is it really that hard to get someone out of ur head??

i mean.. ive never really had that big of a problem with it.. ever

and it took me at the most 1 month?? i guess.. i dun really even kno for sure.. never kept track...

but ... i find it harder & harder to forget...

reading week.. i dreaded going back.. cuz i'd have to see you.. and even tho i knew seeing you would help me get thru it..the feelings go away.. i still didn't want to.. and i tried my hardest to avoid confrontation..

and i guess my hard work paid off.. cuz i never did see you.. for many reasons.. laziness.. weather.. to name a few...

instead of seeing u for the short week.. i ended up talking to u .. more often than i have in the last 3 4 weeks.. and i guess that mite be the problem.. without having heard from u.. or seen u... for such a long time..i kinda started to forget about u..

and then the sudden dreading of having to see u set in.. and all of a sudden talking to u once again.. it bought the feelings back out..

i told myself to forget.. to not put some thought into it..b/c i knew there was nothing there.. nothing to beginning with.. and nothign there now...

but why couldn't i get u out of my head?

as i sit here.. trying to figure out my thoughts.. i dun even know where we are.. friends?? more than friends?? or not even friends??

i mean .. we use to be friends.. but our relationship has sorta gone in the ditch.. dun talk so much anymore.. dun hang out no more..so where are we??

i dun even kno where exactly i stand in this whole situation.. where do i want to be?? do i want to move on?? do i want to stay where i am??

i wish i knew.. that way.. i wouldn't have to think about it..