didn't, jes didn't, rachel didn't.. no clue.. no idea who even invited them in the first place..
ppl who said they weren't comign showed up.. and then ppl who we knew.. but wasn't invited came along.. precisely one person.. she wasn't even close with either "melody" or "jess"..... but aside from that.. the night was pretty kewl... a bunch of ppl i dun normally hang around with was there..amanda... alexa... melody.. we enjoyed ourselves.. it was mad fun to see peter, jer, edgar, mike and cy make a fool of themselves trying to serenade the girls with their horrible off tune singing.. ha.. mad funni....

12:40 ~ left MHQ and was suppose to go dt... for cassi's going away.. they told me before.. they were going dt to some place.. and then i drive dt.. call them... guess where they are... they tell me they're at palatzo.. i can't spell.. so..
1:30 ~ arrive at palatzo.. sorrie.. sp... i'm dead tired by then... and they're like let's change places.. lets go for a drinnk somewhere.. i'm like "no... i'm tired".. but who listens to me?? blah....
2:00 ~ we end up going to some gino bar in woodbridge.. and drink and eat and what not.. till like 4:00...
5:30 ~ i dun get home till this hour.. why?? i ahve to drive ppl home... one dt.. one in north york.. and oh.. one in nobleton.. fun eh???
6:00 ~ finally fall sleep. and now.. at 11:00am.. i'm awake.. and have to leave for work in less than 15 minutes.. majorlie tired.. someone shot me!!!!!!


latz

so.. i got the new jay chou!!!!!!!! yeah...... jay chou rox like u wouldn't believe.. my cousin carrie got it for me in hk... its mad cheaper there and so she lined up adn everythign to get it for me.. now all i have to do is wait till my mommie comes back on the 20th...

oh yeah.. mommie left for hk.. me left in canada with daddy... and well miranda n ivan too.. but they dun live at home... so its fun and stuff.. cuz my daddi dun care about care about what i do.. to a sense.. adn i can go out and do whatever.. whenever.. so all good....

last few days has been fun... but boring..working.. eating...sleeping.. and then repeating the cycle over and over again... i need to find something fun to do at home....


Happy Early B-day Jess!!!!Happy 18th.. You Old.. Very Old... hehe jokes

she's my paul frank buddy... her b-day is actually tommorow.. but thats okay rite???

anyhow.. gtg eat breakfast.. me starving like a ... um.. whats an analogy one can use to describe hunger?

starving like a beast???
starving like a pig??
like a dog??
like a kitty cat??
like a dragon??


mmmmm... gotta figure that one......

lates

i was bored just a lil while ago.. and so for some odd reason.. i stranded upon this site.. and i found all these cool skins.. i'm experimenting with which one i wanna use..

u see.. i sux at html.. i sux to rock the html world back in the day.. but i haven't used it in so long.. i completely forget.. i have horribly bad memory.. so anyhow.. now i have to resort to using other ppl's.. but hey.. its all good rite?? they put them there.. so ppl will use them..and it says created by whoever on it rite??

anyhow.. its 12:40 gtg zzzzz...


c u later alligator.... haha i'm just a loser!

so the summer has officially started.. its almost the end of july.. wow.. time passed by really quickly.. and chinese school is now over... my life has now resorted to mad working at wonderland!!! like 8 hours a day.. 5-6 days a week.. mad.. and i'm like standing in the baking sun.. sweating like a pig... but on the bright side.. the ppl who work at med games with me are pretty cool..

university/highschoool??? i guess i finally did make a decision.. U of Windsor it is.. although i'm only doing part time.. cuz i dun really plan on staying there.. i'm transferring to acadia come sept 2004... i mean there's nothing wrong with windsor.. its just acadia just stayed in my head.. ppl there were so amazing.. and the professors were so nice!!!! omg... so yeah..
i'm taking 2 courses... actually 3 cuz 2 of them are 1.5... so i'm taking Basic Skills... which is literally Ear Training.. and then Music Theory and last but not least... 1 hour lessons on my lov-e-l-y oboe... and then on the side.. not for credit.. taking wind ensemble.. all i need to do is get a b- accumulative on my courses.. and then my transfer will be complete!!! woohooo!!!!!!!

oh... another funny thing.. ha.. my format is turning into my last blog.. hehhe

so i work at med arcade the other day rite... and mad crzy.... white ppl.. brown ppl.. viets..and just about any person u swa.... all mad crazy for ddr and para para... they 're like memorizing the steps and everythign... mad hardcore rite.. on the other hand some of them sux... they were like random jumping.. i'm like.. u gotta jump at this time.. when the foot light goes on.. u kno??? and they're like ok wutever.... haha.. the funniest thing to ever see.. me and this other guy alex... chinese.. he's mad hardcore para par.. he does like the hardest level and gets like A... max combo of like 200 man.. hardcore.. anyhow.. we're working at med arcade... and we're like standing there laughin at ppl.. haha so fun..

aah... IKEA!!!!! i can't wait to go... need to mad shop for dorm stuff.. not even funni... lights, phones, bedsheets, pillows, desk organizer stuff, plates, cups, pots and pans, mirror, wall stuf.f.. so much incredibly.. yeah!!!!! i luv ikea.. they have some fo the greatest stuff... but not for mad expensive either.. not like pottery barn.. i love the stuff there.. but mad expensive.. like a lamp for like $80.. yeah.. rite.. i'd break it in like 2 secs... hehe

mom is leaving for hk soon.. i get to new stuff.. Most importantly .... JAY CHOU"S NEW CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... its out july 31.. which is soon.. my cuz carrie is lining up to buy it for me.. cuz u know... jay chou is amazing.. everybody luv jay... so ppl line up... and then.. my aunt is getting me my new earrings and stuff.. and hair stuff and what not.. mommie is gonna get me my new cds adn dvd.. especially.. "twins effect" the new daniel wu and miriam movie and a few others.. much have daniel wu... no... must have daniel wu.. hehe

so yah.. gtg mad clean my room so i kno exactly wut i need to buy for dorm..


chilz

latz

its officially been a while since my last blog.. and my that i mean my last real blog.. school has ended..and i have working at my 3 sumer jobs.. a lot eh?? for month of july.. i work 70 hours a week.. mad crazy.. i'm considering not working at one of the jobs... cuzz i'll die other wise.. no sleep and pur work... i'll slowly go crzy.. everybody knows how lazy i am.. i'll die of over energy usage.. haha..

university/highschool?? what difference does it really make.. i never really considered taking an extra year to just relex and take bird course. get better grades.. but it is seriously a top contender rite now.. that plus the fact uni's are so slow and stupid.. they can't even tell me if they got my final transcripts yet.. and they were mailed out like 3 weeks ago.. so stupid.. see .,.. if i got back to high school and go to newmarket high.. my 5 ocurses wil be, 12 music keyboard, 12 instrumental music, 12 repertoire badn, 12 musical theatre and12 exercise science or maybe some other course like taht.. see how easy my years would be.. easily 90's especially in all the music courses.. mad easy..

oh.. the funniest thing.. tuesday morning.. was danielle, peter, rachel and jess's day to leave for mexico rite.. so me jer jon sam and godfrey decided to go see them off.. the thing was.. their plane left at 7am so we had to be at airport for 5.. rite.. so i was suppose to drive to sam's house and pick her up at around 4:00...in the morning.. i was talking to sam till around 2 am.. and then slept for 1 1/2 hours and then drove to her house.. i got there.. she godfrey and danielle were ready to go.. so we drove to rachels.. so rachel could drive danielle to airport.. dun ask.. so we got to rachels.. her alarm clock is going off.. and her cell phone isn't picking up.. so we wait outside her house for like 20 mintues.. and then we try calling jon at this time rite.. cuz jer was suppose to drive to jons.. where i would then pick them up.. and guess wut?? both jer and jon didn't wake up in time.. but the funniest thing about this all is.. jon slept thru 2 alarm clocks.. and 20 phone calls. from me and fre.. i mean. how is that humanly possible????

oh stupidest thing.. Don't go to Watch T3.. majorly sux.. u know how the movie was so like advertised.. suppose to be so amazing.. ugh.. i went to see it today with jon, sam, jer, and guy at rainbow rite.. and the movie wasn't actually that good.. the most stupid ending ever tho.. wut the hell is with the "no actual war.. only suppose to survive" crap.... there's suppose to be a war.. you know judgement day and the nuclear war?? wut the hell is with the survival thing?? i paid good monie to go see humans and machines fighting.. that majorly suxed.....


chinese school has been fun so far.. lots of people around..ppl volunteering.. such as kai miu, rita, justin, guy, sammi (1 day), dexter, carol and angel.. oh lets not forget jer and godfrey.. they were suppose to come .. but never did.. shame on u ... danielle, tiff, and jess lam are going to be helping later.. should be interesting..

the 'rents are leaving for lil trip to cousins's graduation in england later on in july ... should be fun to have house to myself for an entire week.. just do whatever i want.. no rules.. sweet!!!! and then mom is leaving to hk for the whole month of august.. i can get mad shopping stuff.. for cheap.. dirt cheap.. hk is so dirt cheap.. need to get cds and clothes and so much stuff. sweet.. and after .. yan yan.. or ma ma.. is coming back to live with us for a while.. till whenever.. i'll have good food to eat.. yeah.. yan yan is a chef and so was my kung kung .. so they make sweet food.. so yeah.. anyhow.. its like 12 midnight now.. need mad sleep so energy for work tommorow..

latz

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