things come and go.. part of life is to learn to deal with the sudden change... being able to live life having certain things.. and being ok with it when its taken away from you
i guess lifes hard that way... often.. when u want it the most.. its never there... and no matter how hard u try to get it...it wont ever come... no matter how much crying and pouting.. and screaming.. and fighting for it.. it still wont come.. just simply b/c the times not rite.. or its not meant to be..
and sometimes when u feel like u dunt need it.. it shows up rite in front of you.. like its flaunting you sometimes.. it really suxs when its like that.. it really does.. it makes u wonder... why couldnt you have been there just earlier?? when i needed u most?? now that i dunt need you, you come.. and whats the point?? whats the need now??
for me... at least...i find myself very angry b/c of this.. i can never bring myself to think that life isn't in my hands.. it never was.. and it never will be.. nothings in my control.. i have no power to change anything that ever happens.. im ignorant and stubborn that way..
tonite has been a bit of a revelation for me.. just sitting in my room thinking.. and listening to a chinese radio drama....made me think a lot..
i was listening to ŒÜ?¯‹‰“I‰Æ (5 star family) on 881903.com and the story really touched me.. it made me realized that life can be so confusing.. yet so good to you in ways u never thought.. in the example of the story.. the mother and her father had always fought..the father had always tried to do what was best for her daughter..but the daughter never knew.. b/c she thought that he was just stubborn and didn't care..
last few weeks of my life have been that i guess... a lot has happened.. and going home for christmas.. i dreaded talking to my parents.. i didn't wanna tell them that i had failed them.. i was afraid of the consequences of what might be.. so i kept on ignoring them.. kept on changing the topics.... but rite b4 i left.. i had no choice.. they brought it up.. and the whole time they asked me about it.. i kept thinking in my head.. why do u care?? its not ur life.. u have no rite to control my life.. and what choices to do with my life is my choice.. not yours.. but now...
i realized that life can be confusing.. sometimes true meanings are hidden.. and wut is visible... may not be the whole story.. i now realized.. that my parents have always had my interests as their top priority.. they have always wanted nothing but the best for me.. and i always thought the worst of them... thinking that they were bossy and controlling..not wanting to let me grow up and be independent..but that was all totaly wrong!! they weren't like that.. not at all!!
unfortanetly in the story.. the daughter and father didn't get to fix their problems.. and overcome their misunderstandings till his deathbed.. im lucky enough to realized this now.. while i'm still young.... and can have many years of happiness with them..
my realization: no matter how much ur parents seem to be controlling ur life.. trying to protect.. shielding you.. from anything and everything.. THEY DO HAVE ONLY YOUR INTERESTS IN HEART!!! they dun want you to get hurt.. they dun want you to have to experience pains.. they dun wanna see you cry.. see u hurt.. they kno how much it hurts to have to life regrets.. they dun want the same for you... so i guess..
Be grateful for the things your parents do for you!!!
January 12, 2004
an interesting email i recieved today..and its kinda funny.. but also very true..
Formula for Success
A small truth to make our Life's 100% successful..........
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%
L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47%
(None of them makes 100%)
...............................
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!
Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps
change our "ATTITUDE".
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes
OUR Life 100% Successful..
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
Don't you think so?!?!?!
Formula for Success
A small truth to make our Life's 100% successful..........
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%
L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47%
(None of them makes 100%)
...............................
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!
Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps
change our "ATTITUDE".
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes
OUR Life 100% Successful..
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
Don't you think so?!?!?!
January 11, 2004
January 10, 2004
a lil stress relieving story.. courtesy of my bud Guy..
"HOW TO BEAT STRESS".
Enjoy..............
"For all of you who occasionally have a really bad day and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.
I was sitting at my desk, when I remembered a phone call I had forgotten to make. I found the number, and dialed it. A man answered saying, "Hello?" I politely said, "This is Bob, could I please speak with Robin?"
Suddenly, the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. I tracked down Robin's correct number, and called her (I had transposed the last two digits of her phone number.)
After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.
When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, "You're an asswipe!" and hung up.I wrote his number down, with the word 'asswipe' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him. He'd answer and I'd yell, "You're an asswipe!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID came to our area, I thought my therapeutic 'asswipe' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from the Telephone Company. I'm just calling to see if you're familiar with the caller ID program?" He yelled, "NO!" and slammed the phone down.
I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an asswipe!"
So, one day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off, and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I had been waiting for the spot.
The idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his car window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first asswipe (I had his number on speed dial), I thought I had better call the BMW asswipe, too. I dialed and someone said, "Hello?"
I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?"
"Yes it is."
"Can you tell me where I can see it?"
"Yes, I live at 1802 West 34th Street. It's a yellow house and the car's parked right out front."
"What's your name?" I asked.
"My name is Don Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Don?"
"I'm home every evening after five."
"Listen, Don, can I tell you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don, you're an asswipe!"
Then I hung up and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two asswipes to call. But after several months of calling them, it wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. So, I came up with an idea:
I called Asshole #1.
"Hello"
"You're an asswipe!" (but I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Don Hansen."
"Yeah, where do you live?"
"Asshole, I live at 1802 West 34th Street, a yellow house with my black Beemer out front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, asswipe."
Then I called Asshole # 2:
"Hello?" he said.
"Hello, Asshole," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your ass," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, asswipe, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then, I hung up, and immediately called the police saying that I lived at 1802 West 34th Street, and I was on my way over there to kill my gaylover.
Then, I called Channel 13 news about the gang war going down on West 34thStreet.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to 34th St. There, I saw two asswipes beating the crap out of each other in front of 6 squad cars, a police helicopter, and news crew.
Now, I feel much better"
Hope that helps the More stressed amongst you
"HOW TO BEAT STRESS".
Enjoy..............
"For all of you who occasionally have a really bad day and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.
I was sitting at my desk, when I remembered a phone call I had forgotten to make. I found the number, and dialed it. A man answered saying, "Hello?" I politely said, "This is Bob, could I please speak with Robin?"
Suddenly, the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. I tracked down Robin's correct number, and called her (I had transposed the last two digits of her phone number.)
After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.
When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, "You're an asswipe!" and hung up.I wrote his number down, with the word 'asswipe' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him. He'd answer and I'd yell, "You're an asswipe!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID came to our area, I thought my therapeutic 'asswipe' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from the Telephone Company. I'm just calling to see if you're familiar with the caller ID program?" He yelled, "NO!" and slammed the phone down.
I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an asswipe!"
So, one day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off, and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I had been waiting for the spot.
The idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his car window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first asswipe (I had his number on speed dial), I thought I had better call the BMW asswipe, too. I dialed and someone said, "Hello?"
I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?"
"Yes it is."
"Can you tell me where I can see it?"
"Yes, I live at 1802 West 34th Street. It's a yellow house and the car's parked right out front."
"What's your name?" I asked.
"My name is Don Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Don?"
"I'm home every evening after five."
"Listen, Don, can I tell you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don, you're an asswipe!"
Then I hung up and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two asswipes to call. But after several months of calling them, it wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. So, I came up with an idea:
I called Asshole #1.
"Hello"
"You're an asswipe!" (but I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Don Hansen."
"Yeah, where do you live?"
"Asshole, I live at 1802 West 34th Street, a yellow house with my black Beemer out front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, asswipe."
Then I called Asshole # 2:
"Hello?" he said.
"Hello, Asshole," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your ass," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, asswipe, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then, I hung up, and immediately called the police saying that I lived at 1802 West 34th Street, and I was on my way over there to kill my gaylover.
Then, I called Channel 13 news about the gang war going down on West 34thStreet.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to 34th St. There, I saw two asswipes beating the crap out of each other in front of 6 squad cars, a police helicopter, and news crew.
Now, I feel much better"
Hope that helps the More stressed amongst you
January 09, 2004
today is friday.. the 9th of january.. of the year 2004..
at aproximately 8pm tonite, i, for the very first time, made tong yuen!!! from scratch.. like taking glutinous powder.. making it into the shell of the glutinous balls and then filling it with lotus paste. i'm so proud of myself!!!! my one big thing for the nite!! wowo!!! i can't believe it!! so proud!!! wohooo!!!!!!
at aproximately 8pm tonite, i, for the very first time, made tong yuen!!! from scratch.. like taking glutinous powder.. making it into the shell of the glutinous balls and then filling it with lotus paste. i'm so proud of myself!!!! my one big thing for the nite!! wowo!!! i can't believe it!! so proud!!! wohooo!!!!!!
January 07, 2004
ugh... i hate this... i always get sick.. and when i do.. its always a bad flu or bad cold...ugh.. and i've missed class b/c of it.. rite now.. my head is pounding.. can't stop sneezing.. feeling the shiveries.. ugh.. i hate this..
:(
i dun have any more classes now... i missed basic skills, theory, private lesson, as well as reed class... so not kewl....
i'm just gonna end up chilling for the rest of the day in my bed... in my room.. trying to rest.. get better... so i can go to class tommorow... ugh.. i hate winter....
aside from being able to ski and snowboard... and having snowball fights.. i hate winter... i wish winter had snow.. but was never cold or windy.. ugh.... not fair..
:(
i dun have any more classes now... i missed basic skills, theory, private lesson, as well as reed class... so not kewl....
i'm just gonna end up chilling for the rest of the day in my bed... in my room.. trying to rest.. get better... so i can go to class tommorow... ugh.. i hate winter....
aside from being able to ski and snowboard... and having snowball fights.. i hate winter... i wish winter had snow.. but was never cold or windy.. ugh.... not fair..
January 06, 2004
aah.. i swear!!!!! i hate fire alarms!!! so not kewl!!!! one went off in my building at 4AM!!!!!! freakin 4 am!!!! so not kewl..
my whole building was standing outside in the freazin cold for like a good 30 minutes... not fair.. i was only wearing my pajamas and a jacket too.. soo cold!!!!!
:(
b/c of it.. i missed my appointment that was at 9am..and my psyc class that was at 10am... wanna kno why??
cuz the stupid fire alarm went off.. and i couldn't go back to back till like 530.. and only slept for like 2 hours.... so tired.. couldn't get up at 8.. which i had to get up by.. so ended up...being.. sleeping thru my appointment.. as well as my class!!!! soooo not kewl!!!!
my whole building was standing outside in the freazin cold for like a good 30 minutes... not fair.. i was only wearing my pajamas and a jacket too.. soo cold!!!!!
:(
b/c of it.. i missed my appointment that was at 9am..and my psyc class that was at 10am... wanna kno why??
cuz the stupid fire alarm went off.. and i couldn't go back to back till like 530.. and only slept for like 2 hours.... so tired.. couldn't get up at 8.. which i had to get up by.. so ended up...being.. sleeping thru my appointment.. as well as my class!!!! soooo not kewl!!!!
January 05, 2004
hey hey!!! its been a while since i've blogged... and christmas has been interesting.. and very long... parts of it sad.. parts happy.. parts confusing.. parts very mad.. aah.. too many emotions experienced.. in a short span of 3 weeks.. but yeah
skewl is back on... first day today...have some pretty fun classes this semester
Monday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Psyc Lab 2:30-3:20
Tuesday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Community Orchestra 7:00-9:30
Wednesday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Oboe Lesson 12:30-1:30
Reed Class 1:30-2:30
Thursday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Friday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
so the only really long day i have is Tuesday.. which isn't so bad.. but yeah..
so New Years!!!
my resolution:
is to do better in skewl.. and not to give up in anything too quickly.. try my hardest...
is to be patient.. and have faith..wait for things to occur naturally.. instead of forcing them to happen when i want them to
haha.. thats a lot of hard things.. i kno.. but i'm gonna try.. so if u ever hear me saying i give up.. please encourage me.. i need all the help i can get..
skewl is back on... first day today...have some pretty fun classes this semester
Monday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Psyc Lab 2:30-3:20
Tuesday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Community Orchestra 7:00-9:30
Wednesday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Oboe Lesson 12:30-1:30
Reed Class 1:30-2:30
Thursday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Friday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
so the only really long day i have is Tuesday.. which isn't so bad.. but yeah..
so New Years!!!
my resolution:
is to do better in skewl.. and not to give up in anything too quickly.. try my hardest...
is to be patient.. and have faith..wait for things to occur naturally.. instead of forcing them to happen when i want them to
haha.. thats a lot of hard things.. i kno.. but i'm gonna try.. so if u ever hear me saying i give up.. please encourage me.. i need all the help i can get..
December 30, 2003
December 11, 2003
Sigh!!! aaah.. its so nice to finally be done exams and have no worries.. 4 exams.. all done!! i think i did pretty good on most of them.. well except for psyc.. which i BOMBED!!!!.. i still pass the course.. i think.. but im not really too sure... hopefully they'll bell curve it up!!but yeah... i'm officially done exams !!! woohoo!!!
well actually.. not quite.. i still have jury to do tommorow.... its 3:45pm.. and i'm worried shitless for it.. and i dun think i even should.. considering.. i've been praticing my ass for it... but i kno me.. and i'll definetly screw up tommorow!!!
but yeah..
well actually.. not quite.. i still have jury to do tommorow.... its 3:45pm.. and i'm worried shitless for it.. and i dun think i even should.. considering.. i've been praticing my ass for it... but i kno me.. and i'll definetly screw up tommorow!!!
but yeah..
November 29, 2003
15 days.... till:
1) home cooked meal
2) my own bed
3) my own room
4) christmas tree w/lots of decorations..
5) snow!! and lots of snow!!
6) all my cds'ers
7) all my mcbc'ers
8) sushi!!!!!!
9) restaurant food.. not cheap ass vanier food!!
10) My MOMMI!!!.. and im proud to say so...
11) getting to see someone special... !!!!!
exams start on friday.. and i havne't even reallly started to study for that exam yet..
here's my schedule:
wednesday dec 3 - scales test
- basic skills individual exam
friday dec 5 - psyc 4pm
sunday dec 7 - woodwind studio class
- reed class
tuesday dec 9 - music theory exam 330pm
wednesday dec 10 - basic skills final exam 430pm
thursday dec 11 - music therapy exam 4pm
friday dec 12 - oboe jury 345pm
saturday dec 13 - train home 955am
long two weeks!! aah!!!!
ppl to get christmas gifts for:
MCBC
sam
jo
tiff
jess lam
jess ip
cyrus
godfey
jer
cathy
lil rachel
cards for:
amanda
lydia
jon
guy
rachel
joyce
eleana
peter 10 shiny 1996 pennies
CDS
des
chris
frankie
cards for:
leppo
shay
elise
ariana
sarah
james
andrew
family
mommie
daddi
ivan
miranda
6e
elaine
wcbc
wynne
fred
wai lit
manry
cards:
valerie
victor
max
raymond & alice
yeah.. so i'm totally gonna blow all my $$ away b/c of christmas presents and cards!! aah!!! someone wanna donate money to me?? haha.. wait.. i have to donate money to peter and jer first!! hmm.. how's that gonna work????
anyhwo.. gotta go back to lots of work and studying
1) home cooked meal
2) my own bed
3) my own room
4) christmas tree w/lots of decorations..
5) snow!! and lots of snow!!
6) all my cds'ers
7) all my mcbc'ers
8) sushi!!!!!!
9) restaurant food.. not cheap ass vanier food!!
10) My MOMMI!!!.. and im proud to say so...
11) getting to see someone special... !!!!!
exams start on friday.. and i havne't even reallly started to study for that exam yet..
here's my schedule:
wednesday dec 3 - scales test
- basic skills individual exam
friday dec 5 - psyc 4pm
sunday dec 7 - woodwind studio class
- reed class
tuesday dec 9 - music theory exam 330pm
wednesday dec 10 - basic skills final exam 430pm
thursday dec 11 - music therapy exam 4pm
friday dec 12 - oboe jury 345pm
saturday dec 13 - train home 955am
long two weeks!! aah!!!!
ppl to get christmas gifts for:
MCBC
tiff
jess lam
jess ip
cyrus
godfey
jer
cathy
lil rachel
cards for:
amanda
lydia
jon
guy
rachel
joyce
eleana
peter 10 shiny 1996 pennies
CDS
chris
frankie
cards for:
leppo
shay
elise
ariana
sarah
james
andrew
family
mommie
daddi
ivan
6e
elaine
wcbc
wynne
fred
wai lit
manry
cards:
valerie
victor
max
raymond & alice
yeah.. so i'm totally gonna blow all my $$ away b/c of christmas presents and cards!! aah!!! someone wanna donate money to me?? haha.. wait.. i have to donate money to peter and jer first!! hmm.. how's that gonna work????
anyhwo.. gotta go back to lots of work and studying
November 18, 2003
so i went over to london for the weekend.. and i gotta say.. u lucky asses!!! ugh.. have some much better than here in ghetto windsor.. so not fair!!!
for example:
1) jo's dorm room.. like twice my room size.. and she has double too!! and oh closet space... ugh!!!! ok how is this fair?? jo.. has like half the clothes i ahve..and she has more closet space than me!!! OOH!!! i luv ya jo..
2) dorm food... how come there's is better than ours?? how come? not fair.. i want decent dorm food
3) East Town PIZZA!!! they have a really good pizza place rite outside campus gates.. massive slice for $3!!!! and what do we have?? not even a good pizza place.. ugh
4) RICHMOND street. their dt is so much better.. lots of lil boutiques.. such as elizabeth noel, green earth.. archies..
5) Cafe Demetres.. we dun have one!! they do.. i wanna have desserts.. waaaa waaah!
now that i'm done complaining.. heres what i gotta say about my weekend..
Friday:
- train to london.. was so tired.. slept the whole 2 hours..
-took a taxi to syndeham hall...
-saw jo's room.. met her roomate.. honestly when she said her roomie was psycho. i didn't believe. but she is.. haha i mean that in a nice way.. hehe :)
-hung out for a hour or so..
-frankie came to pick me up
-went to essex hall.. saw jenna on the way there
-shay came over
-frankie made dinner!!!!!!! OOOOOh!!!! i didn't kno frankie even knew how to cook.. altho he did have a lil sauce problem.. hehe...
-shay left.. hung out.. watch cartoons with frankie
-went to cafe demetres.. jo was there w/friends.. frankie came too
-took taxi back to dorm
Saturday:
early morning
-played monopoly with natalie, jo, jo's roomate..
-mad fun.. u dun understand.. so much fun!!!!
4am.. went to bed
later that morning.. 11ish
-woke up..
-had breakfast at syndehnam caf
-went out to shop with jo and natalie.. around 1
-we walked all the way from main gates western to like almost VIA rail.. richmond.. thats pretty far!!!
-we went shopping along the way tho.. lots of kewl lil boutiques
-such as elizabeth noel, boxwoods, archies,
-had lunch at quiznos.. i missed the yummi subs.. :'(
-took a bus to white oaks.. shopped some more
-left at like 7:45..
-went to perfect image.. got my right ear cartilage pierced!!! woohoo..
-jo did too
-took taxi back to Easttown Pizza. bought amazing pizza!! yummi
-went back. .played monopoly some more..
- and then trivia pursuit.. with a bunch of ppl from jo's floor.. till like 2ish..
sunday
-woke up around 12..
-got ready to leave
-walked to Easttown to get another pizza for trip back
-took taxi to via rail..
-sat there waited for train
-got on train.. slept and slept.. till train arrived back in windsor...
all in all.. western weekend was fun!! thanx jo.. and all her floormates..
thanx shay and frankie.. for entertaining me on friday. lots of fun
so my list of things i bought over 8 hours and $350 later..
1) new boots.. from aldo..
2) new modrobes.. light blue.. mad cheap $18
3) these kewl lights.. for miranda's christmas present
4) b-day present for lauralei.. soap and bath salts..smell realli pwetty
5) christmas present for roomate.. soap and bath confetti..
6) new scarf.. roxy.. but not b/c it was roxy. but b/c it matched with my jacket.. realli.. nothign to do with roxy.. honestly..
7)got my cartilage pierced
8) bought lots of food..ate way too much
my next missions:
1) get most of my christmas shopping done b4 i got home.. which is the 13th.. i think..but then i dunno.. i kinda do have exams in 3 weeks.. hmm??
2) get my belly pierced.. no nerves there.. its just fat.. so mom will let me
3) tattoo... still thinking about that.. its kinda gonna be there forever so i dunno.. and if i do.. $130 .. thats a lot
4) start studying for my exams.. aah!!!!!
5) make plans for new years.. christmas is out..cuz up in ottawa with 'rents and miranda and ivan..
6) start thinkin about summer.. its a lil early.. but skewls over in less than 5 months.. aah!!
one big thing
Happy Birthday Lauralei.. 18th!!!
2 smaller things:
sammi n godfrey: thanx for the monkey and book.. did u kno the monkey's called bobo? coincidence or did u actually kno?
jo: thanx for the piercing..
last note:
i had a very good b-day weekend.. thanx everybody!!!
i'm out
for example:
1) jo's dorm room.. like twice my room size.. and she has double too!! and oh closet space... ugh!!!! ok how is this fair?? jo.. has like half the clothes i ahve..and she has more closet space than me!!! OOH!!! i luv ya jo..
2) dorm food... how come there's is better than ours?? how come? not fair.. i want decent dorm food
3) East Town PIZZA!!! they have a really good pizza place rite outside campus gates.. massive slice for $3!!!! and what do we have?? not even a good pizza place.. ugh
4) RICHMOND street. their dt is so much better.. lots of lil boutiques.. such as elizabeth noel, green earth.. archies..
5) Cafe Demetres.. we dun have one!! they do.. i wanna have desserts.. waaaa waaah!
now that i'm done complaining.. heres what i gotta say about my weekend..
Friday:
- train to london.. was so tired.. slept the whole 2 hours..
-took a taxi to syndeham hall...
-saw jo's room.. met her roomate.. honestly when she said her roomie was psycho. i didn't believe. but she is.. haha i mean that in a nice way.. hehe :)
-hung out for a hour or so..
-frankie came to pick me up
-went to essex hall.. saw jenna on the way there
-shay came over
-frankie made dinner!!!!!!! OOOOOh!!!! i didn't kno frankie even knew how to cook.. altho he did have a lil sauce problem.. hehe...
-shay left.. hung out.. watch cartoons with frankie
-went to cafe demetres.. jo was there w/friends.. frankie came too
-took taxi back to dorm
Saturday:
early morning
-played monopoly with natalie, jo, jo's roomate..
-mad fun.. u dun understand.. so much fun!!!!
4am.. went to bed
later that morning.. 11ish
-woke up..
-had breakfast at syndehnam caf
-went out to shop with jo and natalie.. around 1
-we walked all the way from main gates western to like almost VIA rail.. richmond.. thats pretty far!!!
-we went shopping along the way tho.. lots of kewl lil boutiques
-such as elizabeth noel, boxwoods, archies,
-had lunch at quiznos.. i missed the yummi subs.. :'(
-took a bus to white oaks.. shopped some more
-left at like 7:45..
-went to perfect image.. got my right ear cartilage pierced!!! woohoo..
-jo did too
-took taxi back to Easttown Pizza. bought amazing pizza!! yummi
-went back. .played monopoly some more..
- and then trivia pursuit.. with a bunch of ppl from jo's floor.. till like 2ish..
sunday
-woke up around 12..
-got ready to leave
-walked to Easttown to get another pizza for trip back
-took taxi to via rail..
-sat there waited for train
-got on train.. slept and slept.. till train arrived back in windsor...
all in all.. western weekend was fun!! thanx jo.. and all her floormates..
thanx shay and frankie.. for entertaining me on friday. lots of fun
so my list of things i bought over 8 hours and $350 later..
1) new boots.. from aldo..
2) new modrobes.. light blue.. mad cheap $18
3) these kewl lights.. for miranda's christmas present
4) b-day present for lauralei.. soap and bath salts..smell realli pwetty
5) christmas present for roomate.. soap and bath confetti..
6) new scarf.. roxy.. but not b/c it was roxy. but b/c it matched with my jacket.. realli.. nothign to do with roxy.. honestly..
7)got my cartilage pierced
8) bought lots of food..ate way too much
my next missions:
1) get most of my christmas shopping done b4 i got home.. which is the 13th.. i think..but then i dunno.. i kinda do have exams in 3 weeks.. hmm??
2) get my belly pierced.. no nerves there.. its just fat.. so mom will let me
3) tattoo... still thinking about that.. its kinda gonna be there forever so i dunno.. and if i do.. $130 .. thats a lot
4) start studying for my exams.. aah!!!!!
5) make plans for new years.. christmas is out..cuz up in ottawa with 'rents and miranda and ivan..
6) start thinkin about summer.. its a lil early.. but skewls over in less than 5 months.. aah!!
one big thing
Happy Birthday Lauralei.. 18th!!!
2 smaller things:
sammi n godfrey: thanx for the monkey and book.. did u kno the monkey's called bobo? coincidence or did u actually kno?
jo: thanx for the piercing..
last note:
i had a very good b-day weekend.. thanx everybody!!!
i'm out
November 12, 2003
so.. i'm 18 now.. for 19 hours and 5 minutes.. and i kinda feel a lil bit older.. now too much.. just a lil bit.. but wanna just give props to more ppl
aimee
becky
natalie
nicole
tracy my "roomate"
Sully.. from next door
Mommy
ivan
jenna
frankie
cap
sarah salomon
edgar
joycey woycey
long distance props
robbie.. all the way from england
macy..my cuz.. all the way from scotland
vera.. from hk
joey..my cuz.. from hk
kevin.. from australia..
camill.. from bc
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
tiff
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
mad props to
d
chris
special phone call.. wow i'm special!
MAD MAD PROPS
to Samantha Tam
w12.11.03
to sindy:
happy birthday!
have a delightful cakeful, ice creamful and chocolateful birthday! purple is a wonderful colour because it looks like taro...bbt?
posted by echephron at 12.11.03
check it out..
and last but not least
Happy 18th Birthday to Kyle..
my Birthday Buddy!
its just too bad i'm older than you.. 4 hours. 9 minutes.. I can boss you around!! wooho!!!
aimee
becky
natalie
nicole
tracy my "roomate"
Sully.. from next door
Mommy
ivan
jenna
frankie
cap
sarah salomon
edgar
joycey woycey
long distance props
robbie.. all the way from england
macy..my cuz.. all the way from scotland
vera.. from hk
joey..my cuz.. from hk
kevin.. from australia..
camill.. from bc
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
tiff
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
mad props to
d
chris
special phone call.. wow i'm special!
MAD MAD PROPS
to Samantha Tam
w12.11.03
to sindy:
happy birthday!
have a delightful cakeful, ice creamful and chocolateful birthday! purple is a wonderful colour because it looks like taro...bbt?
posted by echephron at 12.11.03
check it out..
and last but not least
Happy 18th Birthday to Kyle..
my Birthday Buddy!
its just too bad i'm older than you.. 4 hours. 9 minutes.. I can boss you around!! wooho!!!
Happy 18th Birthday To Me
so ive officially be 18 for aproximately 1.5 hours.. and i gotta say.. feels absolutely no differnce.. thanx to those who wished me a hppy b-day
in no order
cy
jo
sam
jer
clement
jess ip
lydia
amanda
wai lit
manry
wynne
fred
sarah savage
aimee
lauralei
trevor tuba boi
lisa my "ra"
graeme
sarah salomon
my sis..
joey. my cuz
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
so yeah.. i'm 18.. i can officially buy lottery tickets.. no more botherin jer.. and godfrey for them.. hehe :)
i can vote.. ooh.. federal election.. occuring soon.. wooho!! i can make a difference.. and oh.. i can buy porn.. great.. just #1 thing i wanna do..
can't wait till next year.. i can buy booze.. and cigs. not that i drink or smoke.. but just to be able to say i can!!!
sweet!!!
so ive officially be 18 for aproximately 1.5 hours.. and i gotta say.. feels absolutely no differnce.. thanx to those who wished me a hppy b-day
in no order
cy
jo
sam
jer
clement
jess ip
lydia
amanda
wai lit
manry
wynne
fred
sarah savage
aimee
lauralei
trevor tuba boi
lisa my "ra"
graeme
sarah salomon
my sis..
joey. my cuz
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
so yeah.. i'm 18.. i can officially buy lottery tickets.. no more botherin jer.. and godfrey for them.. hehe :)
i can vote.. ooh.. federal election.. occuring soon.. wooho!! i can make a difference.. and oh.. i can buy porn.. great.. just #1 thing i wanna do..
can't wait till next year.. i can buy booze.. and cigs. not that i drink or smoke.. but just to be able to say i can!!!
sweet!!!
November 09, 2003
i finally realized today.. how much i am actually worth to my friends.. and u know what is?? i was a lil surprised..
NOTHING!!!!!!!!
absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing
i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..
and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!
i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them
and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..
and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..
i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...
it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..
makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??
appaarently, for me...
a lot.
NOTHING!!!!!!!!
absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing
i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..
and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!
i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them
and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..
and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..
i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...
it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..
makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??
appaarently, for me...
a lot.
November 07, 2003
so i was studying.. and got a lil tired.. and i decided to redo my lay out again.. and what was suppose to be 30 minutes at the tops.. ended up being 3 hours.. i was trying this and trying that.. and now its 6:10am .. and i havne't gone to bed quite yet.. I have class at 10:30.. and a midterm at 7pm too.. and I"M sitting here contemplating.. should i go to bed or just stay up till after class and then go to bed??
i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..
so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..
outz
i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..
so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..
outz
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