Countdown:

1 day till: Praise & Worship Nite at WCBC
2 days till: Miranda comes to visit me in windsor
3 days till: U of Windsor Wind Ensemble Concert @ Capitol Theatre 3 pm
5 days till:I become a psyc research lab rat
8 days till: My Very 1st Music Therapy Observation!!! :) WEEE!!!
9 days till: Theory Midterm
: I go to London to pick up JO
: I go HOME!!!!
11 days till: Reading Week officially starts!!!
13 days till: My very first 2nd Music Therapy observation!!! :) WEEE!!
19 days till: my observation assignment is due
21 days till: my music therapy midterm
29 days till: my 2nd psyc midterm
62 days till: My Basic Skills Final Exam @ 12pm
: My Music Therapy Final Exam@ 830am
64 days till: Psyc Final Exam @4pm
65 days till: Theory Final Exam
: DONE FIRST YEAR!!!!

now as i look at the list.. my first year of uni is gonna be over really soon.. this year has gone by really really quickly.. i mean.. it was only a year ago.. that i started worrying about uni.. and whether i would get in or not.. and now.. aproximately 365 days later.. i'm sitting here.. about to finish my first year.. WOW!!! time goes by really quickly... and lots have happening in the time that has passed by

1)i'm no longer the boy-crazy .. boy-obsessed girl that i always was.. i mean... i still like guys.. dun get me wrong.. but it no longer a priority for me.. all thru high skewl.. i worried so much about bf's.. about whether i'd have one.. about whether he was the rite one.. about whether we should be together.. and every single lil thing u could associate with having a bf.. and i worried so much about it in hs... i dunno even kno why.. cuz as i look back.. i never had a single good relationship with any of them.. they all ended horrificly... and why did i spend so much on it.. when in the end.. it didn't make a difference.. so now..i'm concentrating on more importants things.. skewl.. friends.. family.. my future.. and if i meet a guy.. and things seem rite.. sure i'll take the opportunity.. but if there are no opportunities.. i'm ok with that too..

2)everybody seems to think that i've kinda matured.. even in the first 3 weeks of university.. when i first went home.. first thing Dez said to me.. was ur different.. uve matured.. no longer the cute kiddish lil Sindy.. and i dunno really if thats true.. i haven't noticed anything.....

3)spiritually... i've grown a bit.. a lil bit.. at least.. i'll actually go on sundays and friday.. w/o muttering and complaining..
there are still a lot of questions that need to be answered.. and problems to be solved.. but i'll get there eventually.. i hope.. this much is for sure.. i no longer repel the faith.. i no longer hate it.. i've acccepted it.. and will go from there

4) emotionally.. for me this year.. has been hard.. with everything around me.. changing.. and all my friends changing.. and the environment changing.. its been hard for me to keep up.... and i've often been in the background.. looking as everybody and everything changed.. and i didn't want that.. i really didn't.. i wanted things to be exactly the same.. and i couldn't bear to see it changed.. so many a times.. i found myself feeling lonely and in tears.. i didn't wanna grow up.. i didn't want to lose my friends.. i didn't want to change.. and I still dont.. but ive learned that no matter how much i cry or how much im not happy it.. things will change.. i just have to learn to accept and adapt.. thats all there is to do..

so i guess.. this year has passed by quickly.. but i've learned quite a # of things.. and i'm sure there is still lots more to learn.. before the end of this semester is over...