Click here to see if you`re a "Stereotypical Asian" yourself!
February 08, 2004
once again.. just like in november.. i am reminded of my worth... id like to think that i'm important.. that may sound very conceited.. but deep down inside.. everybody wishes they were important.. at least to some ppl..
in my case.. apparently.. i'm not important to a hell of a lot of ppl.. ud think that friends would care for u.. be there to support you..
but when it all comes down to one thing.. ur put at the very back of the list of importance.. second last.. if not dead last...
and the thing is.. you dun even ask a lot of them.. one simple lil thing.. take a lil time out of their lives... and that much.. ur not even important enough for.. sad really...
and depressing.. to kno.. that ur worth nothing... ur not important.. they dun care enough...
and it makes you wonder.. is it something i did.. or somethign about me that makes me not important?? am i a horrible person that nobody wants to befriend?? am i a loser?? is that why nobody cares??
for some ppl .. this is simply a phase.. that goes away...
for me.. it seems like it occurs over and over again.. with same ppl.. with different ppl.. its like i seem to attract them or something.. over and over again.. it happens to me.. i dun kno what i did to deserve anything of this..
its not even that i'm asking a lot out of anybody.. be there.. support me.. care for me.. id do the same for you.. so why can't they do it for me??
yes.. that does sound conceited.. but its only fair.. the amount of times that ive cared and been there for them... i'm askin for one time.. and i can't even have that..
i wish this was somethin i could just decide to get over.. like other thigns in my life..but i can't.. i find myself in tears about this time and time again... and i kno these tears will continue to be shed over and over again.. and there isn't a single thing i can do... and that suxs most of all
if it was a problem that i could fix and it would go away.. my life would be so much easier.. but the fact that it isn't.. kills me.... both mentally, physically, and emotionally...
one of these days.. i'll have reached the edge.. and i wont kno where to go from there.. or if there even is anywhere to go from there.. i dunno when that day will be.. but at this rate.. it'll be soon..
and that'd be the end
of me
in my case.. apparently.. i'm not important to a hell of a lot of ppl.. ud think that friends would care for u.. be there to support you..
but when it all comes down to one thing.. ur put at the very back of the list of importance.. second last.. if not dead last...
and the thing is.. you dun even ask a lot of them.. one simple lil thing.. take a lil time out of their lives... and that much.. ur not even important enough for.. sad really...
and depressing.. to kno.. that ur worth nothing... ur not important.. they dun care enough...
and it makes you wonder.. is it something i did.. or somethign about me that makes me not important?? am i a horrible person that nobody wants to befriend?? am i a loser?? is that why nobody cares??
for some ppl .. this is simply a phase.. that goes away...
for me.. it seems like it occurs over and over again.. with same ppl.. with different ppl.. its like i seem to attract them or something.. over and over again.. it happens to me.. i dun kno what i did to deserve anything of this..
its not even that i'm asking a lot out of anybody.. be there.. support me.. care for me.. id do the same for you.. so why can't they do it for me??
yes.. that does sound conceited.. but its only fair.. the amount of times that ive cared and been there for them... i'm askin for one time.. and i can't even have that..
i wish this was somethin i could just decide to get over.. like other thigns in my life..but i can't.. i find myself in tears about this time and time again... and i kno these tears will continue to be shed over and over again.. and there isn't a single thing i can do... and that suxs most of all
if it was a problem that i could fix and it would go away.. my life would be so much easier.. but the fact that it isn't.. kills me.... both mentally, physically, and emotionally...
one of these days.. i'll have reached the edge.. and i wont kno where to go from there.. or if there even is anywhere to go from there.. i dunno when that day will be.. but at this rate.. it'll be soon..
and that'd be the end
of me
February 07, 2004
February 05, 2004
aaah..i'm so back into koreans!!! well at least.. korean tv. korean songs.. korean drama.. won bin!!! aah he's so hot..
Look At those Abs!!! AAAH!
so incredibly hot!!!!!
anyhoo.. hehe
these next two weeks will be rather interesting...
this weekend..
sunday at 3pm..capitol theatre.. concerto concert.. w/windsor community orchestra.. showcasing 3 soloist from u of windsor school of music... a) Trevor -tuba b) Carla - Piano c) Jenn- clarinet d) i forget her name- Vocal
and then theres another # of students just playing with the orchestra.. me being one..
and then next weekend...
saturday at 8pm
Chrysler Theatre
Tchaikovsky - Romeo & Juliet
Windsor Symphony.. goin to hear it.. should be amazing
later saturday nite...
mom and miranda are coming into windsor
sunday at 3pm
Capitol Theatre
U of Windsor Wind Ensemble concert
- playing like 5 pieces
1) Concerto X- clarinet concerto w/ Trevor Pittman.. he's AMAZING!!!!
2) Armenian Dances I (oboe soloes throughout)
3) Vaughan Williams - Folk Song Suite (big oboe solo)
4) Rolling Thunder
5) Colonial Song - Grainger
it will be an amazing concert.. can't wait
and then rest of sunday.. is girls nite out.. me miranda and mom.. woohoo..
and then monday.. go to class till 1230... then i think..shopping in detroit.. me mom and miranda again.. they go home on monday nite i believe..
i can't wait.. i haven't had any visitors this year.. well except for chung..
he came around chinese new year on his way to visit tiff..
and i mite have another visitor later in march.. mr.marshall mite be coming.. so that'll be exciting.. haha..
aah...
i dunno.. but valentine's day coming up.. once again.. a holiday.. i INCREDIBLY hate...
in words of guy:
Valentine's Day= SAD
SAD= Singles Awareness Day
valentines day.. its a holiday that literally makes fun of all the single pl.. flaunt it in their face.. ugh!!!
i hate it .. i hate it.. i hate it..
:@
enuf for now.. stupid valentines day.. making me pissed off
Look At those Abs!!! AAAH!
so incredibly hot!!!!!
anyhoo.. hehe
these next two weeks will be rather interesting...
this weekend..
sunday at 3pm..capitol theatre.. concerto concert.. w/windsor community orchestra.. showcasing 3 soloist from u of windsor school of music... a) Trevor -tuba b) Carla - Piano c) Jenn- clarinet d) i forget her name- Vocal
and then theres another # of students just playing with the orchestra.. me being one..
and then next weekend...
saturday at 8pm
Chrysler Theatre
Tchaikovsky - Romeo & Juliet
Windsor Symphony.. goin to hear it.. should be amazing
later saturday nite...
mom and miranda are coming into windsor
sunday at 3pm
Capitol Theatre
U of Windsor Wind Ensemble concert
- playing like 5 pieces
1) Concerto X- clarinet concerto w/ Trevor Pittman.. he's AMAZING!!!!
2) Armenian Dances I (oboe soloes throughout)
3) Vaughan Williams - Folk Song Suite (big oboe solo)
4) Rolling Thunder
5) Colonial Song - Grainger
it will be an amazing concert.. can't wait
and then rest of sunday.. is girls nite out.. me miranda and mom.. woohoo..
and then monday.. go to class till 1230... then i think..shopping in detroit.. me mom and miranda again.. they go home on monday nite i believe..
i can't wait.. i haven't had any visitors this year.. well except for chung..
he came around chinese new year on his way to visit tiff..
and i mite have another visitor later in march.. mr.marshall mite be coming.. so that'll be exciting.. haha..
aah...
i dunno.. but valentine's day coming up.. once again.. a holiday.. i INCREDIBLY hate...
in words of guy:
Valentine's Day= SAD
SAD= Singles Awareness Day
valentines day.. its a holiday that literally makes fun of all the single pl.. flaunt it in their face.. ugh!!!
i hate it .. i hate it.. i hate it..
:@
enuf for now.. stupid valentines day.. making me pissed off
February 04, 2004
on the same topic as mondi....
summer.. well maybe it wont' sux entirely..
was checkin out the laurier site.. and saw that they had something called a windfest chamber music workshop
and it mite be worthwhile.. so im gonna apply and wut not now..hopefully i'll get in.. cuz u have to audition and stuff..it'll be fun i think....
so yeah.. thats my lil blob for now... be back later
summer.. well maybe it wont' sux entirely..
was checkin out the laurier site.. and saw that they had something called a windfest chamber music workshop
and it mite be worthwhile.. so im gonna apply and wut not now..hopefully i'll get in.. cuz u have to audition and stuff..it'll be fun i think....
so yeah.. thats my lil blob for now... be back later
February 02, 2004
Man!! hong kong really does sux more than i thought... my plans for the summer were
1. attend summer skewl at a hong kong uni.. whether music course or a psyc course
2. work at a chinese skewl teaching..
3. celebrate grannie's 81st birthday
4. have fun
5. get to hang out in hk.. buy stuff.. go cheung k..
now.. #1 is not gonna happen.. since apparently most HK uni's dun offer summer credit courses. what the hell is up with that??? they only offer short-courses that are for fun.. not credit.. so i guess i cna't do that.. but then if i take summer skewl here in ontario.. its like from june 26 to mid august.. wut?? i can't do that.. i have to be in hk.. by mid july.. i have to teach!!! and i have to be in hk for grannie's birthday dinner!! everybody else in my family is gonna be there.. can't not be there!!!!
wut am i suppose to do now?? i have to take summer skewl!!! i need the extra course....smaller load for next year..
NOT FAIR!!! boohoo :'(
aaah.. so not kewl!!!!
and oh.. in hk... i have to find a place to pratice. can't really pratice much in the apartment.. so small and no space... and if i play.. neighbours will complain.. so that means i'll ahve to rent a studio space to pratice 3 hours a day.. i dunno where u can..a nd i'm sure it'll be mad expensive... and i have no $$$.. NONE!!!!! ugh.. how is this gonna work??
at least one good thing.. i'm pretty sure i'll have a job working in summer.. and then i'll ahve some $$.. but then it'll be half for time i spend in hk.. and half for rest of the year.. i'm hoping i'll earn about $2000 CAN??? hopefully.. i kno teaching is a pretty good job.. $$ wise..
assuming.. i work everyday .. from 9 -3.. which makes 6 hours.. and i work 5 days a week.. 30 hours a week.. and then i assume.. i make $20 an hour??? so thats like $600 a week.. and 4 weeks make about $2400.. i certainly hope so!!!!
aah...
done my ranting.. thanx!
1. attend summer skewl at a hong kong uni.. whether music course or a psyc course
2. work at a chinese skewl teaching..
3. celebrate grannie's 81st birthday
4. have fun
5. get to hang out in hk.. buy stuff.. go cheung k..
now.. #1 is not gonna happen.. since apparently most HK uni's dun offer summer credit courses. what the hell is up with that??? they only offer short-courses that are for fun.. not credit.. so i guess i cna't do that.. but then if i take summer skewl here in ontario.. its like from june 26 to mid august.. wut?? i can't do that.. i have to be in hk.. by mid july.. i have to teach!!! and i have to be in hk for grannie's birthday dinner!! everybody else in my family is gonna be there.. can't not be there!!!!
wut am i suppose to do now?? i have to take summer skewl!!! i need the extra course....smaller load for next year..
NOT FAIR!!! boohoo :'(
aaah.. so not kewl!!!!
and oh.. in hk... i have to find a place to pratice. can't really pratice much in the apartment.. so small and no space... and if i play.. neighbours will complain.. so that means i'll ahve to rent a studio space to pratice 3 hours a day.. i dunno where u can..a nd i'm sure it'll be mad expensive... and i have no $$$.. NONE!!!!! ugh.. how is this gonna work??
at least one good thing.. i'm pretty sure i'll have a job working in summer.. and then i'll ahve some $$.. but then it'll be half for time i spend in hk.. and half for rest of the year.. i'm hoping i'll earn about $2000 CAN??? hopefully.. i kno teaching is a pretty good job.. $$ wise..
assuming.. i work everyday .. from 9 -3.. which makes 6 hours.. and i work 5 days a week.. 30 hours a week.. and then i assume.. i make $20 an hour??? so thats like $600 a week.. and 4 weeks make about $2400.. i certainly hope so!!!!
aah...
done my ranting.. thanx!
January 31, 2004
Robot Dog
the kewlest thing ever.. take a look.. would totally work in my house.. since daddie doesn't like dogs..
the kewlest thing ever.. take a look.. would totally work in my house.. since daddie doesn't like dogs..
i was downloading movies off kazaa.. and i downloaded the movie Honey.. with Mehki Phieffer and Jessica Alba.. the story of the movie is average gotta get outa the ghetto dance story.. but it was good even so.. and the very end in the dance benefit... the song.. Yolanda Adams.. i believe.. and all the dance moves.. sweet.. and i searched the lyrics of the song ... and they're really touching..
Yolanda Adams - I Believe
(written by: Charisse Mannolini)
From the movie "Honey"
They said you wouldn’t make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it’s been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…
(Chorus)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I’ll dance
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (That’s why)
That is what I do believe
Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe
(Chorus)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA…
(Music break)
Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it’s not for me
I won’t give up I’ll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo
(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)
I believe I can
I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)
you always gotta learn to believe in ourselves.. if no one believes in us.. thats oka.. as long as we believe in ourselves.. one day.. someone will notice that beauty that is us.. and believe in us..
Yolanda Adams - I Believe
(written by: Charisse Mannolini)
From the movie "Honey"
They said you wouldn’t make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it’s been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…
(Chorus)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I’ll dance
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (That’s why)
That is what I do believe
Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe
(Chorus)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA…
(Music break)
Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it’s not for me
I won’t give up I’ll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo
(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)
I believe I can
I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)
you always gotta learn to believe in ourselves.. if no one believes in us.. thats oka.. as long as we believe in ourselves.. one day.. someone will notice that beauty that is us.. and believe in us..
January 21, 2004
amazing new song.. well not really new.. i heard at his concert down at skydome on dec 18..and now am in luv!!!!! aah!! not with him.. but his song.. haha
cuz he's 40 and kinda old!!!!
hehe.. here's andy lau's "If One Day"
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì
Çú/Ô~: „¢µÂÈA ¾Ž: Billy Chan
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì Æû܇Åcïw™CÞDÑÛÔÙ²»×ã‰ò „eº¦Å Äã“íÓÐµÄ ÌìÙxµÄ Ò»Œ¦ëpÄ_ °éÄã¿ÉÂþß[
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì ÄãÎÝÑe‚í‚hÒ»µ©ÔÙ²»“íÓÐ „eº¦Å ÄÇœØůµÄ ¼ÒÑeµÄ ³É†TšgЦ °éÄã춴²î^ Ðʷ͸
È˵Ŀ옷 ÔÚºõŒW•ÔµÈºò ÃüÑe²»šwì¶Äã Äã±ãÒãÈ»µØ·Åé_ÊÖ Ô½±§ÖøÖ»•þÔ½æÕ Öª×ãÒ»ÊÀÄã±ã¸»ÓÐ
ÈËÉÆÌì²»ÆÛ º††ÎÒ»‚€µÀÀí ÔõüN(¾¹)²»¿´Í¸ Èξý¶àÃÀû?¸»Ô£ ÔÚ×îááƽî^ ÿ·NÒò¹ûÊÇÓÐÌìÐÞ
ÈËÉÆÌì²»ÆÛ Ä㶮µÃÒÔáá ÕÆÎÕÐÄÖй?×à ֻҪʳµÃÂä ˯µÃºÃ ÌìÌìÑeЦµÃé_¿Ú ±ã(¾Í)ÒÑ×ã‰ò
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì ‘ð ŽÅcï|»Ä ³ä³âÈ«‚€µØÇò „eº¦Å ÄãÐÄÎÒÐÄ ÊÖÅcÊÖ ßB³ÉÒ»¾€ žéÄã¿É·Ö‘n ºÃÅóÓÑ
lyrics are so meaningful.. just luv this song...
oh and dun forget..
his other song "Age 17" is really good too..
17šq
Ô~: „¢µÂÈA + ÐìÀ^×Ú Çú: ÐìÀ^×Ú ¾Ž: Billy Chan
Ê®ÆßšqÄÇÈÕ²»ÒªÄ˜ …¢¼ÓÁËÌô‘ð Ã÷ÐÇÒ²ÓÐÓ–¾š°à ¶Ì¶ÌÒ»ÄêÌ«ÐÂõr Ó›µÃËÄ¸ç °l¸ç ¶¼ÒÑÒŠß^Ãæ áá?í....˜sÉýÖ÷½Ç̫ͻȻ
Ø¥¾ÅšqîCª„µÄÍíÑç FansÌ«¯‚°d ?í ÎÒ³ª¶ÎÇé¸èÒ»Çú ¸èÔ~Ì«½›µä ÎÒµÄÕðÒô ¼ÙÒôÔçÒÑÌ«Ê쾚 È»¶øÇé¸è¿‚³ª²»…’
ϲšgÎÒ „eÕÚĘ ÈÎÓÉ;ÈË°l¬F ƒ?¹Ü³ª ÓÃÐÄ°Ñß@Çé¾w¸èÖÐȾ (¸è•ÖÐÐúȾ)
³ªÇé¸è ýRýR?íÒ»±é Ÿo•rŸo¿Ì¶¼Ó›×¡ÕÆ•푱éÌì ?í³ªÇé¸è ÓÉ?Äî^ÔÙÒ»±é ÈçÇé?âÓÐüc œIÁ÷ëy±ÜÃâ
ÒôëAÆðµø ÅÄ×Ó¸Ä׃ ÿÊ׸è ÊÇÿ?ˆÄ˜ (ÄêÔÂ׃ µ«ÎÒδ׃)
Èç½ñÎÒËÄÊ®¿´?ÄÇ° ɳ†¡ÁË•¾€ »Ø‘›ÎÒ¼½ÍûÄÇÕÆ•¶¼ÒÀÈ»µ½½ñÌì ÄÇÊ׳±Ë® Íüٻˮ ²»ÔÙ½›µä ÈÔéLÂñÄãµÄÐÄÖÐ?Äδ׃
cuz he's 40 and kinda old!!!!
hehe.. here's andy lau's "If One Day"
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì
Çú/Ô~: „¢µÂÈA ¾Ž: Billy Chan
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì Æû܇Åcïw™CÞDÑÛÔÙ²»×ã‰ò „eº¦Å Äã“íÓÐµÄ ÌìÙxµÄ Ò»Œ¦ëpÄ_ °éÄã¿ÉÂþß[
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì ÄãÎÝÑe‚í‚hÒ»µ©ÔÙ²»“íÓÐ „eº¦Å ÄÇœØůµÄ ¼ÒÑeµÄ ³É†TšgЦ °éÄã춴²î^ Ðʷ͸
È˵Ŀ옷 ÔÚºõŒW•ÔµÈºò ÃüÑe²»šwì¶Äã Äã±ãÒãÈ»µØ·Åé_ÊÖ Ô½±§ÖøÖ»•þÔ½æÕ Öª×ãÒ»ÊÀÄã±ã¸»ÓÐ
ÈËÉÆÌì²»ÆÛ º††ÎÒ»‚€µÀÀí ÔõüN(¾¹)²»¿´Í¸ Èξý¶àÃÀû?¸»Ô£ ÔÚ×îááƽî^ ÿ·NÒò¹ûÊÇÓÐÌìÐÞ
ÈËÉÆÌì²»ÆÛ Ä㶮µÃÒÔáá ÕÆÎÕÐÄÖй?×à ֻҪʳµÃÂä ˯µÃºÃ ÌìÌìÑeЦµÃé_¿Ú ±ã(¾Í)ÒÑ×ã‰ò
Èç¹ûÓÐÒ»Ìì ‘ð ŽÅcï|»Ä ³ä³âÈ«‚€µØÇò „eº¦Å ÄãÐÄÎÒÐÄ ÊÖÅcÊÖ ßB³ÉÒ»¾€ žéÄã¿É·Ö‘n ºÃÅóÓÑ
lyrics are so meaningful.. just luv this song...
oh and dun forget..
his other song "Age 17" is really good too..
17šq
Ô~: „¢µÂÈA + ÐìÀ^×Ú Çú: ÐìÀ^×Ú ¾Ž: Billy Chan
Ê®ÆßšqÄÇÈÕ²»ÒªÄ˜ …¢¼ÓÁËÌô‘ð Ã÷ÐÇÒ²ÓÐÓ–¾š°à ¶Ì¶ÌÒ»ÄêÌ«ÐÂõr Ó›µÃËÄ¸ç °l¸ç ¶¼ÒÑÒŠß^Ãæ áá?í....˜sÉýÖ÷½Ç̫ͻȻ
Ø¥¾ÅšqîCª„µÄÍíÑç FansÌ«¯‚°d ?í ÎÒ³ª¶ÎÇé¸èÒ»Çú ¸èÔ~Ì«½›µä ÎÒµÄÕðÒô ¼ÙÒôÔçÒÑÌ«Ê쾚 È»¶øÇé¸è¿‚³ª²»…’
ϲšgÎÒ „eÕÚĘ ÈÎÓÉ;ÈË°l¬F ƒ?¹Ü³ª ÓÃÐÄ°Ñß@Çé¾w¸èÖÐȾ (¸è•ÖÐÐúȾ)
³ªÇé¸è ýRýR?íÒ»±é Ÿo•rŸo¿Ì¶¼Ó›×¡ÕÆ•푱éÌì ?í³ªÇé¸è ÓÉ?Äî^ÔÙÒ»±é ÈçÇé?âÓÐüc œIÁ÷ëy±ÜÃâ
ÒôëAÆðµø ÅÄ×Ó¸Ä׃ ÿÊ׸è ÊÇÿ?ˆÄ˜ (ÄêÔÂ׃ µ«ÎÒδ׃)
Èç½ñÎÒËÄÊ®¿´?ÄÇ° ɳ†¡ÁË•¾€ »Ø‘›ÎÒ¼½ÍûÄÇÕÆ•¶¼ÒÀÈ»µ½½ñÌì ÄÇÊ׳±Ë® Íüٻˮ ²»ÔÙ½›µä ÈÔéLÂñÄãµÄÐÄÖÐ?Äδ׃
January 18, 2004
have been having a good streak lately...been having lots of good times.. yeah me!!!
1. finally got my jay chou EP- hidden track... YEAH!!! i've been waiting for it for so incredibly long!!! finally got it!! SWEET
2. got a nice guitar strap!!! woohoo!!! yeah dirty pink too!! just my kinda colour
3. I had a VISITOR!!! haven't had one!! not one that came to windsor.. altho his actual destination wasnt windsor.. it was nice to have a friend come by.. thanx chung!!! u made my day!! wohoo!!!
4. went skating last week with a few friends.. and it was nice.. haven't had that much fun in a while.. even when i was back home.. wasn't that much fun
5. went to the NAIAS.. north american internation auto show.. lots of fun there too. some mad nice cars..oh man!!!
I'm startin to think that i was meant to be in windsor..i'm really enjoying it.. in fact.. up till i was talking to some high skewl friends.. i had completely forgot about the acadia thing.. the possibility of transferring.. and here comes the hard part..
do i wanna transfer?? do i wanna leave all these new friends behind??
Pro's
- Acadia is a better skewl
- better program
- better facility.. much better facility.. not some stupid converted bowling alley
CON's
- leaving behind friends.. that i kno i'd miss
- leaving behind a familiar place.. both windsor and home..
- being so incredibly far away from everything and everyone i kno
- not being able to go home that often
- having to live in a incredibly small town .. where there is nothing.. seriously.. wolfville is small!!
- not knowing whether or not ill even enjoy it there at acadia
- no knowing whether i'll fit in
- no knowing whether or not i'll find friends
- no knowing my away round anywhere
- having to meet new friends
- having to adapt to a brand new surrounding
altho there does seem there are a lot of cons in comparison to pro's but even so.. i kinda feel that the 3 pros kinda surpass any cons i may have... b/c it is my better education thats at stake here.. still so.. i still am so confused as to what really to do.. someone help me out!~!!! please!!@!!!! any ideas???
Sindy
1. finally got my jay chou EP- hidden track... YEAH!!! i've been waiting for it for so incredibly long!!! finally got it!! SWEET
2. got a nice guitar strap!!! woohoo!!! yeah dirty pink too!! just my kinda colour
3. I had a VISITOR!!! haven't had one!! not one that came to windsor.. altho his actual destination wasnt windsor.. it was nice to have a friend come by.. thanx chung!!! u made my day!! wohoo!!!
4. went skating last week with a few friends.. and it was nice.. haven't had that much fun in a while.. even when i was back home.. wasn't that much fun
5. went to the NAIAS.. north american internation auto show.. lots of fun there too. some mad nice cars..oh man!!!
I'm startin to think that i was meant to be in windsor..i'm really enjoying it.. in fact.. up till i was talking to some high skewl friends.. i had completely forgot about the acadia thing.. the possibility of transferring.. and here comes the hard part..
do i wanna transfer?? do i wanna leave all these new friends behind??
Pro's
- Acadia is a better skewl
- better program
- better facility.. much better facility.. not some stupid converted bowling alley
CON's
- leaving behind friends.. that i kno i'd miss
- leaving behind a familiar place.. both windsor and home..
- being so incredibly far away from everything and everyone i kno
- not being able to go home that often
- having to live in a incredibly small town .. where there is nothing.. seriously.. wolfville is small!!
- not knowing whether or not ill even enjoy it there at acadia
- no knowing whether i'll fit in
- no knowing whether or not i'll find friends
- no knowing my away round anywhere
- having to meet new friends
- having to adapt to a brand new surrounding
altho there does seem there are a lot of cons in comparison to pro's but even so.. i kinda feel that the 3 pros kinda surpass any cons i may have... b/c it is my better education thats at stake here.. still so.. i still am so confused as to what really to do.. someone help me out!~!!! please!!@!!!! any ideas???
Sindy
January 15, 2004
things come and go.. part of life is to learn to deal with the sudden change... being able to live life having certain things.. and being ok with it when its taken away from you
i guess lifes hard that way... often.. when u want it the most.. its never there... and no matter how hard u try to get it...it wont ever come... no matter how much crying and pouting.. and screaming.. and fighting for it.. it still wont come.. just simply b/c the times not rite.. or its not meant to be..
and sometimes when u feel like u dunt need it.. it shows up rite in front of you.. like its flaunting you sometimes.. it really suxs when its like that.. it really does.. it makes u wonder... why couldnt you have been there just earlier?? when i needed u most?? now that i dunt need you, you come.. and whats the point?? whats the need now??
for me... at least...i find myself very angry b/c of this.. i can never bring myself to think that life isn't in my hands.. it never was.. and it never will be.. nothings in my control.. i have no power to change anything that ever happens.. im ignorant and stubborn that way..
tonite has been a bit of a revelation for me.. just sitting in my room thinking.. and listening to a chinese radio drama....made me think a lot..
i was listening to ŒÜ?¯‹‰“I‰Æ (5 star family) on 881903.com and the story really touched me.. it made me realized that life can be so confusing.. yet so good to you in ways u never thought.. in the example of the story.. the mother and her father had always fought..the father had always tried to do what was best for her daughter..but the daughter never knew.. b/c she thought that he was just stubborn and didn't care..
last few weeks of my life have been that i guess... a lot has happened.. and going home for christmas.. i dreaded talking to my parents.. i didn't wanna tell them that i had failed them.. i was afraid of the consequences of what might be.. so i kept on ignoring them.. kept on changing the topics.... but rite b4 i left.. i had no choice.. they brought it up.. and the whole time they asked me about it.. i kept thinking in my head.. why do u care?? its not ur life.. u have no rite to control my life.. and what choices to do with my life is my choice.. not yours.. but now...
i realized that life can be confusing.. sometimes true meanings are hidden.. and wut is visible... may not be the whole story.. i now realized.. that my parents have always had my interests as their top priority.. they have always wanted nothing but the best for me.. and i always thought the worst of them... thinking that they were bossy and controlling..not wanting to let me grow up and be independent..but that was all totaly wrong!! they weren't like that.. not at all!!
unfortanetly in the story.. the daughter and father didn't get to fix their problems.. and overcome their misunderstandings till his deathbed.. im lucky enough to realized this now.. while i'm still young.... and can have many years of happiness with them..
my realization: no matter how much ur parents seem to be controlling ur life.. trying to protect.. shielding you.. from anything and everything.. THEY DO HAVE ONLY YOUR INTERESTS IN HEART!!! they dun want you to get hurt.. they dun want you to have to experience pains.. they dun wanna see you cry.. see u hurt.. they kno how much it hurts to have to life regrets.. they dun want the same for you... so i guess..
Be grateful for the things your parents do for you!!!
i guess lifes hard that way... often.. when u want it the most.. its never there... and no matter how hard u try to get it...it wont ever come... no matter how much crying and pouting.. and screaming.. and fighting for it.. it still wont come.. just simply b/c the times not rite.. or its not meant to be..
and sometimes when u feel like u dunt need it.. it shows up rite in front of you.. like its flaunting you sometimes.. it really suxs when its like that.. it really does.. it makes u wonder... why couldnt you have been there just earlier?? when i needed u most?? now that i dunt need you, you come.. and whats the point?? whats the need now??
for me... at least...i find myself very angry b/c of this.. i can never bring myself to think that life isn't in my hands.. it never was.. and it never will be.. nothings in my control.. i have no power to change anything that ever happens.. im ignorant and stubborn that way..
tonite has been a bit of a revelation for me.. just sitting in my room thinking.. and listening to a chinese radio drama....made me think a lot..
i was listening to ŒÜ?¯‹‰“I‰Æ (5 star family) on 881903.com and the story really touched me.. it made me realized that life can be so confusing.. yet so good to you in ways u never thought.. in the example of the story.. the mother and her father had always fought..the father had always tried to do what was best for her daughter..but the daughter never knew.. b/c she thought that he was just stubborn and didn't care..
last few weeks of my life have been that i guess... a lot has happened.. and going home for christmas.. i dreaded talking to my parents.. i didn't wanna tell them that i had failed them.. i was afraid of the consequences of what might be.. so i kept on ignoring them.. kept on changing the topics.... but rite b4 i left.. i had no choice.. they brought it up.. and the whole time they asked me about it.. i kept thinking in my head.. why do u care?? its not ur life.. u have no rite to control my life.. and what choices to do with my life is my choice.. not yours.. but now...
i realized that life can be confusing.. sometimes true meanings are hidden.. and wut is visible... may not be the whole story.. i now realized.. that my parents have always had my interests as their top priority.. they have always wanted nothing but the best for me.. and i always thought the worst of them... thinking that they were bossy and controlling..not wanting to let me grow up and be independent..but that was all totaly wrong!! they weren't like that.. not at all!!
unfortanetly in the story.. the daughter and father didn't get to fix their problems.. and overcome their misunderstandings till his deathbed.. im lucky enough to realized this now.. while i'm still young.... and can have many years of happiness with them..
my realization: no matter how much ur parents seem to be controlling ur life.. trying to protect.. shielding you.. from anything and everything.. THEY DO HAVE ONLY YOUR INTERESTS IN HEART!!! they dun want you to get hurt.. they dun want you to have to experience pains.. they dun wanna see you cry.. see u hurt.. they kno how much it hurts to have to life regrets.. they dun want the same for you... so i guess..
Be grateful for the things your parents do for you!!!
January 12, 2004
an interesting email i recieved today..and its kinda funny.. but also very true..
Formula for Success
A small truth to make our Life's 100% successful..........
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%
L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47%
(None of them makes 100%)
...............................
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!
Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps
change our "ATTITUDE".
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes
OUR Life 100% Successful..
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
Don't you think so?!?!?!
Formula for Success
A small truth to make our Life's 100% successful..........
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%
L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47%
(None of them makes 100%)
...............................
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!
Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps
change our "ATTITUDE".
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes
OUR Life 100% Successful..
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
Don't you think so?!?!?!
January 11, 2004
January 10, 2004
a lil stress relieving story.. courtesy of my bud Guy..
"HOW TO BEAT STRESS".
Enjoy..............
"For all of you who occasionally have a really bad day and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.
I was sitting at my desk, when I remembered a phone call I had forgotten to make. I found the number, and dialed it. A man answered saying, "Hello?" I politely said, "This is Bob, could I please speak with Robin?"
Suddenly, the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. I tracked down Robin's correct number, and called her (I had transposed the last two digits of her phone number.)
After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.
When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, "You're an asswipe!" and hung up.I wrote his number down, with the word 'asswipe' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him. He'd answer and I'd yell, "You're an asswipe!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID came to our area, I thought my therapeutic 'asswipe' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from the Telephone Company. I'm just calling to see if you're familiar with the caller ID program?" He yelled, "NO!" and slammed the phone down.
I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an asswipe!"
So, one day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off, and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I had been waiting for the spot.
The idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his car window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first asswipe (I had his number on speed dial), I thought I had better call the BMW asswipe, too. I dialed and someone said, "Hello?"
I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?"
"Yes it is."
"Can you tell me where I can see it?"
"Yes, I live at 1802 West 34th Street. It's a yellow house and the car's parked right out front."
"What's your name?" I asked.
"My name is Don Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Don?"
"I'm home every evening after five."
"Listen, Don, can I tell you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don, you're an asswipe!"
Then I hung up and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two asswipes to call. But after several months of calling them, it wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. So, I came up with an idea:
I called Asshole #1.
"Hello"
"You're an asswipe!" (but I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Don Hansen."
"Yeah, where do you live?"
"Asshole, I live at 1802 West 34th Street, a yellow house with my black Beemer out front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, asswipe."
Then I called Asshole # 2:
"Hello?" he said.
"Hello, Asshole," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your ass," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, asswipe, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then, I hung up, and immediately called the police saying that I lived at 1802 West 34th Street, and I was on my way over there to kill my gaylover.
Then, I called Channel 13 news about the gang war going down on West 34thStreet.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to 34th St. There, I saw two asswipes beating the crap out of each other in front of 6 squad cars, a police helicopter, and news crew.
Now, I feel much better"
Hope that helps the More stressed amongst you
"HOW TO BEAT STRESS".
Enjoy..............
"For all of you who occasionally have a really bad day and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.
I was sitting at my desk, when I remembered a phone call I had forgotten to make. I found the number, and dialed it. A man answered saying, "Hello?" I politely said, "This is Bob, could I please speak with Robin?"
Suddenly, the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. I tracked down Robin's correct number, and called her (I had transposed the last two digits of her phone number.)
After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.
When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, "You're an asswipe!" and hung up.I wrote his number down, with the word 'asswipe' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him. He'd answer and I'd yell, "You're an asswipe!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID came to our area, I thought my therapeutic 'asswipe' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from the Telephone Company. I'm just calling to see if you're familiar with the caller ID program?" He yelled, "NO!" and slammed the phone down.
I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an asswipe!"
So, one day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off, and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I had been waiting for the spot.
The idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his car window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first asswipe (I had his number on speed dial), I thought I had better call the BMW asswipe, too. I dialed and someone said, "Hello?"
I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?"
"Yes it is."
"Can you tell me where I can see it?"
"Yes, I live at 1802 West 34th Street. It's a yellow house and the car's parked right out front."
"What's your name?" I asked.
"My name is Don Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Don?"
"I'm home every evening after five."
"Listen, Don, can I tell you something?"
"Yes?"
"Don, you're an asswipe!"
Then I hung up and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two asswipes to call. But after several months of calling them, it wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. So, I came up with an idea:
I called Asshole #1.
"Hello"
"You're an asswipe!" (but I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Don Hansen."
"Yeah, where do you live?"
"Asshole, I live at 1802 West 34th Street, a yellow house with my black Beemer out front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, asswipe."
Then I called Asshole # 2:
"Hello?" he said.
"Hello, Asshole," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your ass," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, asswipe, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then, I hung up, and immediately called the police saying that I lived at 1802 West 34th Street, and I was on my way over there to kill my gaylover.
Then, I called Channel 13 news about the gang war going down on West 34thStreet.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to 34th St. There, I saw two asswipes beating the crap out of each other in front of 6 squad cars, a police helicopter, and news crew.
Now, I feel much better"
Hope that helps the More stressed amongst you
January 09, 2004
today is friday.. the 9th of january.. of the year 2004..
at aproximately 8pm tonite, i, for the very first time, made tong yuen!!! from scratch.. like taking glutinous powder.. making it into the shell of the glutinous balls and then filling it with lotus paste. i'm so proud of myself!!!! my one big thing for the nite!! wowo!!! i can't believe it!! so proud!!! wohooo!!!!!!
at aproximately 8pm tonite, i, for the very first time, made tong yuen!!! from scratch.. like taking glutinous powder.. making it into the shell of the glutinous balls and then filling it with lotus paste. i'm so proud of myself!!!! my one big thing for the nite!! wowo!!! i can't believe it!! so proud!!! wohooo!!!!!!
January 07, 2004
ugh... i hate this... i always get sick.. and when i do.. its always a bad flu or bad cold...ugh.. and i've missed class b/c of it.. rite now.. my head is pounding.. can't stop sneezing.. feeling the shiveries.. ugh.. i hate this..
:(
i dun have any more classes now... i missed basic skills, theory, private lesson, as well as reed class... so not kewl....
i'm just gonna end up chilling for the rest of the day in my bed... in my room.. trying to rest.. get better... so i can go to class tommorow... ugh.. i hate winter....
aside from being able to ski and snowboard... and having snowball fights.. i hate winter... i wish winter had snow.. but was never cold or windy.. ugh.... not fair..
:(
i dun have any more classes now... i missed basic skills, theory, private lesson, as well as reed class... so not kewl....
i'm just gonna end up chilling for the rest of the day in my bed... in my room.. trying to rest.. get better... so i can go to class tommorow... ugh.. i hate winter....
aside from being able to ski and snowboard... and having snowball fights.. i hate winter... i wish winter had snow.. but was never cold or windy.. ugh.... not fair..
January 06, 2004
aah.. i swear!!!!! i hate fire alarms!!! so not kewl!!!! one went off in my building at 4AM!!!!!! freakin 4 am!!!! so not kewl..
my whole building was standing outside in the freazin cold for like a good 30 minutes... not fair.. i was only wearing my pajamas and a jacket too.. soo cold!!!!!
:(
b/c of it.. i missed my appointment that was at 9am..and my psyc class that was at 10am... wanna kno why??
cuz the stupid fire alarm went off.. and i couldn't go back to back till like 530.. and only slept for like 2 hours.... so tired.. couldn't get up at 8.. which i had to get up by.. so ended up...being.. sleeping thru my appointment.. as well as my class!!!! soooo not kewl!!!!
my whole building was standing outside in the freazin cold for like a good 30 minutes... not fair.. i was only wearing my pajamas and a jacket too.. soo cold!!!!!
:(
b/c of it.. i missed my appointment that was at 9am..and my psyc class that was at 10am... wanna kno why??
cuz the stupid fire alarm went off.. and i couldn't go back to back till like 530.. and only slept for like 2 hours.... so tired.. couldn't get up at 8.. which i had to get up by.. so ended up...being.. sleeping thru my appointment.. as well as my class!!!! soooo not kewl!!!!
January 05, 2004
hey hey!!! its been a while since i've blogged... and christmas has been interesting.. and very long... parts of it sad.. parts happy.. parts confusing.. parts very mad.. aah.. too many emotions experienced.. in a short span of 3 weeks.. but yeah
skewl is back on... first day today...have some pretty fun classes this semester
Monday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Psyc Lab 2:30-3:20
Tuesday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Community Orchestra 7:00-9:30
Wednesday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Oboe Lesson 12:30-1:30
Reed Class 1:30-2:30
Thursday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Friday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
so the only really long day i have is Tuesday.. which isn't so bad.. but yeah..
so New Years!!!
my resolution:
is to do better in skewl.. and not to give up in anything too quickly.. try my hardest...
is to be patient.. and have faith..wait for things to occur naturally.. instead of forcing them to happen when i want them to
haha.. thats a lot of hard things.. i kno.. but i'm gonna try.. so if u ever hear me saying i give up.. please encourage me.. i need all the help i can get..
skewl is back on... first day today...have some pretty fun classes this semester
Monday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Psyc Lab 2:30-3:20
Tuesday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Community Orchestra 7:00-9:30
Wednesday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Oboe Lesson 12:30-1:30
Reed Class 1:30-2:30
Thursday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Friday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
so the only really long day i have is Tuesday.. which isn't so bad.. but yeah..
so New Years!!!
my resolution:
is to do better in skewl.. and not to give up in anything too quickly.. try my hardest...
is to be patient.. and have faith..wait for things to occur naturally.. instead of forcing them to happen when i want them to
haha.. thats a lot of hard things.. i kno.. but i'm gonna try.. so if u ever hear me saying i give up.. please encourage me.. i need all the help i can get..
December 30, 2003
December 11, 2003
Sigh!!! aaah.. its so nice to finally be done exams and have no worries.. 4 exams.. all done!! i think i did pretty good on most of them.. well except for psyc.. which i BOMBED!!!!.. i still pass the course.. i think.. but im not really too sure... hopefully they'll bell curve it up!!but yeah... i'm officially done exams !!! woohoo!!!
well actually.. not quite.. i still have jury to do tommorow.... its 3:45pm.. and i'm worried shitless for it.. and i dun think i even should.. considering.. i've been praticing my ass for it... but i kno me.. and i'll definetly screw up tommorow!!!
but yeah..
well actually.. not quite.. i still have jury to do tommorow.... its 3:45pm.. and i'm worried shitless for it.. and i dun think i even should.. considering.. i've been praticing my ass for it... but i kno me.. and i'll definetly screw up tommorow!!!
but yeah..
November 29, 2003
15 days.... till:
1) home cooked meal
2) my own bed
3) my own room
4) christmas tree w/lots of decorations..
5) snow!! and lots of snow!!
6) all my cds'ers
7) all my mcbc'ers
8) sushi!!!!!!
9) restaurant food.. not cheap ass vanier food!!
10) My MOMMI!!!.. and im proud to say so...
11) getting to see someone special... !!!!!
exams start on friday.. and i havne't even reallly started to study for that exam yet..
here's my schedule:
wednesday dec 3 - scales test
- basic skills individual exam
friday dec 5 - psyc 4pm
sunday dec 7 - woodwind studio class
- reed class
tuesday dec 9 - music theory exam 330pm
wednesday dec 10 - basic skills final exam 430pm
thursday dec 11 - music therapy exam 4pm
friday dec 12 - oboe jury 345pm
saturday dec 13 - train home 955am
long two weeks!! aah!!!!
ppl to get christmas gifts for:
MCBC
sam
jo
tiff
jess lam
jess ip
cyrus
godfey
jer
cathy
lil rachel
cards for:
amanda
lydia
jon
guy
rachel
joyce
eleana
peter 10 shiny 1996 pennies
CDS
des
chris
frankie
cards for:
leppo
shay
elise
ariana
sarah
james
andrew
family
mommie
daddi
ivan
miranda
6e
elaine
wcbc
wynne
fred
wai lit
manry
cards:
valerie
victor
max
raymond & alice
yeah.. so i'm totally gonna blow all my $$ away b/c of christmas presents and cards!! aah!!! someone wanna donate money to me?? haha.. wait.. i have to donate money to peter and jer first!! hmm.. how's that gonna work????
anyhwo.. gotta go back to lots of work and studying
1) home cooked meal
2) my own bed
3) my own room
4) christmas tree w/lots of decorations..
5) snow!! and lots of snow!!
6) all my cds'ers
7) all my mcbc'ers
8) sushi!!!!!!
9) restaurant food.. not cheap ass vanier food!!
10) My MOMMI!!!.. and im proud to say so...
11) getting to see someone special... !!!!!
exams start on friday.. and i havne't even reallly started to study for that exam yet..
here's my schedule:
wednesday dec 3 - scales test
- basic skills individual exam
friday dec 5 - psyc 4pm
sunday dec 7 - woodwind studio class
- reed class
tuesday dec 9 - music theory exam 330pm
wednesday dec 10 - basic skills final exam 430pm
thursday dec 11 - music therapy exam 4pm
friday dec 12 - oboe jury 345pm
saturday dec 13 - train home 955am
long two weeks!! aah!!!!
ppl to get christmas gifts for:
MCBC
tiff
jess lam
jess ip
cyrus
godfey
jer
cathy
lil rachel
cards for:
amanda
lydia
jon
guy
rachel
joyce
eleana
peter 10 shiny 1996 pennies
CDS
chris
frankie
cards for:
leppo
shay
elise
ariana
sarah
james
andrew
family
mommie
daddi
ivan
6e
elaine
wcbc
wynne
fred
wai lit
manry
cards:
valerie
victor
max
raymond & alice
yeah.. so i'm totally gonna blow all my $$ away b/c of christmas presents and cards!! aah!!! someone wanna donate money to me?? haha.. wait.. i have to donate money to peter and jer first!! hmm.. how's that gonna work????
anyhwo.. gotta go back to lots of work and studying
November 18, 2003
so i went over to london for the weekend.. and i gotta say.. u lucky asses!!! ugh.. have some much better than here in ghetto windsor.. so not fair!!!
for example:
1) jo's dorm room.. like twice my room size.. and she has double too!! and oh closet space... ugh!!!! ok how is this fair?? jo.. has like half the clothes i ahve..and she has more closet space than me!!! OOH!!! i luv ya jo..
2) dorm food... how come there's is better than ours?? how come? not fair.. i want decent dorm food
3) East Town PIZZA!!! they have a really good pizza place rite outside campus gates.. massive slice for $3!!!! and what do we have?? not even a good pizza place.. ugh
4) RICHMOND street. their dt is so much better.. lots of lil boutiques.. such as elizabeth noel, green earth.. archies..
5) Cafe Demetres.. we dun have one!! they do.. i wanna have desserts.. waaaa waaah!
now that i'm done complaining.. heres what i gotta say about my weekend..
Friday:
- train to london.. was so tired.. slept the whole 2 hours..
-took a taxi to syndeham hall...
-saw jo's room.. met her roomate.. honestly when she said her roomie was psycho. i didn't believe. but she is.. haha i mean that in a nice way.. hehe :)
-hung out for a hour or so..
-frankie came to pick me up
-went to essex hall.. saw jenna on the way there
-shay came over
-frankie made dinner!!!!!!! OOOOOh!!!! i didn't kno frankie even knew how to cook.. altho he did have a lil sauce problem.. hehe...
-shay left.. hung out.. watch cartoons with frankie
-went to cafe demetres.. jo was there w/friends.. frankie came too
-took taxi back to dorm
Saturday:
early morning
-played monopoly with natalie, jo, jo's roomate..
-mad fun.. u dun understand.. so much fun!!!!
4am.. went to bed
later that morning.. 11ish
-woke up..
-had breakfast at syndehnam caf
-went out to shop with jo and natalie.. around 1
-we walked all the way from main gates western to like almost VIA rail.. richmond.. thats pretty far!!!
-we went shopping along the way tho.. lots of kewl lil boutiques
-such as elizabeth noel, boxwoods, archies,
-had lunch at quiznos.. i missed the yummi subs.. :'(
-took a bus to white oaks.. shopped some more
-left at like 7:45..
-went to perfect image.. got my right ear cartilage pierced!!! woohoo..
-jo did too
-took taxi back to Easttown Pizza. bought amazing pizza!! yummi
-went back. .played monopoly some more..
- and then trivia pursuit.. with a bunch of ppl from jo's floor.. till like 2ish..
sunday
-woke up around 12..
-got ready to leave
-walked to Easttown to get another pizza for trip back
-took taxi to via rail..
-sat there waited for train
-got on train.. slept and slept.. till train arrived back in windsor...
all in all.. western weekend was fun!! thanx jo.. and all her floormates..
thanx shay and frankie.. for entertaining me on friday. lots of fun
so my list of things i bought over 8 hours and $350 later..
1) new boots.. from aldo..
2) new modrobes.. light blue.. mad cheap $18
3) these kewl lights.. for miranda's christmas present
4) b-day present for lauralei.. soap and bath salts..smell realli pwetty
5) christmas present for roomate.. soap and bath confetti..
6) new scarf.. roxy.. but not b/c it was roxy. but b/c it matched with my jacket.. realli.. nothign to do with roxy.. honestly..
7)got my cartilage pierced
8) bought lots of food..ate way too much
my next missions:
1) get most of my christmas shopping done b4 i got home.. which is the 13th.. i think..but then i dunno.. i kinda do have exams in 3 weeks.. hmm??
2) get my belly pierced.. no nerves there.. its just fat.. so mom will let me
3) tattoo... still thinking about that.. its kinda gonna be there forever so i dunno.. and if i do.. $130 .. thats a lot
4) start studying for my exams.. aah!!!!!
5) make plans for new years.. christmas is out..cuz up in ottawa with 'rents and miranda and ivan..
6) start thinkin about summer.. its a lil early.. but skewls over in less than 5 months.. aah!!
one big thing
Happy Birthday Lauralei.. 18th!!!
2 smaller things:
sammi n godfrey: thanx for the monkey and book.. did u kno the monkey's called bobo? coincidence or did u actually kno?
jo: thanx for the piercing..
last note:
i had a very good b-day weekend.. thanx everybody!!!
i'm out
for example:
1) jo's dorm room.. like twice my room size.. and she has double too!! and oh closet space... ugh!!!! ok how is this fair?? jo.. has like half the clothes i ahve..and she has more closet space than me!!! OOH!!! i luv ya jo..
2) dorm food... how come there's is better than ours?? how come? not fair.. i want decent dorm food
3) East Town PIZZA!!! they have a really good pizza place rite outside campus gates.. massive slice for $3!!!! and what do we have?? not even a good pizza place.. ugh
4) RICHMOND street. their dt is so much better.. lots of lil boutiques.. such as elizabeth noel, green earth.. archies..
5) Cafe Demetres.. we dun have one!! they do.. i wanna have desserts.. waaaa waaah!
now that i'm done complaining.. heres what i gotta say about my weekend..
Friday:
- train to london.. was so tired.. slept the whole 2 hours..
-took a taxi to syndeham hall...
-saw jo's room.. met her roomate.. honestly when she said her roomie was psycho. i didn't believe. but she is.. haha i mean that in a nice way.. hehe :)
-hung out for a hour or so..
-frankie came to pick me up
-went to essex hall.. saw jenna on the way there
-shay came over
-frankie made dinner!!!!!!! OOOOOh!!!! i didn't kno frankie even knew how to cook.. altho he did have a lil sauce problem.. hehe...
-shay left.. hung out.. watch cartoons with frankie
-went to cafe demetres.. jo was there w/friends.. frankie came too
-took taxi back to dorm
Saturday:
early morning
-played monopoly with natalie, jo, jo's roomate..
-mad fun.. u dun understand.. so much fun!!!!
4am.. went to bed
later that morning.. 11ish
-woke up..
-had breakfast at syndehnam caf
-went out to shop with jo and natalie.. around 1
-we walked all the way from main gates western to like almost VIA rail.. richmond.. thats pretty far!!!
-we went shopping along the way tho.. lots of kewl lil boutiques
-such as elizabeth noel, boxwoods, archies,
-had lunch at quiznos.. i missed the yummi subs.. :'(
-took a bus to white oaks.. shopped some more
-left at like 7:45..
-went to perfect image.. got my right ear cartilage pierced!!! woohoo..
-jo did too
-took taxi back to Easttown Pizza. bought amazing pizza!! yummi
-went back. .played monopoly some more..
- and then trivia pursuit.. with a bunch of ppl from jo's floor.. till like 2ish..
sunday
-woke up around 12..
-got ready to leave
-walked to Easttown to get another pizza for trip back
-took taxi to via rail..
-sat there waited for train
-got on train.. slept and slept.. till train arrived back in windsor...
all in all.. western weekend was fun!! thanx jo.. and all her floormates..
thanx shay and frankie.. for entertaining me on friday. lots of fun
so my list of things i bought over 8 hours and $350 later..
1) new boots.. from aldo..
2) new modrobes.. light blue.. mad cheap $18
3) these kewl lights.. for miranda's christmas present
4) b-day present for lauralei.. soap and bath salts..smell realli pwetty
5) christmas present for roomate.. soap and bath confetti..
6) new scarf.. roxy.. but not b/c it was roxy. but b/c it matched with my jacket.. realli.. nothign to do with roxy.. honestly..
7)got my cartilage pierced
8) bought lots of food..ate way too much
my next missions:
1) get most of my christmas shopping done b4 i got home.. which is the 13th.. i think..but then i dunno.. i kinda do have exams in 3 weeks.. hmm??
2) get my belly pierced.. no nerves there.. its just fat.. so mom will let me
3) tattoo... still thinking about that.. its kinda gonna be there forever so i dunno.. and if i do.. $130 .. thats a lot
4) start studying for my exams.. aah!!!!!
5) make plans for new years.. christmas is out..cuz up in ottawa with 'rents and miranda and ivan..
6) start thinkin about summer.. its a lil early.. but skewls over in less than 5 months.. aah!!
one big thing
Happy Birthday Lauralei.. 18th!!!
2 smaller things:
sammi n godfrey: thanx for the monkey and book.. did u kno the monkey's called bobo? coincidence or did u actually kno?
jo: thanx for the piercing..
last note:
i had a very good b-day weekend.. thanx everybody!!!
i'm out
November 12, 2003
so.. i'm 18 now.. for 19 hours and 5 minutes.. and i kinda feel a lil bit older.. now too much.. just a lil bit.. but wanna just give props to more ppl
aimee
becky
natalie
nicole
tracy my "roomate"
Sully.. from next door
Mommy
ivan
jenna
frankie
cap
sarah salomon
edgar
joycey woycey
long distance props
robbie.. all the way from england
macy..my cuz.. all the way from scotland
vera.. from hk
joey..my cuz.. from hk
kevin.. from australia..
camill.. from bc
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
tiff
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
mad props to
d
chris
special phone call.. wow i'm special!
MAD MAD PROPS
to Samantha Tam
w12.11.03
to sindy:
happy birthday!
have a delightful cakeful, ice creamful and chocolateful birthday! purple is a wonderful colour because it looks like taro...bbt?
posted by echephron at 12.11.03
check it out..
and last but not least
Happy 18th Birthday to Kyle..
my Birthday Buddy!
its just too bad i'm older than you.. 4 hours. 9 minutes.. I can boss you around!! wooho!!!
aimee
becky
natalie
nicole
tracy my "roomate"
Sully.. from next door
Mommy
ivan
jenna
frankie
cap
sarah salomon
edgar
joycey woycey
long distance props
robbie.. all the way from england
macy..my cuz.. all the way from scotland
vera.. from hk
joey..my cuz.. from hk
kevin.. from australia..
camill.. from bc
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
tiff
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
mad props to
d
chris
special phone call.. wow i'm special!
MAD MAD PROPS
to Samantha Tam
w12.11.03
to sindy:
happy birthday!
have a delightful cakeful, ice creamful and chocolateful birthday! purple is a wonderful colour because it looks like taro...bbt?
posted by echephron at 12.11.03
check it out..
and last but not least
Happy 18th Birthday to Kyle..
my Birthday Buddy!
its just too bad i'm older than you.. 4 hours. 9 minutes.. I can boss you around!! wooho!!!
Happy 18th Birthday To Me
so ive officially be 18 for aproximately 1.5 hours.. and i gotta say.. feels absolutely no differnce.. thanx to those who wished me a hppy b-day
in no order
cy
jo
sam
jer
clement
jess ip
lydia
amanda
wai lit
manry
wynne
fred
sarah savage
aimee
lauralei
trevor tuba boi
lisa my "ra"
graeme
sarah salomon
my sis..
joey. my cuz
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
so yeah.. i'm 18.. i can officially buy lottery tickets.. no more botherin jer.. and godfrey for them.. hehe :)
i can vote.. ooh.. federal election.. occuring soon.. wooho!! i can make a difference.. and oh.. i can buy porn.. great.. just #1 thing i wanna do..
can't wait till next year.. i can buy booze.. and cigs. not that i drink or smoke.. but just to be able to say i can!!!
sweet!!!
so ive officially be 18 for aproximately 1.5 hours.. and i gotta say.. feels absolutely no differnce.. thanx to those who wished me a hppy b-day
in no order
cy
jo
sam
jer
clement
jess ip
lydia
amanda
wai lit
manry
wynne
fred
sarah savage
aimee
lauralei
trevor tuba boi
lisa my "ra"
graeme
sarah salomon
my sis..
joey. my cuz
mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
for mailing me a card!! thanx!!
so yeah.. i'm 18.. i can officially buy lottery tickets.. no more botherin jer.. and godfrey for them.. hehe :)
i can vote.. ooh.. federal election.. occuring soon.. wooho!! i can make a difference.. and oh.. i can buy porn.. great.. just #1 thing i wanna do..
can't wait till next year.. i can buy booze.. and cigs. not that i drink or smoke.. but just to be able to say i can!!!
sweet!!!
November 09, 2003
i finally realized today.. how much i am actually worth to my friends.. and u know what is?? i was a lil surprised..
NOTHING!!!!!!!!
absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing
i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..
and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!
i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them
and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..
and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..
i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...
it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..
makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??
appaarently, for me...
a lot.
NOTHING!!!!!!!!
absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing
i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..
and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!
i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them
and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..
and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..
i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...
it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..
makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??
appaarently, for me...
a lot.
November 07, 2003
so i was studying.. and got a lil tired.. and i decided to redo my lay out again.. and what was suppose to be 30 minutes at the tops.. ended up being 3 hours.. i was trying this and trying that.. and now its 6:10am .. and i havne't gone to bed quite yet.. I have class at 10:30.. and a midterm at 7pm too.. and I"M sitting here contemplating.. should i go to bed or just stay up till after class and then go to bed??
i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..
so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..
outz
i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..
so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..
outz
November 02, 2003
---------------------------------Is it Too Late???--------------------------------------Its been a few days.. and its getting closer and closer to the end of the semester.. and i realized.. i haven't really been applying myself to university quite yet.. yeah thats rite.. 3/4 of the way in .. and i still ahve really applied myself.. I'm doing pretty good in my courses.. except for psyc..
Psyc.. my avg rite now is like a 60.. and it could be much better.. it could be.. if i studied.. read the chapters.. and oh.. most importantly.. showed up for class.. i've been to what?? 3 out of 6 classes... part of the problem being its monday nite 7-10.. long long day for me.. and then nite classes.. other part being.. me just being lazy.. not forcing myself to go to class..
i swear.. i could do so much better.. but i just.. can't find myself sitting down to do the work, studying... reading...
i tell myself, ok.. tonite.. i'm going to study.. chapter blah blah blah.. and read chapter blah blah blah.. and instead.. i find myself sitting at my desk.. chatting on msn or playing stupid games on yahoo.. for hours and hours... its like i'm addicted or something
and its just psyc thats mainly the problem.. i can force myself to study for theory, or basic skills, or music therapy.. but psyc.. i look at the book.. and i get bored already.. i guess it mite b/c i have no interest in psyc? and i do in the other subjects? for eg.
theory.. i'm actually doing better in than before.. i've had 2 midterms and 2 assignments.. i did alrite on my 1st midterm.. 74%..and 77% on my assignment.. and i just had an assignment and midterm this week.. and i studied for it.. and i think i did better.
basic skills.. i was on a roll.. A+.. till this week.. i've had 6 tests.. and all of them 85% and higher till the one i had on wednesday.. i kinda forgot to study and plus i missed 2 classes before that test.. cuz i was sick.. and i got 67%.. i mean.. its still semi-ok.. but could be so much better.. i have a test on monday.. mad studying for it.. i realy wanna have a A avg.. in this course
therapy.. i really enjoy this course.. so i guess thats probably why i'm doing pretty good.. considering its a "memorY'" course.. like have to remember names and dates.. and criterias.. and characteristics and stuff.. normally.. i dun do so good in this type of course.. but i've been doing alrite.. ive had 2 tests and an assignment.. 78% on the test, 99% on the assignment.. now the 2nd test.. i didn't really study for.. so i didn't do so good. but still..for not studying it was pretty good.. i have a test this thursday.. started studying already.. so should be good
wind ensemble... can't really say what mark i have in this course.. cuz i dunno.. but i mean.. if i pratice and show up for rehearsals. can't be that bad.. and i ahve been praticing.. and only actually missed one rehearsal.. b/c of the stupid stones.. so im ok for that too
private lesson.. i'm kinda a lil worried about this.. i have to perform for a jury.. in dec.. 12th to be exact.. 3:45pm... and i have to play 2 movements of the Saint-saens Sonata for Oboe and Piano.. My teacher and I haven't really gone thru much of it.. if any.. and I ahve less than a month to prepare it to top notch.. and i only see her once a week for 1 hr... and thats it.. i've been praticing.. but its hard to get something to top notch in one month.. it really is.. and considering jury is worth 50% of my final mark.. the other 50% being how i do in our lessons.. and i've been gettint 27, 28, or 29 out of 30 for that.. so its good.. but if i screw up on my jury.. i swear I'm f*cked..
so i guess.. i could be working so much harder.. and its kinda never too late? or maybe? i dunno.. i actually forced myself to go study in the library.. i was planning on going for 2 hrs at least.. ended up being 1 hr only .. cuz library closes at 10pm.. and i went at 830... i gotta start forcing myself more.. i got half a chapter done.. in just 1 hour.. which is pretty good
i realized.. that the computer and msn.. and real player.. and tv episodes.. had this uncontrollable power over me.. and what i do.. and my time.. and u know wut.. i really need to cut back.. so i've decided... i'm only actually going to go online and "talk" after what my goals for the day have been accomplished.. or at least to the best of my ability.. so i'll only blog 3 times a week?? maybe less.. depending.. definetly only once or even not at all during exams.. i'm staying home sundays.. for sure.. to study.. and saturday afternoons.. to study.. no shopping or anythign.. unless i have a "really" breezy week..
so yeah.. you'll be hearing less of me.. and reading less of me.. from this day forward.. which is a good thing for me.. cuz this comp stuff.. really killing me.. cuz i'm also staying up till like 3am.. to chat with ppl and stuff..
definetly..
DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP!!!
5 hours.. its a ok amount.. but i'm dying from it.. i'm the kinda person.. who needs a good 6-7 hours a nite.. or 5 during the night.. and 1-2 hr nap during the day... so also.. if u see me online at like 3am.. message me!!!! and YELL at me!!! as meanly as you can.. cuz i need rest..and sleep
Thanx..
Bobo.. Out
Psyc.. my avg rite now is like a 60.. and it could be much better.. it could be.. if i studied.. read the chapters.. and oh.. most importantly.. showed up for class.. i've been to what?? 3 out of 6 classes... part of the problem being its monday nite 7-10.. long long day for me.. and then nite classes.. other part being.. me just being lazy.. not forcing myself to go to class..
i swear.. i could do so much better.. but i just.. can't find myself sitting down to do the work, studying... reading...
i tell myself, ok.. tonite.. i'm going to study.. chapter blah blah blah.. and read chapter blah blah blah.. and instead.. i find myself sitting at my desk.. chatting on msn or playing stupid games on yahoo.. for hours and hours... its like i'm addicted or something
and its just psyc thats mainly the problem.. i can force myself to study for theory, or basic skills, or music therapy.. but psyc.. i look at the book.. and i get bored already.. i guess it mite b/c i have no interest in psyc? and i do in the other subjects? for eg.
theory.. i'm actually doing better in than before.. i've had 2 midterms and 2 assignments.. i did alrite on my 1st midterm.. 74%..and 77% on my assignment.. and i just had an assignment and midterm this week.. and i studied for it.. and i think i did better.
basic skills.. i was on a roll.. A+.. till this week.. i've had 6 tests.. and all of them 85% and higher till the one i had on wednesday.. i kinda forgot to study and plus i missed 2 classes before that test.. cuz i was sick.. and i got 67%.. i mean.. its still semi-ok.. but could be so much better.. i have a test on monday.. mad studying for it.. i realy wanna have a A avg.. in this course
therapy.. i really enjoy this course.. so i guess thats probably why i'm doing pretty good.. considering its a "memorY'" course.. like have to remember names and dates.. and criterias.. and characteristics and stuff.. normally.. i dun do so good in this type of course.. but i've been doing alrite.. ive had 2 tests and an assignment.. 78% on the test, 99% on the assignment.. now the 2nd test.. i didn't really study for.. so i didn't do so good. but still..for not studying it was pretty good.. i have a test this thursday.. started studying already.. so should be good
wind ensemble... can't really say what mark i have in this course.. cuz i dunno.. but i mean.. if i pratice and show up for rehearsals. can't be that bad.. and i ahve been praticing.. and only actually missed one rehearsal.. b/c of the stupid stones.. so im ok for that too
private lesson.. i'm kinda a lil worried about this.. i have to perform for a jury.. in dec.. 12th to be exact.. 3:45pm... and i have to play 2 movements of the Saint-saens Sonata for Oboe and Piano.. My teacher and I haven't really gone thru much of it.. if any.. and I ahve less than a month to prepare it to top notch.. and i only see her once a week for 1 hr... and thats it.. i've been praticing.. but its hard to get something to top notch in one month.. it really is.. and considering jury is worth 50% of my final mark.. the other 50% being how i do in our lessons.. and i've been gettint 27, 28, or 29 out of 30 for that.. so its good.. but if i screw up on my jury.. i swear I'm f*cked..
so i guess.. i could be working so much harder.. and its kinda never too late? or maybe? i dunno.. i actually forced myself to go study in the library.. i was planning on going for 2 hrs at least.. ended up being 1 hr only .. cuz library closes at 10pm.. and i went at 830... i gotta start forcing myself more.. i got half a chapter done.. in just 1 hour.. which is pretty good
i realized.. that the computer and msn.. and real player.. and tv episodes.. had this uncontrollable power over me.. and what i do.. and my time.. and u know wut.. i really need to cut back.. so i've decided... i'm only actually going to go online and "talk" after what my goals for the day have been accomplished.. or at least to the best of my ability.. so i'll only blog 3 times a week?? maybe less.. depending.. definetly only once or even not at all during exams.. i'm staying home sundays.. for sure.. to study.. and saturday afternoons.. to study.. no shopping or anythign.. unless i have a "really" breezy week..
so yeah.. you'll be hearing less of me.. and reading less of me.. from this day forward.. which is a good thing for me.. cuz this comp stuff.. really killing me.. cuz i'm also staying up till like 3am.. to chat with ppl and stuff..
definetly..
DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP!!!
5 hours.. its a ok amount.. but i'm dying from it.. i'm the kinda person.. who needs a good 6-7 hours a nite.. or 5 during the night.. and 1-2 hr nap during the day... so also.. if u see me online at like 3am.. message me!!!! and YELL at me!!! as meanly as you can.. cuz i need rest..and sleep
Thanx..
Bobo.. Out
October 28, 2003
i'm officially gonna be a Best Buddy..
its an organization that pairs adults with developmental disabilities with a uni student. We become their friend, that can always talk to, rely on, etc. We have to talk to them once a week on the phone, and twice a month, take them out to activities.. I"m so excited!! it'll be so much fun!!! woohoo :)
aah my week this week is gonna be so boring..
not much to do...
i have a theory midterm on wednesday.. but i'm all good for it.. so i'm not worried
aside from that nothing..
however next week.. AAAH!!!!
Skills Test on monday
Music Therapy Test on Thursday
Psyc Midterm on Friday
aah!! i should start studying but i dunno. i dun really feel like it
i dunno.. we'll see
hehe
so nov is slowly creepin up and making me think...
the Big 1-8
how much of my life will be changed b/c i reached that mark? i mean i'm technically not a child then.. i'm an adult.. and i'd be expected to be so different.. but i dun wanna be different.. i wanna be the same way i am now when i am 40 or 50 or even 80.. kinda strange thought tho.. dunno.. what to think of turning 18.. i mean.. Yeah .. its my birthday.. and i'm a year older.. but turning 18 means i have to mature.. be older.. and i dun really wanna..
ppl have already said that university has killed my childhood.. i'm no longer immature, childish. but i wann be.. sometimes.. wut happens if when i turn 18.. i'm no longer able to at all enjoy the childhood things??? AAAAH!!!!
i dunno even kno what im' talking about.. oh well
its an organization that pairs adults with developmental disabilities with a uni student. We become their friend, that can always talk to, rely on, etc. We have to talk to them once a week on the phone, and twice a month, take them out to activities.. I"m so excited!! it'll be so much fun!!! woohoo :)
aah my week this week is gonna be so boring..
not much to do...
i have a theory midterm on wednesday.. but i'm all good for it.. so i'm not worried
aside from that nothing..
however next week.. AAAH!!!!
Skills Test on monday
Music Therapy Test on Thursday
Psyc Midterm on Friday
aah!! i should start studying but i dunno. i dun really feel like it
i dunno.. we'll see
hehe
so nov is slowly creepin up and making me think...
the Big 1-8
how much of my life will be changed b/c i reached that mark? i mean i'm technically not a child then.. i'm an adult.. and i'd be expected to be so different.. but i dun wanna be different.. i wanna be the same way i am now when i am 40 or 50 or even 80.. kinda strange thought tho.. dunno.. what to think of turning 18.. i mean.. Yeah .. its my birthday.. and i'm a year older.. but turning 18 means i have to mature.. be older.. and i dun really wanna..
ppl have already said that university has killed my childhood.. i'm no longer immature, childish. but i wann be.. sometimes.. wut happens if when i turn 18.. i'm no longer able to at all enjoy the childhood things??? AAAAH!!!!
i dunno even kno what im' talking about.. oh well
October 26, 2003
My New Favourite Song:
Flying Without Wings - Rubben Studdard
Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
at any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
You're the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings
Flying Without Wings - Rubben Studdard
Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
at any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
You're the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings
October 25, 2003
another good quote.. this one from the now deceased
Madame Chiang -Kai -Shek.. also known as Soong Mai Ling
We write our own destiny; we become what we do. - Madame Chiang Kai Shek
She was one of the Soong sisters..
"One loved power, One loved money, One loved China"
There's a really good movie about these 3 sisters. Mai Ling married Chiang Kai Shek, first president of Taiwan, Ai-Ling married China's finance minister, and creator of Hong Kong Bank, H.H. Kung. Ching-Ling married Dr. Sun Yat-sen, The "Father of Modern China".
Dr.Sun Yat Sen is a cool man. We share the same birthday!!!
November 12!!! except he was born in 1866.. and i in 1985.. 116 years later.. woohoo!!!!
but yeah.. let us now..
have a moment of silence for her..
she was 106...
Madame Chiang -Kai -Shek.. also known as Soong Mai Ling
We write our own destiny; we become what we do. - Madame Chiang Kai Shek
She was one of the Soong sisters..
"One loved power, One loved money, One loved China"
There's a really good movie about these 3 sisters. Mai Ling married Chiang Kai Shek, first president of Taiwan, Ai-Ling married China's finance minister, and creator of Hong Kong Bank, H.H. Kung. Ching-Ling married Dr. Sun Yat-sen, The "Father of Modern China".
Dr.Sun Yat Sen is a cool man. We share the same birthday!!!
November 12!!! except he was born in 1866.. and i in 1985.. 116 years later.. woohoo!!!!
but yeah.. let us now..
have a moment of silence for her..
she was 106...
October 23, 2003
I was searching for some quotes. for a paper of mine.. some of these are really good
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Mother Teresa
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"The future belongs to those
who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
Eleanor Roosevelt
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look. To affect the quality of the day - that is the highest of arts. - Henry David Thoreau
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Friends are those people who know the words to the song in your heart and sing them back to you when you have forgotten the words." (Anonymous)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i kno another really good one about.. picking ur path in life. but i can't remember.. it was my in graduating blurb .. something about the path that others take.. something about creating your own path..
i dunno
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Mother Teresa
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"The future belongs to those
who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
Eleanor Roosevelt
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look. To affect the quality of the day - that is the highest of arts. - Henry David Thoreau
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Friends are those people who know the words to the song in your heart and sing them back to you when you have forgotten the words." (Anonymous)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i kno another really good one about.. picking ur path in life. but i can't remember.. it was my in graduating blurb .. something about the path that others take.. something about creating your own path..
i dunno
so i was sitting here.. and kinda bored.. with the winnie the pooh layout..
1st- just cuz..
2nd- hard to read the words
3rd- wanted a song with something
so i went searching.. and they didn't have any good "music" skins.. that i liked aside from this one.. its hikaru utadu.. i like her songs.. so it works out good
so this is gonna be my new layout.. at least for a lil while.. one of my friends here.. is really good with html.. so i mite be able to find a good layout.. that i will be quite happy with.. that i won't have to change ever again..
so yeah.. lates
1st- just cuz..
2nd- hard to read the words
3rd- wanted a song with something
so i went searching.. and they didn't have any good "music" skins.. that i liked aside from this one.. its hikaru utadu.. i like her songs.. so it works out good
so this is gonna be my new layout.. at least for a lil while.. one of my friends here.. is really good with html.. so i mite be able to find a good layout.. that i will be quite happy with.. that i won't have to change ever again..
so yeah.. lates
October 22, 2003
kinda forgot to blog about this earlier.. so yeah..
my W.E concert.. was amazing..!!!
i was kinda worried about it before. knowing me.. i feared the worst.. that i was gonna screw up my parts.. and make some really ugly duck noises.. but i did good.. no ugly duck noises.. no playing wrong notes.. everything came together.. great.. amazing!!! woohoo!!! so proud of myself..
it was kinda kewl having mom n dad come to hear the concert.. i appreciated.. they drove the 4 hours just to hear it.... and then they had dinner with me.. and then went home.. i mean.. a whole day just to come.. was so great.. it felt kinda nice to have them there.. just to kno.. someone came to support me.. cuz i kno some ppl didn't anybody there.. it was a great feeling.. just knowin..
we played a few diff pieces that day..
holtz - 2nd suite
cichy-bugs
grainger - ye old banks
grainger- faroe island dance
whitacre - noisy wheels of joy
old churches.. forget the composer
old comrades.. forget the composer
was great... we have our next performance nov 21..
we're playing some interesting, yet disonant pieces.. waking angels for example.. omg.. i swear u could play all the wrong notes.. and at the wrong beats .. and no one would even notice.. this piece.. features the ugliest notes on every instrument possible..
so weird.. but i mean.. thats 20th century music for ya..
so yeah..
my W.E concert.. was amazing..!!!
i was kinda worried about it before. knowing me.. i feared the worst.. that i was gonna screw up my parts.. and make some really ugly duck noises.. but i did good.. no ugly duck noises.. no playing wrong notes.. everything came together.. great.. amazing!!! woohoo!!! so proud of myself..
it was kinda kewl having mom n dad come to hear the concert.. i appreciated.. they drove the 4 hours just to hear it.... and then they had dinner with me.. and then went home.. i mean.. a whole day just to come.. was so great.. it felt kinda nice to have them there.. just to kno.. someone came to support me.. cuz i kno some ppl didn't anybody there.. it was a great feeling.. just knowin..
we played a few diff pieces that day..
holtz - 2nd suite
cichy-bugs
grainger - ye old banks
grainger- faroe island dance
whitacre - noisy wheels of joy
old churches.. forget the composer
old comrades.. forget the composer
was great... we have our next performance nov 21..
we're playing some interesting, yet disonant pieces.. waking angels for example.. omg.. i swear u could play all the wrong notes.. and at the wrong beats .. and no one would even notice.. this piece.. features the ugliest notes on every instrument possible..
so weird.. but i mean.. thats 20th century music for ya..
so yeah..
October 19, 2003
today.. was AMAZING!!! i swear it was.. went to windsor symphony.. omg.. so good..
alrite.. at first.. i thought windsor symphony.. can't be any good.. rite? i mean in comparison to tso?? i mean tso is world reknowed.. and wut not.. but wso.. is just as good.. well not really.. but they're pretty good.. for the size that they are..
tonites perfomance was
Brent Lee - voca me cum benedictis (World Premiere)
Rachmaninov- Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini
Berlioz- Symphonie fantastique
and the cool thing was.. well there were 2 cool things.. one.. 3rd movement of berlioz.. beautiful.. absolutely amazing.. english horn and oboe duet solo thing.. amazing..
2nd cool thing.. brent lee.. well actually dr.brent lee... he's my theory prof.. which is really cool.. cuz i've never met anyone who's composed an orchestral piece and had it performed by a symphony before.. amazing.. so kewl.. anyhow.. he's the new composer in residence for windsor.. which is another kewl thing.. cuz normally only big symphony orchestras have composer in residence's.. not small ones.. which i mean.. is a big stepping stone.. they're getting there..
Lee's Piece.. was really good.. it was orchestrated perfectly.. a wide display of the different instruments.. was really beautiful.. i really enjoyed it..
berlioz.. amazing!!!! just amazing!!!
Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini - the solo pianist.. was incredible.. and the kewl thing.. he's my age.. studying music at juillard.. what i would give.. to be that amazing on the piano.. omg.. so good!!! his music was so emotional.. so touching.. incredible!!!
and it was really fun to get to go with all the music ppl.. lots of ppl from the school of music was there...
aimee - french horn
jenna - french horn
lauralei - trumpet
colin - trumpet
me- queen of the oboe
graeme - trombone
matt - tuba
katie- clarinet
vanessa -percussion
jenn-clarinet
dan- trombone/piano
trevor - the tuba guy
robynne - flute/piccolo
and a whole lot of other ppl.. most of them upper years.. so dun really know them that well.. but yea
was so much fun.. and the tickets.. mad cheap..
robynne and i were sitting lower floor, W10-W11.. and the tickets were $15.. no tax.. no nothing.. so good.. there were seats at cheap as $6.. but they were like mad up front.. had to look up at the orchestra.. not really good.. but i mean.. $15 for pretty good seats.. Yeaa!!!
and i think i'm probs gonna go back for a few times too.. they're lots of good things being performed.. dido and aneas.. romeo and juliet.. halloween pops.. mad kewl
so yeah
another kewl thing about the symphony...
when we were waiting for the taxi.. outside cleary international centre.. i saw a
LAMBORGHINI!!!!!!
so kewl.. i haven't seen one in so long.. it was a brand new one.. mad nice!!! AAAH!!!!! so amazing.. just a great day
only bad thing..
i woke up at 10:30.. hoping to get some of my hwk done.. and i ended up chatting and playing games.. watching tv episodes.. on my comp.. didn't do anythign.. well .. one thing.. but compared to what i had planned.. my bad!!!
here's wut i have to do for monday
1) article summary (3pages or so)
2) article summary (3pages or so)
3) Ames Room Lab (1 page)
4) Study for Basic Skills Test
5) Budgeting for Dad
6) Theory Assignment
so much stuff.. not even funnie.. considering the article summaries will take me 1 hr each.. the lab.. 1/2 hr.. study for 1 hr.. budgeting takes a 1/2 hr.. theory assignment.. anywhere between 1 hr.. to 3 hrs.. thats like wut?
7 hours of work.. yikes!!!
i'm so screwed.. looks like its an all nighter for me tommorow..
another exciting thing
my w.e concert is tommorow.. woohoo!!! W.E being wind ensemble.. our first performance together tommorow at 3pm.. it'll be fun.. i'm hoping i won't screw up.. there's lil parts.. where i play lil solos.. or the oboe is extrememly exposed.. and i've been having lil probs with it.. i can play it fine.. by myself.. when praticing.. but in the midst of all my bandmates.. i screw up.. i dun kno why.. but yeah
on that note.. sleep would be good.. wouldn't wanna fall asleep tommorow on stage.. . lates
alrite.. at first.. i thought windsor symphony.. can't be any good.. rite? i mean in comparison to tso?? i mean tso is world reknowed.. and wut not.. but wso.. is just as good.. well not really.. but they're pretty good.. for the size that they are..
tonites perfomance was
Brent Lee - voca me cum benedictis (World Premiere)
Rachmaninov- Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini
Berlioz- Symphonie fantastique
and the cool thing was.. well there were 2 cool things.. one.. 3rd movement of berlioz.. beautiful.. absolutely amazing.. english horn and oboe duet solo thing.. amazing..
2nd cool thing.. brent lee.. well actually dr.brent lee... he's my theory prof.. which is really cool.. cuz i've never met anyone who's composed an orchestral piece and had it performed by a symphony before.. amazing.. so kewl.. anyhow.. he's the new composer in residence for windsor.. which is another kewl thing.. cuz normally only big symphony orchestras have composer in residence's.. not small ones.. which i mean.. is a big stepping stone.. they're getting there..
Lee's Piece.. was really good.. it was orchestrated perfectly.. a wide display of the different instruments.. was really beautiful.. i really enjoyed it..
berlioz.. amazing!!!! just amazing!!!
Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini - the solo pianist.. was incredible.. and the kewl thing.. he's my age.. studying music at juillard.. what i would give.. to be that amazing on the piano.. omg.. so good!!! his music was so emotional.. so touching.. incredible!!!
and it was really fun to get to go with all the music ppl.. lots of ppl from the school of music was there...
aimee - french horn
jenna - french horn
lauralei - trumpet
colin - trumpet
me- queen of the oboe
graeme - trombone
matt - tuba
katie- clarinet
vanessa -percussion
jenn-clarinet
dan- trombone/piano
trevor - the tuba guy
robynne - flute/piccolo
and a whole lot of other ppl.. most of them upper years.. so dun really know them that well.. but yea
was so much fun.. and the tickets.. mad cheap..
robynne and i were sitting lower floor, W10-W11.. and the tickets were $15.. no tax.. no nothing.. so good.. there were seats at cheap as $6.. but they were like mad up front.. had to look up at the orchestra.. not really good.. but i mean.. $15 for pretty good seats.. Yeaa!!!
and i think i'm probs gonna go back for a few times too.. they're lots of good things being performed.. dido and aneas.. romeo and juliet.. halloween pops.. mad kewl
so yeah
another kewl thing about the symphony...
when we were waiting for the taxi.. outside cleary international centre.. i saw a
LAMBORGHINI!!!!!!
so kewl.. i haven't seen one in so long.. it was a brand new one.. mad nice!!! AAAH!!!!! so amazing.. just a great day
only bad thing..
i woke up at 10:30.. hoping to get some of my hwk done.. and i ended up chatting and playing games.. watching tv episodes.. on my comp.. didn't do anythign.. well .. one thing.. but compared to what i had planned.. my bad!!!
here's wut i have to do for monday
1) article summary (3pages or so)
2) article summary (3pages or so)
3) Ames Room Lab (1 page)
4) Study for Basic Skills Test
5) Budgeting for Dad
6) Theory Assignment
so much stuff.. not even funnie.. considering the article summaries will take me 1 hr each.. the lab.. 1/2 hr.. study for 1 hr.. budgeting takes a 1/2 hr.. theory assignment.. anywhere between 1 hr.. to 3 hrs.. thats like wut?
7 hours of work.. yikes!!!
i'm so screwed.. looks like its an all nighter for me tommorow..
another exciting thing
my w.e concert is tommorow.. woohoo!!! W.E being wind ensemble.. our first performance together tommorow at 3pm.. it'll be fun.. i'm hoping i won't screw up.. there's lil parts.. where i play lil solos.. or the oboe is extrememly exposed.. and i've been having lil probs with it.. i can play it fine.. by myself.. when praticing.. but in the midst of all my bandmates.. i screw up.. i dun kno why.. but yeah
on that note.. sleep would be good.. wouldn't wanna fall asleep tommorow on stage.. . lates
October 14, 2003
man.. that was one short thanksgiving weekend.. incredibly short.. it ended up being not half as good as i would have hoped.. here's why..
friday nite: bunch of ppl going out.. once again.. no body knows who's going .. or going where? what time?? honestly.. they never plan these things.. they just expect someone to just do it for them.. it wasn't going to me.. i'm sorrie.. i've had enough of it.. oh and to make it worse.. where did they did decide to go... on a friday nite? at 10:30pm.. Mickey D"s!!!! who the hell decides to go to mickey d's on a friday nite.. with like 15 other ppl?? who?? ugh...
saturday nite: kinda was hoping that this nite would be more fun than the nite before.. kinda was.. but kinda wasn't either.. went out to boston pizza with d, chris, shay, jason, frankie.. that was fun.. loitered in the parking lot.. chilling.. that was fun too.. went over to d's cuz's house party.. personally.. i'm not much for hanging out with 29 year old strangers.. especially when they're all high and shit.. but i mean.. it was hanging out with d, and all the guys.. so it was ok.. it could have been worse...
sunday: was the one actual good nite.. not amazing.. but at least wasn't too screwed up.. went to outback with auntie eva, uncle tam, nicolas, mom, dad, ivan... that was fun.. man.. i hadn't eaten so much in one day!!!!!! cocount shrimp, bloomin onion, calamari, grilled shrimip, 8oz steak, potatoes, and like 20 cups of ice tea.. man.. my stomach started to hurt.. too much food.. went back to auntie evas.. play majhong.. fun fun.. hadn't done that in a while.. and then went home early to chill with mom...and miranada and ivan.. not my bro ivan... other ivan.. sis' bf... ivan.. bought over their dog.. lang meu.. such a cutie.. aaw.. she sloppers all over u.. but she's loads of fun
monday: went to teppanyaki at taste of japan... with family.. and 6e and elaine.. that was fun.. hadn't had teppanyaki ina while other.. i've been to taste of japan.. last time was jo, tiff, jess lam., and i.. mad eating that day too..
but i mean.. my weekend was relatively boring.. and not exciting.. didn't really get to hang out with ppl i really wanted to.. and when we did hang out.. it was screwed up by stupid bois.. ugh!!!!!
friday nite: bunch of ppl going out.. once again.. no body knows who's going .. or going where? what time?? honestly.. they never plan these things.. they just expect someone to just do it for them.. it wasn't going to me.. i'm sorrie.. i've had enough of it.. oh and to make it worse.. where did they did decide to go... on a friday nite? at 10:30pm.. Mickey D"s!!!! who the hell decides to go to mickey d's on a friday nite.. with like 15 other ppl?? who?? ugh...
saturday nite: kinda was hoping that this nite would be more fun than the nite before.. kinda was.. but kinda wasn't either.. went out to boston pizza with d, chris, shay, jason, frankie.. that was fun.. loitered in the parking lot.. chilling.. that was fun too.. went over to d's cuz's house party.. personally.. i'm not much for hanging out with 29 year old strangers.. especially when they're all high and shit.. but i mean.. it was hanging out with d, and all the guys.. so it was ok.. it could have been worse...
sunday: was the one actual good nite.. not amazing.. but at least wasn't too screwed up.. went to outback with auntie eva, uncle tam, nicolas, mom, dad, ivan... that was fun.. man.. i hadn't eaten so much in one day!!!!!! cocount shrimp, bloomin onion, calamari, grilled shrimip, 8oz steak, potatoes, and like 20 cups of ice tea.. man.. my stomach started to hurt.. too much food.. went back to auntie evas.. play majhong.. fun fun.. hadn't done that in a while.. and then went home early to chill with mom...and miranada and ivan.. not my bro ivan... other ivan.. sis' bf... ivan.. bought over their dog.. lang meu.. such a cutie.. aaw.. she sloppers all over u.. but she's loads of fun
monday: went to teppanyaki at taste of japan... with family.. and 6e and elaine.. that was fun.. hadn't had teppanyaki ina while other.. i've been to taste of japan.. last time was jo, tiff, jess lam., and i.. mad eating that day too..
but i mean.. my weekend was relatively boring.. and not exciting.. didn't really get to hang out with ppl i really wanted to.. and when we did hang out.. it was screwed up by stupid bois.. ugh!!!!!
October 10, 2003
wowo this is cool!! i'm going home at 1:30 pm.. yeah.. just 12 more hours to go!! woo hoo.. oh this is kinda kewl..
www.luradio.ca
my bud jay from high skewl is a dj on this.. lakehead radio.. on thursday nite.. from 12-2 am.. just u kno.. if ur awake then. its kewl.. he sounds much different on the radio.. than on the radio.. in his words.. "sexy".. ha
so i'm going home tommorow.. watch t.o
look out big old badie. Sindy.. woOO Wooo!!!!
ha.. its 1:32 in the am.. and i'm going crazy.. too many drinks.. i swear.. man.. gotta go to bed.. have class tommorow.. and wut not.. so yeah.. chilz
goodbye windsor.. see u soon t.o
www.luradio.ca
my bud jay from high skewl is a dj on this.. lakehead radio.. on thursday nite.. from 12-2 am.. just u kno.. if ur awake then. its kewl.. he sounds much different on the radio.. than on the radio.. in his words.. "sexy".. ha
so i'm going home tommorow.. watch t.o
look out big old badie. Sindy.. woOO Wooo!!!!
ha.. its 1:32 in the am.. and i'm going crazy.. too many drinks.. i swear.. man.. gotta go to bed.. have class tommorow.. and wut not.. so yeah.. chilz
goodbye windsor.. see u soon t.o
October 09, 2003
so today.. had my last midterm for now.. theory.. wasn't actually that bad... so glad i'm done!!! woohoo!!! yeah.. haha sux to be the ppl who still have midterms.. haha.. laugh at u.. all of u.. hehe...
so two more days till i go home for thanksgiving.. can't wait!!!! get to see all these ppl again.. will be so much fun!!! have a whole list of stuff to do!!!
Friday nite:
-go home around 5:15..
-go shopping for care package with sammi
-go dinner with sammi
-go out with jer, sammi, jo, jon, joyce, edgar, and whoever else
-sleep till i can't sleep no more
Saturday
-10:00 go dt. shopping for oboe supplies with mommi
-lunchtime.. with mommie.. yeah!!!
-go to doctors.. with mommie.. yeah
-afternoon go shopping for clothes w/mommi
-nite.. go out with skewlers.. woohoo!!!! no mini putt.. plz!!!!!
Sunday
-go to church
-have lunch with ppl.. maybe family.. maybe church ppl?? dunno yet
-thanksgiving dinner with auntie eva.. yeah pool.. yeah tennis!!!!!
Monday
-dun wake up till late
-thanksgiving lunch with 6e and elaine.. and TOTO!!!!! woo hoo.. i luv toto
-7:05 train to Windsor...
wowow.. my weekend is jammed pack with lots of fun activities.. yeah..
anyhow.. its 12:30.. gotta go
oh.. last thing..
check out the link to my test.. please do it!! its fun..
Props to peter!! he got the highest score!!! Tiss tiss on everybody else. they all failed!!!
so two more days till i go home for thanksgiving.. can't wait!!!! get to see all these ppl again.. will be so much fun!!! have a whole list of stuff to do!!!
Friday nite:
-go home around 5:15..
-go shopping for care package with sammi
-go dinner with sammi
-go out with jer, sammi, jo, jon, joyce, edgar, and whoever else
-sleep till i can't sleep no more
Saturday
-10:00 go dt. shopping for oboe supplies with mommi
-lunchtime.. with mommie.. yeah!!!
-go to doctors.. with mommie.. yeah
-afternoon go shopping for clothes w/mommi
-nite.. go out with skewlers.. woohoo!!!! no mini putt.. plz!!!!!
Sunday
-go to church
-have lunch with ppl.. maybe family.. maybe church ppl?? dunno yet
-thanksgiving dinner with auntie eva.. yeah pool.. yeah tennis!!!!!
Monday
-dun wake up till late
-thanksgiving lunch with 6e and elaine.. and TOTO!!!!! woo hoo.. i luv toto
-7:05 train to Windsor...
wowow.. my weekend is jammed pack with lots of fun activities.. yeah..
anyhow.. its 12:30.. gotta go
oh.. last thing..
check out the link to my test.. please do it!! its fun..
Props to peter!! he got the highest score!!! Tiss tiss on everybody else. they all failed!!!
October 05, 2003
its been a good day so far.. not much exciting but still fun.. woke up nice n earli.. went to worship.. i kinda feel bad.. i was so tired today.. i got home at like 1... was online till lik 230.. and then went ot bed.. had to wake up at 8.. so didn't get much sleep.. *yawn*... anyhow.. went to worship.. slept thru most of it.. and then went back to dorm.. i was just chillin.. talking to some ppl.. praticed the guitar till around 1.. went to buffet windsor.. with church ppl.. was fun.. didn't eat that much.. buffet food is never very appetizing.. so after that.. went back to res.. thats was 3 pm.. played some guitar.. downloaded some tab/chords for some cool songs.. "we all live in a yellow submarine.. yellow submarine.. yellow submarine." great song.. anyhow.. 5.. i get a call.. to go play ball/badminton... i was like.. ok.. fun fun.. went with some church ppl.. st.denis athletic center.. played badminton with pauleen.. and a yan.. and victor.. and some other guy.. dunno his name... woops... and then i played bball for a while.. just shootin n stuff.. didn't play with the guys.. cuz i never play with guys...
a typical bballin boi is the biggest hog.. and just completely ignores u.. i hate that.. its like.. girls can ball too.. and sometimes even better than the bois.... they think they're so amazing.. and then they're ignore on the court.. never pass the ball to u.. even if you're wide open and are gonna to make the shot.. 100%... its so stupid.. urgh.. im just sayin.. this is the typical guy.. so i didn't play...
it was kinda sweet.. just praticing my shots.. not having played for like 1 year. and then played today.. i got quite some many 3 pointers in. kinda sweet.. i think the two guys who were shootin there were kinda surprised too.. me.. short n out of shape lil girl.. who doesn't look like she can play at all.. gets 3 pointers in.. and not just lucky shots.. they were sweet swish.. so yeah.. it ended off on a good note..
tommorow.. class test in basic skills.. 930.. bright n early.. should be fun.. :)
and then midterm .. for theory.. for wednesday
n then friday!! Home time!!! i get to see everybody.. sammi.. and jo.. and jess.. and jess. .n amanda.. n lydia.. n jer.. n peter.. n rachel.. n jon.. n joyce.. n everybody else too.. woo hoo should be lots of fun!!
a typical bballin boi is the biggest hog.. and just completely ignores u.. i hate that.. its like.. girls can ball too.. and sometimes even better than the bois.... they think they're so amazing.. and then they're ignore on the court.. never pass the ball to u.. even if you're wide open and are gonna to make the shot.. 100%... its so stupid.. urgh.. im just sayin.. this is the typical guy.. so i didn't play...
it was kinda sweet.. just praticing my shots.. not having played for like 1 year. and then played today.. i got quite some many 3 pointers in. kinda sweet.. i think the two guys who were shootin there were kinda surprised too.. me.. short n out of shape lil girl.. who doesn't look like she can play at all.. gets 3 pointers in.. and not just lucky shots.. they were sweet swish.. so yeah.. it ended off on a good note..
tommorow.. class test in basic skills.. 930.. bright n early.. should be fun.. :)
and then midterm .. for theory.. for wednesday
n then friday!! Home time!!! i get to see everybody.. sammi.. and jo.. and jess.. and jess. .n amanda.. n lydia.. n jer.. n peter.. n rachel.. n jon.. n joyce.. n everybody else too.. woo hoo should be lots of fun!!
October 04, 2003
had a good day today...there was this amazing music therapy worksite.. omg!!! you don't understand.. it was amazing.. i just saw there in awe.. and like.. omg!!! so amazing.. i kno.. this is what i'm meant to do.. when the guest speaker.. amber.. just talked about passion and how there was this great feeling when u kno.. u've touched a lil's one heart.. when everybody else abandons them.. u try your hardest to try to move them.. even its just one lil step.. a smile.. a clap.. anything.. there's this overwhelming feeling.. and its amazing.. I know.. i doubted.. whether this was the rite thing for me.. and i kno.. i just kno.. its hard to explain.. it just overwhelmed today.. by how touching it can be.. and when she described what its like .. i imagined myself there.. in that school.. helping those children.. participatin in the activities she taught us.. I know!!!
went to lunch with some of the girls.. and was fun.. then did a lil bit of praticing.. i admit.. i haven't really praticed all that much these last 2 weeks.. cuz of the stupid stones.. but it was fun.. elizabeth.. taught me this new uh.. ombiture .. and its kewl... i have to pratice whistling.. thats how i get a good ombiture..
went to belle air.. they have the book!!!! i've been looking for this book forever.. not even gary's downtown had it.. and stupid oboe stores on internet.. nope.. but belle air.. yup
"The Oboist's Concert Album" Compiled and Revised by Albert J.Andraud..
great book.. all the most famous oboe solos and excerpts all compiled into one book.. i used it for my auditions.. and i kept on trying to find one.. cuz i couldn't take wendy's so.. yeah i found it now.. and it was only like $20 bucks.. or so.. including tax.. but hey.. there's always tax... bought some new pics.. they're pink!!! yeah..
went to the mall with lauralei, aimee, sarah and ashley.. bought a pair of black pants for wind ensemble from old navy.. a pair of cord from gap.. i swear.. its been a long time since i shopped at gap... dirty girl lip balm from green earth.. a roxy top.. !!!! yeah.. roxy..
went to walmart... bought some glow in the dark halloween stickers.. gonna decorate the room.. and new nail polish.. i swear.. i ahven't bought any in a while..
then went to dinner with norris and jeff.. was fun..
i still gotta study for theory midterm.. its wednesday.. and basic skills test on monday.. at 930... and then friday!!! going home!!! yeah.. can't wait.. i'll get to see sam and jo.. and jer.. and jon.. and rachel.. and joyce.. and cheryl.. and jess lam.. and all my skewlers.. oh.. gonna be great.. can't wait!!!! woohoo...
on the topic of midterms..yesterday was psyc.. i kinda screwed up a lot on it.. i didn't really answer one of the 10 mark essay questions.. and im pretty sure i got quite a good # of m/c questions wrong too.. im pretty sure i passed.. but its definetly not gonna be a 90 or anything... so now.. gotta study nice and hard in hopes of pulling that mark up..
latz
went to lunch with some of the girls.. and was fun.. then did a lil bit of praticing.. i admit.. i haven't really praticed all that much these last 2 weeks.. cuz of the stupid stones.. but it was fun.. elizabeth.. taught me this new uh.. ombiture .. and its kewl... i have to pratice whistling.. thats how i get a good ombiture..
went to belle air.. they have the book!!!! i've been looking for this book forever.. not even gary's downtown had it.. and stupid oboe stores on internet.. nope.. but belle air.. yup
"The Oboist's Concert Album" Compiled and Revised by Albert J.Andraud..
great book.. all the most famous oboe solos and excerpts all compiled into one book.. i used it for my auditions.. and i kept on trying to find one.. cuz i couldn't take wendy's so.. yeah i found it now.. and it was only like $20 bucks.. or so.. including tax.. but hey.. there's always tax... bought some new pics.. they're pink!!! yeah..
went to the mall with lauralei, aimee, sarah and ashley.. bought a pair of black pants for wind ensemble from old navy.. a pair of cord from gap.. i swear.. its been a long time since i shopped at gap... dirty girl lip balm from green earth.. a roxy top.. !!!! yeah.. roxy..
went to walmart... bought some glow in the dark halloween stickers.. gonna decorate the room.. and new nail polish.. i swear.. i ahven't bought any in a while..
then went to dinner with norris and jeff.. was fun..
i still gotta study for theory midterm.. its wednesday.. and basic skills test on monday.. at 930... and then friday!!! going home!!! yeah.. can't wait.. i'll get to see sam and jo.. and jer.. and jon.. and rachel.. and joyce.. and cheryl.. and jess lam.. and all my skewlers.. oh.. gonna be great.. can't wait!!!! woohoo...
on the topic of midterms..yesterday was psyc.. i kinda screwed up a lot on it.. i didn't really answer one of the 10 mark essay questions.. and im pretty sure i got quite a good # of m/c questions wrong too.. im pretty sure i passed.. but its definetly not gonna be a 90 or anything... so now.. gotta study nice and hard in hopes of pulling that mark up..
latz
so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..
ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...
and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know
so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..
yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..
dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..
1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house
haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..
ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..
oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???
SANTA!!!!!
oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..
lates
ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...
and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know
so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..
yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..
dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..
1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house
haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..
ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..
oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???
SANTA!!!!!
oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..
lates
October 03, 2003
starting today on a happier note.. i'm trying to figure out whether i should do 40 days with wcbc.. i mean.. at mcbc.. i never did it.. b/c i was all not liking mcbc ... but i mean here.. i'm finding my place.. my belonging.. and in a way.. i feel like i'm being called back to the father.. in the last few years.. ive drifted.. first only a lil bit.. to completely shunning him out of my life.. first it was only skipping sunday school every so often after worship.. to completely not goin to koinonia.. to not even goign to sunday school and occassionaly goign to worship.. at least only when my parents are home.. and even rejecting words of prayer. words of worship.. anything that had anything to do with the christian faith..
in the last 3 years.. i've gone to the extreme.. i've done everything he's told me not to.. and my excuse for doing it.. was i wanted to enjoy life while i still could.. but someone told me that was no reason/excuse to live the way i was.. i didn't listen.. and at moments i even dreaded their conversations.. but now.. i guess i wanna say thanks.. to trying to help me.. even tho i tried to push them away..
they could have chosen to give up on me.. leave me to be. but yet they stuck with me.. challenging me... helping me to find my way back .. and i really do appreciate.. the things.. and at moments then.. i may have said things i shouldn't.. done things i shouldn't.. and i kinda regret the things..
i admit.. there are still questions.. that are unanswered for me.. but at least.. i've gone to the point.. where i realized that i had to turn back.. i realized my mistakes.. and i kno..
thats why.. at this moment.. i'm stopping.. and i'm turning back.. i've reached the big stop..
along the way there have been ppl.. who helped me.. and i believe this is the time to say thanks..
orange
tiff
jess lam
sam
jo
peter
cy
jon wong
i just wanna say thanks.. its greatly appreciated for all the help that you've given me..
thank you.. from the bottom of my heart..
in the last 3 years.. i've gone to the extreme.. i've done everything he's told me not to.. and my excuse for doing it.. was i wanted to enjoy life while i still could.. but someone told me that was no reason/excuse to live the way i was.. i didn't listen.. and at moments i even dreaded their conversations.. but now.. i guess i wanna say thanks.. to trying to help me.. even tho i tried to push them away..
they could have chosen to give up on me.. leave me to be. but yet they stuck with me.. challenging me... helping me to find my way back .. and i really do appreciate.. the things.. and at moments then.. i may have said things i shouldn't.. done things i shouldn't.. and i kinda regret the things..
i admit.. there are still questions.. that are unanswered for me.. but at least.. i've gone to the point.. where i realized that i had to turn back.. i realized my mistakes.. and i kno..
thats why.. at this moment.. i'm stopping.. and i'm turning back.. i've reached the big stop..
along the way there have been ppl.. who helped me.. and i believe this is the time to say thanks..
orange
tiff
jess lam
sam
jo
peter
cy
jon wong
i just wanna say thanks.. its greatly appreciated for all the help that you've given me..
thank you.. from the bottom of my heart..
so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..
ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...
and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know
so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..
yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..
dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..
1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house
haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..
ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..
oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???
SANTA!!!!!
oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..
lates
ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...
and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know
so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..
yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..
dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..
1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house
haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..
ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..
oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???
SANTA!!!!!
oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..
lates
September 23, 2003
so life is finally starting to be hectic.. with tests and work... and reading.. a chapter a week.. for music therapy and pysc... gonna go crazie... he..
but uh.. i went home on the weekend.. it was interesting.. to see how things had changed in the last 3 weeks.. kinda felt out of place.. tho.. kind like.. everything was happening.. and i was just looking from the position of a bystander.. plus nobody went home.. sammi and jo were originally gonna go.. but no.. they all decided to ditch me.. they sux.. ha
jks... yea.. i went back and cut my hair..my hair is quite short now.. ah yeah... i miss my hair already.. i've never had my hair that long for such a long time tho... it was getting kinda shabby..a nd plus.. one disadv. of working at wonderland.. for games.. u stand in the sun for 8 hours a day.. the sun shining on ur hair.. my hair was so sun bleached. my ends of the tips were honest to god... yellow... disgusting...
returned to life at windsor.. gonna be here till thanksgiving.. really looking forward to thanksgiving... cuz everyone is gonna be back.. everyone.. even jer... so we're all gonna get together.. that should be loads of fun
have class. latz
but uh.. i went home on the weekend.. it was interesting.. to see how things had changed in the last 3 weeks.. kinda felt out of place.. tho.. kind like.. everything was happening.. and i was just looking from the position of a bystander.. plus nobody went home.. sammi and jo were originally gonna go.. but no.. they all decided to ditch me.. they sux.. ha
jks... yea.. i went back and cut my hair..my hair is quite short now.. ah yeah... i miss my hair already.. i've never had my hair that long for such a long time tho... it was getting kinda shabby..a nd plus.. one disadv. of working at wonderland.. for games.. u stand in the sun for 8 hours a day.. the sun shining on ur hair.. my hair was so sun bleached. my ends of the tips were honest to god... yellow... disgusting...
returned to life at windsor.. gonna be here till thanksgiving.. really looking forward to thanksgiving... cuz everyone is gonna be back.. everyone.. even jer... so we're all gonna get together.. that should be loads of fun
have class. latz
September 14, 2003
so its been the end of the 2nd week.. and as i am finally adjusting to life here... i realize.. im leaving next weekend.. i'm going back for the weekend.. to hang with d and chris.. and all my younger friends.. the 'rents' and who ever else is there as well...
its kinda freaky.. i never thought that this moment would come.. cuz i'm in university!!!! how freaky is that??
main thing to blog about would probs me.. my sudden change in opinion about religion.. i realized.. that i didn't hate religion... at least not as much as i use to think i did.. i realize it was the bad memories at mcbc that made me so awkward.. and so pessimistic about it all.. but i mean ppl at wcbc.. windsor chinese baptist church.. are so not like mcbc.. they're genuinely nice and i feel at hoem with them
i met some new ppl when i went to fellowship on friday.. i admit it was a lil strange.. cuz it is a dominantly chinese/cantonese fellowship.. and i've always gone to koinionia which is english..
and after fellowshiop.. we had noodles and stuff.. played some ball.. they're not ball hogs.. liek some ppl i know.. ha.. and when we got back.. i was talking to two guys that i met that night.. they live in building beside me.. and it was pretty cool.. everybody's so nice.. and i feel like i'm pretty good friends with a lot of ppl already!!
so yeah.. thats all i gotta. say..
so far not too much hwk n stuff.. but that probs will change in the next week or so.. cuz midterms are 1st week of october... gonna die then...
latz
its kinda freaky.. i never thought that this moment would come.. cuz i'm in university!!!! how freaky is that??
main thing to blog about would probs me.. my sudden change in opinion about religion.. i realized.. that i didn't hate religion... at least not as much as i use to think i did.. i realize it was the bad memories at mcbc that made me so awkward.. and so pessimistic about it all.. but i mean ppl at wcbc.. windsor chinese baptist church.. are so not like mcbc.. they're genuinely nice and i feel at hoem with them
i met some new ppl when i went to fellowship on friday.. i admit it was a lil strange.. cuz it is a dominantly chinese/cantonese fellowship.. and i've always gone to koinionia which is english..
and after fellowshiop.. we had noodles and stuff.. played some ball.. they're not ball hogs.. liek some ppl i know.. ha.. and when we got back.. i was talking to two guys that i met that night.. they live in building beside me.. and it was pretty cool.. everybody's so nice.. and i feel like i'm pretty good friends with a lot of ppl already!!
so yeah.. thats all i gotta. say..
so far not too much hwk n stuff.. but that probs will change in the next week or so.. cuz midterms are 1st week of october... gonna die then...
latz
September 11, 2003
September 10, 2003
so its been like a whole week.. and i have to admit.. i'm actually enjoying it here.. i admit.. i tried to not enjoy my time.. that way i wouldn't feel guilty for transferring next year... but ppl that i've met here are amazing.. i feel like that i've known them for a long time.. they're great friends... and we all share a common bond... MUSIC!!! which is really cool.. my roomate is not some psychopathic killer.. which is really kewl.. she's quite nice and we talk a lil about stuff... i'm glad for that too...
but there is a sad part to this all.. i miss all of my friends..i miss all the cds'ers i miss them all so much..
all my music buddies: i expect to turn around and see them... I want to make stupid music jokes with you guys.. i miss having u guys in my band...
d: i miss having you in my class... I miss not being able to pass notes to u in calc class.. I miss our daily lunches in the hummer....
sarah: i miss those daily lunches.. i miss the philosophy classes...
chris: I miss your lil comments.. i miss having u and d around all the time
to the 'bones': i miss having ur obnoxious trombone noices in my band class.. i miss having u guys around
elise: i miss sharing those lil music moments.. i miss being able to ask u questions when i don't understand
sterney: i miss ur ultimate "blondness"... i miss having u around to brighten up the day..
colting: i miss being able to annoy u... i miss having u to make me feel better
cap: i miss ahving ur smartness around.. i miss ur funnie stories...
i miss u all so greatly... u wouldn't believe.. and its hard.. because i know that we'll never be exactly the same.. thigns won't ever be exactly the way they use it... and i miss that.. b/c things were great then.. nothing will ever beat that.. and its hard .. b/c its all a thing in the past.. and tho we will still remain friends.. we're all separated by the many miles b/w us... and we're all starting a new chapter in our life.. we're moving on.. to better thigns.. and to new opportunities.. new friends...
sigh
i miss u all..
but there is a sad part to this all.. i miss all of my friends..i miss all the cds'ers i miss them all so much..
all my music buddies: i expect to turn around and see them... I want to make stupid music jokes with you guys.. i miss having u guys in my band...
d: i miss having you in my class... I miss not being able to pass notes to u in calc class.. I miss our daily lunches in the hummer....
sarah: i miss those daily lunches.. i miss the philosophy classes...
chris: I miss your lil comments.. i miss having u and d around all the time
to the 'bones': i miss having ur obnoxious trombone noices in my band class.. i miss having u guys around
elise: i miss sharing those lil music moments.. i miss being able to ask u questions when i don't understand
sterney: i miss ur ultimate "blondness"... i miss having u around to brighten up the day..
colting: i miss being able to annoy u... i miss having u to make me feel better
cap: i miss ahving ur smartness around.. i miss ur funnie stories...
i miss u all so greatly... u wouldn't believe.. and its hard.. because i know that we'll never be exactly the same.. thigns won't ever be exactly the way they use it... and i miss that.. b/c things were great then.. nothing will ever beat that.. and its hard .. b/c its all a thing in the past.. and tho we will still remain friends.. we're all separated by the many miles b/w us... and we're all starting a new chapter in our life.. we're moving on.. to better thigns.. and to new opportunities.. new friends...
sigh
i miss u all..
September 02, 2003
first nite was okay... i went out to dinner with sean, paul, winnie, auntie sarah and uncle brian.... it was good.... talking with auntie sarah made me realized... wow... i am actually starting this new chapter... and i dunno.. i still dun think i'm ready for it... i mean i've had the whole summer.. but it just doesn't feel rite.... but maybe by thursday.. when school starts.... i'lll know....so i dunno..... we have faculty-program orientation thingy majing... today.. so i'll get to know all my program buddies.... boo hooo... no more elise to be my music buddie!!! *sob sob*... but was talking to some ppl on msn today.. they seemed pretty happie with where they are now... so thats good... i dunno.. i haven't quite adapted... quite yet... so it'll take me a while.. but yeah... not much to say.. cuz it is 8:40 in the morning.... not quite awake yet... i'll update again later... when i'm incredibly bored... latz
September 01, 2003
so i officially started my first day at dorm.... it was so incredibly boring... like you wouldn't believe.....i have no internet until sunday... untill sunday!!!! i swear i'm gonna die.. and i was suppose to get a DVD drive.. but for some odd reason.. Future Shop ran out!!! they ran out!!! can u believe that??? ugh.. i'm gonna die now.. i swear i will.... anyhow... um.. so i moved in yesterday... my room is all clean and organized as of rite now.. it won't be for long tho... ha...
i met my roomate too.. she was nice.. her name's tracy.. i was so afraid.. before.. that i was gonna get some creepy pyschopath... but i'm ok now.. she seems really nice.. and like a good study person.. u know what i mean..
i put up pictures on my wall.. but i realized tha i didn't bring enuf...half my wall is empty.. so i need to get/take more pictures when i come out.... that is on the 20th.. i think... for now at least... i dunno.. might change laterr.. i'll have to see about that...
anyhow.. oh...
two b-day shoutz...
Happy b-day to you..
Happy b-day to you...
Happy b-day dear Rachels
Happy b-day to you...
its Rachel cheng ealry b-day and Rachel Tam's belated b-day.. YEah!!!!!!!
so yeah.. oh ppl... i miss y'all already.. just to let u know.. i'll be using comp at comp lab... every so often.. so i will check email and stuff... if u ppl are bored ever.. and wanna email me... hehe... *hint hint*... gotz to go..
chilz
i met my roomate too.. she was nice.. her name's tracy.. i was so afraid.. before.. that i was gonna get some creepy pyschopath... but i'm ok now.. she seems really nice.. and like a good study person.. u know what i mean..
i put up pictures on my wall.. but i realized tha i didn't bring enuf...half my wall is empty.. so i need to get/take more pictures when i come out.... that is on the 20th.. i think... for now at least... i dunno.. might change laterr.. i'll have to see about that...
anyhow.. oh...
two b-day shoutz...
Happy b-day to you..
Happy b-day to you...
Happy b-day dear Rachels
Happy b-day to you...
its Rachel cheng ealry b-day and Rachel Tam's belated b-day.. YEah!!!!!!!
so yeah.. oh ppl... i miss y'all already.. just to let u know.. i'll be using comp at comp lab... every so often.. so i will check email and stuff... if u ppl are bored ever.. and wanna email me... hehe... *hint hint*... gotz to go..
chilz
August 30, 2003
so.. had grad nite tonite.. and i realized.. i valued more things out of friday nite fellowship than i realized...
for 1.. my friends.. wow.. i never realized what they really had to say about me.. really kewl...
and you all know.. i dun cry very often.. not for a song at least.. but this song... was hardcore.. i took it off rachel's site tho.. www.rrrachel.blogspot.com
mark shultz & rachel lampa-- think of me
Packing my bag this morning,
Was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy,
Compared to standing outside your door,
right now to say goodbye to you.
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground,
I know that it feels like leaving,
Is a part of letting go.
But I'm praying with hope and believing,
That I'll see you once again down this road,
I hope that it won't be long.
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
and tho i'm not religious.. not in the way most of the ppl i know are.. this song was very touching.. very much so..
and tho after grad nite.. i was quite disappointed.. i made a pact to myself...
I'm giving myself 3 weeks time.. and in those 3 weeks.. i must forget.. or at least.. try to forget as much as i can.. cuz if i dunt... i'm gonna spend every waking moment thinking about it.. and i can't... i can't.. do that....
so.. jo.. ur gonna have to help me out here.. and sammi too... plz..
i'm leaving on sunday.. so i won't be seeing anybody.. for a good 3 weeks.. and yeah.. i'm hoping life will be fun.. and exciting.. and full of surprises.. otherwise.. how boring will it be..
last note: I rox at mini golf!!!!!! 53 was par.. i was like 48... something like that.. i redid the math jo.. hehe.. i mad rox!!!! woohoo.. if u dun believe.. ask jo.. she's my witness.. or ask chris n'dez.. they were there too..
last message to y'all until i move in.. it'll be a few days.. so
enjoy your last few days of summer or
enjoy your last few days of having nagging parents around...
lates
for 1.. my friends.. wow.. i never realized what they really had to say about me.. really kewl...
and you all know.. i dun cry very often.. not for a song at least.. but this song... was hardcore.. i took it off rachel's site tho.. www.rrrachel.blogspot.com
mark shultz & rachel lampa-- think of me
Packing my bag this morning,
Was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy,
Compared to standing outside your door,
right now to say goodbye to you.
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground,
I know that it feels like leaving,
Is a part of letting go.
But I'm praying with hope and believing,
That I'll see you once again down this road,
I hope that it won't be long.
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
and tho i'm not religious.. not in the way most of the ppl i know are.. this song was very touching.. very much so..
and tho after grad nite.. i was quite disappointed.. i made a pact to myself...
I'm giving myself 3 weeks time.. and in those 3 weeks.. i must forget.. or at least.. try to forget as much as i can.. cuz if i dunt... i'm gonna spend every waking moment thinking about it.. and i can't... i can't.. do that....
so.. jo.. ur gonna have to help me out here.. and sammi too... plz..
i'm leaving on sunday.. so i won't be seeing anybody.. for a good 3 weeks.. and yeah.. i'm hoping life will be fun.. and exciting.. and full of surprises.. otherwise.. how boring will it be..
last note: I rox at mini golf!!!!!! 53 was par.. i was like 48... something like that.. i redid the math jo.. hehe.. i mad rox!!!! woohoo.. if u dun believe.. ask jo.. she's my witness.. or ask chris n'dez.. they were there too..
last message to y'all until i move in.. it'll be a few days.. so
enjoy your last few days of summer or
enjoy your last few days of having nagging parents around...
lates
August 26, 2003
so i guess its goodbye.... school is officially going to start on monday.. and i'm moving in on saturday.. and all my friends are moving in to their respective skewls on sat or sunday.. and i guess its kinda scary.. i mean..
i've never been one to wanna make new friends.. unless i need to...
i've never been one to like change....
i've never been one to like not being with friends...
and all this is going to have to change now...
i have to make new friends
i have to adapt to new change
i have to learn to be without friends...
i dunno what i'm going to do... but this much i know..
it'll be a hard and enduring time... but eventually i will survive.. and get thru this.. but before i embark on this journey.. i just have to get some things out of my system...
i wanna say thank you... goodbye wouldn't be the rite word.. b/c i wanna remain friends with all these people... its just a temporary goodbye.. but also a sincere and utmost Thank You!
1) for all the happy moments
2) for all the sad moments
3) just for being my friend
4) stickin there with me throught everything
5) helpin me to get over the troublesome and trying moments in my life
6) supportin me thru every stupid decision i've ever made..
my school friends:
you guys have stuck with me and tolerated me for 4 years... and god only knows how annoying and bitchy i can get... but you guys never gave up on me.. stickin with me till the very end... we've had our moments.. whether it be... "band" camp... nyc... france trip.. arrowhon.. or whether it was just cruisin around at lunch.. these moments will forever remain in my mind.. and i will never forget them. thank you for sharing these moments with me.
d- once i got past of being scared of you at arrowhon... you have been my good friend.. you have been there for me all these years... and you were there when i needed you.. to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on..... you were there.. to drive me to lunch.. you were there... to let me express my anger.. you were there to provide some comical relief during calc class.... you are one of the best friends that i have.. and its sad that we will no longer be together like the way we were at cds.. but i know that we will remain friends for years to come.. i wanna thank you for being my friend for the last 4 years...
sarah- princess... we've had our memories.. whether it be crusin in the hummer.. or my spare.. ur art class.. you were there when i needed to talk.. you were there... for me.. always.. and i wanna say thank you.. though the distance between us may be far.. i hope that we will remain friends... thank you for the last 4 years
elise: my music buddie.. i'm glad that there is someone that i can share this interest with... we've had our fun moments.. "band" camp X 2...... band.. when ever i showed up.. choir.. and last but not least.. SOM... we had our fun making fun of piano lady.. didn't we??? though ur in western.. and i in windsor.. i hope that we will continue to share this bond..for many years to come..... thank you...
sterney: blondie.. thru the many years of butt smacking... and poking... and blond jokes.. you have stayed with me for so long.. and i wanna thank you.. for providing me with basketball memories.. spare memories.. society memories.... and i hope that we will continue to be friends.. b/c i would hate to lose someone to say blond jokes to... and you know.. that you will always remain my friend... madelinus sternus...
krystel: my newmarket buddie.. thru the painful pokes in society... and the endless celebrity life dreams in spanish.. we've had our many memories.. as you embark on your journey in life.. always remember... that i am always your friend.. and i hope you will remain mine as well.. thank you for the last 4 years...
cap: hey smartey pants... thank you for being there.. thank you for sharing nyc and band camp memories.. i wish that the distance b/w us wasn't so far.. but i hope we will remain friends till forever..... i wish you the best of luck in washington....
caitlin: gurl...we've shared some good moments.. whether it be, being lost in paris.. band camp.. or just sitting on a dock talking... we've shared many things.. and its sad to see us not together anymore.. i hope that we will continue to stay in touch.. i wish you the best of luck.. as you continue ur life at cds.. you'll need it.. lots of luv
to my music bois.. frankie.. james.. shay.. leppo.. will...
thanks for all the memories that you have shared with me... nyc.. band camp.. som.. whether it was skipping band or making fun of ms. piano lady... we've had loads of fun.. thank you for stickin with me all these years... you have all seen me at my most cranking and bitchy moments.. friday morning band.. and still you have all continued to be there for me.. thank you.... thank you for "bobo"... its something i will carry with me for the rest of my life.. at first.. i hated that name.. but eventually i realized.. it was something special b/w all of us... and i will never forget it.. ever.. i promise... and i hope you won't too... let's keep the bond alive
to all the others.. tommy seymour.. chris.. ang.. alana.. hubbert.. shortie #1.. olivia.. vaness.. liz..
thank you to you all.. for being there with me thru everything... tho we will no longer be together.. i want you all to know.. that you will forever remain in my heart.. i will be always thinking of you.. and the moments that we have shared will always be cherished..
to my other friends:
sammi: we've known each other for a long time.. since markville?? i think.. and... you've been there whenever i needed someone to talk to.. even if it was about something stupid.. and you've been one of the most supporting and reliable people i know.. we've gone thru many things together.. you've helped me get over a lot of things.. and i truly want to thank you for all the help, advice, and love you have given me.. thank you so much.. and as we go forth into different paths.. i hope that our paths will once again cross... and i hope that we will remain forever friends.. best of luck in western... lots of luv
jo: my "sis".. so many ppl think of us as sisters.. b-ball camp.. just random ppl.. and in a way.. i feel that it is somewhat true.. i've known you for as long as i can remember... like a good 10 years... long long time.. and from the very begginning.. you were a great friend.. we've been thru a lot together.. some happy.. and some not so happy.. but even so.. you stuck with me till the very end.. and thank you for that.. i hope that we will remain friends.. best of luck in western...
jess: my paul frank buddie.. thanx for being such a great friends these years.. we've shared many good memories.. karoake in hong kong.. westlife fever.. thanks for the many memories.. best of luck in mcmast
cy: you've been a great friend.. and tho we might not always agree on all the same things.. we've still managed to have lots of good memories.. thanx for that... good luck in your last year of highschool
peter: tho, we've only known for 2 years... we've shared many great memories.. as we go our separate ways.. i hope we will remain friends.. good luck in tyndale
jer: once again.. we've only known for a short span of 2 years.. you've provided me with a lot of comical relief.. thanx for that.. we've had lots of memories in the last while... i will remember them.. dun fret.. when you're lonely in halifax..remember.. that i'm always here.... to call.. and bother.. whatever you like... good luck at dal...
edga: tho in the last lil while.. we haven't talked as much as we use to... i still wanna thank you for all the many memories that we shared.. whether talking about girls or just life in itself.. thank you for being my friend...
miu miu: thanx for being a great friend for the last 10 years.. i think... we shared many good memories.. pioneer club.. pokey boi.. thanx for being my friend...
to all the others: rachel, joyce, jon,
thanks for being my friend.. these years.. we've shared many good memories.. i will never forget.. good luck in high school
i've never been one to wanna make new friends.. unless i need to...
i've never been one to like change....
i've never been one to like not being with friends...
and all this is going to have to change now...
i have to make new friends
i have to adapt to new change
i have to learn to be without friends...
i dunno what i'm going to do... but this much i know..
it'll be a hard and enduring time... but eventually i will survive.. and get thru this.. but before i embark on this journey.. i just have to get some things out of my system...
i wanna say thank you... goodbye wouldn't be the rite word.. b/c i wanna remain friends with all these people... its just a temporary goodbye.. but also a sincere and utmost Thank You!
1) for all the happy moments
2) for all the sad moments
3) just for being my friend
4) stickin there with me throught everything
5) helpin me to get over the troublesome and trying moments in my life
6) supportin me thru every stupid decision i've ever made..
my school friends:
you guys have stuck with me and tolerated me for 4 years... and god only knows how annoying and bitchy i can get... but you guys never gave up on me.. stickin with me till the very end... we've had our moments.. whether it be... "band" camp... nyc... france trip.. arrowhon.. or whether it was just cruisin around at lunch.. these moments will forever remain in my mind.. and i will never forget them. thank you for sharing these moments with me.
d- once i got past of being scared of you at arrowhon... you have been my good friend.. you have been there for me all these years... and you were there when i needed you.. to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on..... you were there.. to drive me to lunch.. you were there... to let me express my anger.. you were there to provide some comical relief during calc class.... you are one of the best friends that i have.. and its sad that we will no longer be together like the way we were at cds.. but i know that we will remain friends for years to come.. i wanna thank you for being my friend for the last 4 years...
sarah- princess... we've had our memories.. whether it be crusin in the hummer.. or my spare.. ur art class.. you were there when i needed to talk.. you were there... for me.. always.. and i wanna say thank you.. though the distance between us may be far.. i hope that we will remain friends... thank you for the last 4 years
elise: my music buddie.. i'm glad that there is someone that i can share this interest with... we've had our fun moments.. "band" camp X 2...... band.. when ever i showed up.. choir.. and last but not least.. SOM... we had our fun making fun of piano lady.. didn't we??? though ur in western.. and i in windsor.. i hope that we will continue to share this bond..for many years to come..... thank you...
sterney: blondie.. thru the many years of butt smacking... and poking... and blond jokes.. you have stayed with me for so long.. and i wanna thank you.. for providing me with basketball memories.. spare memories.. society memories.... and i hope that we will continue to be friends.. b/c i would hate to lose someone to say blond jokes to... and you know.. that you will always remain my friend... madelinus sternus...
krystel: my newmarket buddie.. thru the painful pokes in society... and the endless celebrity life dreams in spanish.. we've had our many memories.. as you embark on your journey in life.. always remember... that i am always your friend.. and i hope you will remain mine as well.. thank you for the last 4 years...
cap: hey smartey pants... thank you for being there.. thank you for sharing nyc and band camp memories.. i wish that the distance b/w us wasn't so far.. but i hope we will remain friends till forever..... i wish you the best of luck in washington....
caitlin: gurl...we've shared some good moments.. whether it be, being lost in paris.. band camp.. or just sitting on a dock talking... we've shared many things.. and its sad to see us not together anymore.. i hope that we will continue to stay in touch.. i wish you the best of luck.. as you continue ur life at cds.. you'll need it.. lots of luv
to my music bois.. frankie.. james.. shay.. leppo.. will...
thanks for all the memories that you have shared with me... nyc.. band camp.. som.. whether it was skipping band or making fun of ms. piano lady... we've had loads of fun.. thank you for stickin with me all these years... you have all seen me at my most cranking and bitchy moments.. friday morning band.. and still you have all continued to be there for me.. thank you.... thank you for "bobo"... its something i will carry with me for the rest of my life.. at first.. i hated that name.. but eventually i realized.. it was something special b/w all of us... and i will never forget it.. ever.. i promise... and i hope you won't too... let's keep the bond alive
to all the others.. tommy seymour.. chris.. ang.. alana.. hubbert.. shortie #1.. olivia.. vaness.. liz..
thank you to you all.. for being there with me thru everything... tho we will no longer be together.. i want you all to know.. that you will forever remain in my heart.. i will be always thinking of you.. and the moments that we have shared will always be cherished..
to my other friends:
sammi: we've known each other for a long time.. since markville?? i think.. and... you've been there whenever i needed someone to talk to.. even if it was about something stupid.. and you've been one of the most supporting and reliable people i know.. we've gone thru many things together.. you've helped me get over a lot of things.. and i truly want to thank you for all the help, advice, and love you have given me.. thank you so much.. and as we go forth into different paths.. i hope that our paths will once again cross... and i hope that we will remain forever friends.. best of luck in western... lots of luv
jo: my "sis".. so many ppl think of us as sisters.. b-ball camp.. just random ppl.. and in a way.. i feel that it is somewhat true.. i've known you for as long as i can remember... like a good 10 years... long long time.. and from the very begginning.. you were a great friend.. we've been thru a lot together.. some happy.. and some not so happy.. but even so.. you stuck with me till the very end.. and thank you for that.. i hope that we will remain friends.. best of luck in western...
jess: my paul frank buddie.. thanx for being such a great friends these years.. we've shared many good memories.. karoake in hong kong.. westlife fever.. thanks for the many memories.. best of luck in mcmast
cy: you've been a great friend.. and tho we might not always agree on all the same things.. we've still managed to have lots of good memories.. thanx for that... good luck in your last year of highschool
peter: tho, we've only known for 2 years... we've shared many great memories.. as we go our separate ways.. i hope we will remain friends.. good luck in tyndale
jer: once again.. we've only known for a short span of 2 years.. you've provided me with a lot of comical relief.. thanx for that.. we've had lots of memories in the last while... i will remember them.. dun fret.. when you're lonely in halifax..remember.. that i'm always here.... to call.. and bother.. whatever you like... good luck at dal...
edga: tho in the last lil while.. we haven't talked as much as we use to... i still wanna thank you for all the many memories that we shared.. whether talking about girls or just life in itself.. thank you for being my friend...
miu miu: thanx for being a great friend for the last 10 years.. i think... we shared many good memories.. pioneer club.. pokey boi.. thanx for being my friend...
to all the others: rachel, joyce, jon,
thanks for being my friend.. these years.. we've shared many good memories.. i will never forget.. good luck in high school
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)