why the similiarities are non-existent.. i look nothing like this.. wut happened?? 15 years and there is no resemblance whatsoever.. urgh

i luv it when i clean my room and i find old pictures or gifts.. well in this case its a picture.. 1987 my family christmas picture.. 17 years ago.. awww

cute ain't it?
celebrating my 3rd birthday with my siblings @ mei foo in hk.. we all look so different now.. man we should take a picture of the 3 of us.. and see the difference.. hehe

i'm done!!! all my exams..

je suis fini!!

sweetness.

home i come!!!!

see you all back there :)

Love & Hate of Exams

..exams make me grumpy
..exams make me sad
..exams make me mad
..exams make me frustated
..exams make me insane
..exams make me angry
..exams make me bitchy
..exams make me nervous
..exams make me anxious
..exams make me MOODY

..exams make me feel sick
..exams make my stomach pains worse
..exams make me OD on tylenol 3
..exams make me get the flu
..exams make my body ache all over
..exams make my shoulder & back hurt.. :(
..exams make my sleep patterns go wacked
..exams make me tired
..exams make me sleepy
..exams make me have to survive on 3 hr sleep daily
..exams make me OD on sleeping pills

..exams make me lose weight (in a bad way)
..exams make me gain weight .. how the losing + gaining @ the same time works?? is way beyond me!
..exams make me waste $ on eating out
..exams make me a can food addict
..exams make vegetables/fruit non-existent
..exams make me have junk food cravings
..exams make me my buy LOADS of junk food
..exams make me a Coca-Cola Addict

..exams make me messy
..exams make my room a pig sty
..exams make my closet a random mess
..exams make my already big stack of dirty laundry EVEN HUGER
..exams make my desk unorganized
..exams make my carpet stain filled
..exams make my pens go missing
..exams make my stack of dirty dishes as high as the ceiling
..exams make my room smell nasty
..exams make me LAZY
..exams make me forget to clean the fish tank (it really smells!! & the water is cloudy.. ewww )

..exams make me get bad marks
..exams make me fail
..exams make me feel insuperior
..exams make me dumb
..exams make me useless
..exams tell me i have no idea what i'm doing
..exams tell me i dunt know anything
..exams tell me i sux @ the oboe
..exams tell me i can't finger-pick on the guitar
..exams tell me i can't sight sing, sight read, or sight clap rhythms
..exams tell me im in the wrong program

..exams make me lose hope
..exams make me lose faith
..exams make me give up
..exams make me wanna be a drug addict
..exams make me wanna be an alcoholic

..exams make me miss home
..exams make me wanna go home
..exams make me miss home made food
..exams make me miss my friends
..exams make me antisocial
..exams make me miss going out on weekends


HOWEVER, on a brighter note

..exams mean i can go home soon
..exams mean i can go Christmas shopping soon
..exams mean the semester is so close to over
..exams mean the year is almost over
..exams mean CHRISTMAS is soon
..exams mean Christmas decorations
..exams mean Christmas gifts are arriving
..exams mean decorating the family Christmas tree
..exams mean Christmas Dinners are soon
..exams mean Christmas get-to-gethers are in less than 2 weeks
..exams mean fattening up on the yummy food soon

..exams mean New years is soon..exams mean New Years Celebrations!
..exams mean 2005 is less than 20 days away

..exams mean a new semester
..exams mean never taking those same courses again


man..the love & hate relationship of exams..i hate it when exams come.. but i'm so anxious and happy for them to be over

4 down.. 1 more to go

2pm train back to T.O on Saturday

Newmarket.. here i come
mommy & daddy.. here i come
home sweet home.. hopefully my fishie will find a home while i'm gone.. :(i hope they don't die :P


Christmas!!! I am anxiously awaiting your arrival!!!

cute lil candy snowmen ^.^

its beeen a while.. the last few weeks have been very confusing, yet also very enjoyable... strange yes .. i know

confusing: trying to rearrange my life.. straighthen things out. .figuring out what i've been doing wrong.. reprioritizng my activities..

i've had a sudden change in heart.. about many things.. i mean.. ive kinda tried to avoid certain things in my life.. just simply because i was afraid of what has happened, what might have happened, what would happen, what might happen.. and now that i look back on it.. sometimes i screwed up really badly.. and i didn't necessarily have to.. b/c of my fear, i couldn't see the logical answer..

and if i had.. i guess my life would have turned my differently.. i dunno whether for the better or for the worse tho.. i guess it doesn't really matter what the past is about.. a lot of things made me realise.. the past is the past.. ur mistakes in the past can't be changed.. u can however change how the future will be..

there are many things i kno that i need to work on:
having faith in myself
having faith in others
honesty
admitting that i'm wrong
dealing with $$$.. man i'm a chronic shop-a-holic.
relying on HIM
trusting HIM
having faith in HIM
loving HIM with all my heart
staying in the right path..
and the list could go on and on...

but on a brighter side..
life has been very enjoyable for the last little while.. at least in comparison to b4..

in so many ways.. ive realized that i've been blessed..
with a great family ^.^
with amazing friends :P
opportunities to DIE for!
just having "things".. basic necessities.. i realized how fortunate that i've been just to be able to grow up in the environment that i did. having food and clothing and water.. technology.. transportation.. loving family.. relatively healthy body with no serious medical problems or diseases.. I'm Grateful...

and i can't even tell u how long its been since i've felt that way.. i've always thought.. its not fair.. life is unfair.. y can some ppl live the perfect life.. have everything.. and why couldn't i have it?
why couldn't i have this?? and why couldn't i have that.. i always wanted more..

and i mean i still think that life's unfair and wut not.. but i've kind of learned to appreciate the things i have..

many times.. u dun realize how privileged u are.. until u see what life would be like otherwise... and its kinda sad that we only realize it afterwards.. but at least we do.. so i'm very grateful for everything that i have.. and i dun think i would trade it for anything..

ah.. so this past weekend.. awesome i say.. sweetness.. lots of fun.. was longer than expected.. even better..

thursday: both profs for the day were away.. so no classes.. took 5pm train into london.. had dinner with jo & her housemates.. went out for the night w/frankie.. saw james.. meet their housemates.. fun fun :)

friday: went to the nerdy music classes with elise :), then lcbo with jo.. haha.. good nite.. drinking.. and german ppl!! hehe.. sorrie for falling asleep.. went out to G.T's on richmond with alexa, andrea, and jo.. was fun. well except for the creepy asian dude.. haha

saturday: i woke up early again!!! 2 weeks in a row!!! mad shopping @ birch run.. met some pretty kewl western ppl.. OLDIES all the way!!! bought some new gear.. sweetness

3 new shirts
new pink tongue twisters by kswiss!! baby!!
some christmas gifts for ppl
man.. mad cheapness @ bath & body works
mad cheapness @ aeropostale
mad cheapness @ reeboks

dinner @ big boys.. haha.. mad oldies for 2 hours on the way home!! woohoo!! man i miss the oldies.. thanx.

sunday: slept in.. breakfast with the "alma" girls.. minus sarah..add layla.. fun fun.. good food.. cheap tho.. :) very happy

so good weekend :)

HOLY FUCK!!! i fuckin hate bell mobility!!!

they fuckin stole $101 from my account w/o my approval!! i had never ever signed up for pre-authorized payment with them!!! and they just stole it!!! they didn't even fuckin send me a bill for the $101!
FUCKIN BELL!!!

i swear.. bell business office is gonna get one hell of a beating tommorow morning!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!
the $ in my account.. i needed to pay stuff tommorow too!!!

FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK

aah.. this wkend.. tho short.. and not as expected.. was still great :)

friday:

stupid damn ass train got in 45 mins late.. oh well..
korean bbq with 'rents.. yummi :P haven't had that since hk
dropped of @ mcbc
went to demetres with jo, cheryl, guy, peter, garway and tim.. hmmm.. yummi crepes.. thanx for coming out
went back to jo's house.. raptors game & pigging out.. ewww dessert alcohol.. gross!!!

saturday:

believe it or not.. i woke up @ 9am on a SATURDAY morning!!! ha!.
went to vaughan mills with jo and her mom..
meet up with my mom at 11ish

shopped around till around 4.. bought lots of goodies :) new roxy jacket, 2 sweatshirts, 1 sweater (pink) hehe, pants, pjs, skirt

afternoon tea with my mommie.. got my hair cut short.. wanna see??

drove mom 2 church.. picked up there by d and chris... got a pretty necklace.. wanna see?

went to pizza hut.. yummie

drove around till lepp got off work..

went to an interesting choice of destination... haha.. saw lepp make a fool of himself in the midst of about 50-60 strange men.. and like 10 women.. (thanx d & lepp for the drinks, & chris for just staying there :P )

went home

sunday:

woke up .. had bkfast with my mommi.. went to mcbc with her..
lunch with mom, dad, uncle joseph and auntie rosetta..
costco.. yeah i'm a costco member now!! haha
cell phone fixd...

OMG!!! i luv chinese stores & their discounts!!!!

went to fmp.. was gonna buy a new cell.. but then saw one of the stores had repair service.. so decided to check that out.. man.. $30 and my cell phone is now officially fixed and workign!!! ha! props to chinese ppl and their cheap prices!!!

compare $30 @ chinese place.. and over $100 with rogers techs.. boo urns on rogers

train home..

so i had a pretty good wkend.. cant wait till the next one @ western..

too tired to blog all bout this weekend.. 2 highlights

1. Demetres

2. Lepp making a fool of himself in public!!! "strip"

will blog more later..stay tuned

good morning.. good morning..

y the sudden jolly mood?? well..

its my day of legalization after all.. ha!! i'm finally 19
and continuing with tradition.. well at least from last year...

props to:

momi & daddi
ivan
miranda
tiff
maddie
tamara
6e
LL
Aimee
Sarah
Melissa
Faith
Sam
Jo
Leppo


i'm very excited this weekend.. hehe.. can't wait ... this weekend and next.. loads of fun

heres the lowdown..

friday: train home @ 2pm.. dinner with 'rents.. out with jo, and some mcbc'ers
saturday: shopping with mom..haircut.... dinner with mom.. out with leppo and cds ppl
sunday: mcbc.. lunch with ???... out for some fun with the fobbers.. 7pm train back to the ghetto

next weekend:
friday: train to western @ 2pm.. either dinner with cds western fellas.. out with them after?? or shopping in states with jo, sam & their friends
saturday: out with jo and sam.. man i missing them.. haven't seem sammi since summer
sunday: out with jo and sam... train back to the ghetto at 7pm

itll be fun :)
fun i desperately need..
i'll take pics and load later

Happy 19th Birthday to Me!!!!!

i have this new blog thing.. its just a place for me to randomly pictures.. things i'm feeling.. things i'm missing.. and wut not.

My Life Thru Visuals


basically its a photo blog...

Flutters & Brows again 

Flutter 

Flutters & Brows 

Countdown!!!!!!

5 days!!! wee!! i'm so excited..

5 days till:

1) i'm legal to drink
2) i'm legal to buy cigarettes
3) i'm legal to gamble in casinos
4) i'm legal to go clubbing..
5) no more worrying about using fake id
6) my 1st legal hangover in windsor

6 days till:

1) my 1st legal hangover in t.o
2) going shopping for winter gear

12 days till:

1) my 1st legal drinking esponage @ western
2) my 1st legal hangover in western
3) a good weekend.. courtesy of jo & sam
4) my tattoo!!! wee... i'm so excited about this.. yet freaked.. its gonna hurt.. and i'm scared of pain.. but thats ok.. i'll have to deal

but unfortanetly... b4 i get to do all of these things.. i gotta deal with a test on friday!!! the one day of importance!! a test!!! boo urns!! it better not spoil my day!!

enuf with the whole lovey dovey backgrounds... i'm so past that now..
thought i'd go back to my own and only original love.. of jay chou.. ha!

surprisingly .. he looks pretty good in the pic.. thats pretty odd.. jay is not exactly a good lookin fella... but he's very "cool".. "yau ying"..

i luv his musik and his image matches that of it..
so yeah..
enjoy

so i'm sitting here at 3:22 AM ... unable to sleep.. just like every other night this week.. well except for last nite...

i dunno even kno y this whole insomnia thing is.. its not like i'm really busy or anything..

every night i find myself @ the same place... wanting to fall asleep b/c my body physically is tired.. i'm yawning.. and my eyes are starting to shut..so i change and get ready for bed.. i'd lie in my bed for 30-45 mins w/o no avail.. not being able to sleep.. i've tried so many different things too.. more blankets.. less blankets.. heat.. no heat.. music.. no music.. lights.. no lights.. warm milk.. warm tea.. lots of different things.. even sleeping pills.. and i'm still stuck..
i dun end up being able to fall asleep usually till like 4am..

man..major suckage.. i wanna sleep.. i have early classes that i actually have to go to.. and i can never wake up for them.. i sleep rite thru my alarm clocks.. and i have 4!!!!!! 4 different ones that go off in 5 minute intervals... I DUNT HEAR ANY!!!!!!

i need to go see a doctor or something..


and then i set my clock to wake up at say like

so it ends up.. i HAFTA get a new cell phone..

my motorola c350 decided to break down on me.. wont even turn on.. went to ask rogers..
my warranty is over.. so

i have 4 options...

1) get it fixed.. $25 labour fee just to see whats wrong with it.. plus like $50 -$100 to get it actually fixe

2) cancel service.. $200

3) preupgrade.. $100 to upgrade.. plus $27-$87 to buy the phone

4) buy a new cell phone on my own and use my sim card..

now the first 3 options make no sense to do.. so #4 it is..

i now need to find a good cell to actually buy w/o having to spend too much $.. i'm definetly low rite now.. i need a job.. but nobody wants to hire me.. :(


all the ones that i wanted are too expensive

anybody got any cell phone suggestions for me??