i swear.. i have this huge ass sign on my forehead that says::

Registrar's Office.. Please screw me over!!!

in my 4 years in high skewl, and my 4 year at univefrsity.. not once have i not been screwed over by the registar's office.. and this year ...

it happens too!!!

my mom asked me to print off my shcedule so she'd have an idea of whats going on for the next semes... so i go online .. and i find out that.. the friggin registar's office has switched my program on me.. and that i'm only registerd in 5 out of the 8 courses i'm suppose to be in.. and damn.. its the long weekend now.. and skewl starts on tuesday.. what the hell am i suppose to do?? FrIG


damn.. i swear.. I HATE THE DAMN PPL at all registrar's office...

and just like that...
my days in hk are limited..

7 days to be exact..
a week from today.. i will have boarded my plane back to canada..
and my emotions are so mixed rite now
its sad really.. how quickly my summer is ending.. but i'm also glad... that i'm going home..
but yet there's this feeling of uncertainty that i have..

1)
i miss so many things about T.O..

i miss ppl.. i miss my house.. i miss my parents.. i miss having my own room.. my own closet...
i miss all my girls.. all my boys.. i miss getting to hang out with ppl..

2) i'm gonna miss so many things in hk..

i'm gonna miss all of my kids at work.. i'm gonna miss my cousins.. my friends.. i'm gonna miss
hanging out in hk.. i'm gonna miss cheap food, and cheap clothes.. and just everything cheap.

3) i'm looking forward to going back to skewl..getting ready for a brand new start.. new school.. new subject.. new friends.. new everything

4) i don't want to be back in skewl.. after having taking almost 8 months off skewl.. i dun really know how ready i am... i haven't studied.. read textbooks.. written papers.. in so so long.. i really dunt want this new start to start off badly..


but i think.. the worst thing for me.. is this feeling of uncertainty...

its not the first time i've had it.. i actually get it twice a year.. before i leave for hk.. and before i return for the summer..

i'm also so worried about ..

oh.. what did i miss this summer?? i wonder what they did this summer?? did i miss anything really exciting???

do they have new friends now?? do they have friends better than me??

have they realized that i'm easily replaceable???

will things between us still be the same?? despite the 3 months gap????

these are somewhat immature questions to ask.. i kno that.. but i guess.. i just can't help it..

so as i'm spending my last week in hk.. i'm anxiously awaiting the answers to my questions when i return..

:'(

so i'm sitting at home.. got a half day off from work.. why u ask??

well..
at the end of last week.. saturday.. i started to feel sick from.. headache, dizziness, chills, fever, the works.. so went home early that day.. slept for the weekend.. and then went to see the doctor on sunday.. turns out i had a throat infection... got monday off.. tuesday.. my throat is a little better.. but still feeling the chills, fever, and on top of that.. it feels like a sinus infection is workign up..
wednesday.. sinus are killing me.. headache.. my eye is burning and my ears are vrooming..
so i asked for a half day off today to go see the doctor.. leaving in a sec..

man i hate how i get sick all the time.. irregardless of where i am.. i always get sick.. its quite annoying really.

i just wish i could have a normal body.. one that was free of sickness. URGH

had another celebrity sighting again

haha so today started really really shitty.. it was pouring rain outside.. and the walk to work is walking downhill ... so basically all the water was pouring down my feet the whole 10 min walk.. i was wearing my birks.. so the leather and cork on them are all screwed up..so i decided that i was going to buy a new pair of shoes for the rest of the day.. i needed and wanted to buy shoes

anyway.. got to work.. i was soaking wet .. disgustingly wet. taught 4 classes.. about holidays.. one of which was just horrible.. had to yell at the kids really bad.. they were being so stupid.. and rude.... work ends..

walked to festival walk with eudora.. euds left. and i walked around to look for shoes.. went to puma.. walk in.. started freaking out.. CELEBRITY!!!!!

nancy wu

and Lai Lok Yin

call eudora.. she comes back up to festival walk..

i didn't end up taking a pic with nancy wu.. she was shopping for a really long time and i had to rush to work.. but i did get the picture with the tall kinda good looking guy.. i dunno what his english name is tho.. ended geting a new pair of limited edition puma's and a pink sweatshirt too.. hehe

its been an eventful few weeks...

started to work full time with two jobs..

monday wednesday friday mornings from 9 till 1.. work at mary knolls.. then 2 -7 i work at beacon hills
tuesday thursday saturday.. i work 9-7 at beacon hill.. been so incredibly tired and busy..

been to 2 concerts..

1st was last sunday.. went to see justin lo and ronald cheng.. 903id concert.. a lil disappointed to be honest.. it was suppose to start at 8.. didn't end up starting till like 840 and it was over by 10.. and ronald didn't sing that many of his own songs.. instead he sang some really old 80's songs.. justin was not bad.. but he definetly needs to learn some new moves for when he's singing.. he only knows how to do the "move your hands" and " close your eyes" and "pretend to be all emotional" .. haha..

2nd was just a few hours ago.. netvigator let's MOOV 2006.. it had aaron kwok, denise ho, twins, fong dai tong, stephanie cheng, sun shine boyz, EO2.. pretty good concert.. a lil pissed off tho.. my brother was an ass and took the vip backstage pass and went in by myself and left me and my cousin stranded to leave by ourselves.. urgh.. and then he got to take pics of the celebs backstage and at the afterstage party...i took 300+ pics which i'll upload later .. along with the 903id concert pics

went out for dinner on wednesday @ wasaka in mong kok with some co-workers the other day.. had lots of fun.. drinks.. sushi.. good times.. good times

went out for dinner last night with some friends of last year.. its interesting to see what can happen after a year.. so many things change in ppl's lives..

tommorow.. lunch with grans and family.. hk book fair

aug 1... cousin is having a quick wedding before she leaves for seatle..
aug 4... cousins family wedding dinner.. and then the official dinner april 24th.. hopefully exams start and finish sooner than that.. or i'll miss a fun wedding.

then

work work work some more.. till the end of august..

3rd concert of the year.. MY FAVOURITE!!!!!! so excited. aug 25/26 LEE HOM!!! live in HK!!!!! yeah YEAH YEAH!!! so far i have row 16, section 58.. which is kinda decent.. but not the best.. i'm waiting till my cousin's can get me better ones.. 300+ pics at a concert with only a few ppl i like.. imagine me at WANG LEE HOM!!!!!! i will have like 8 cameras.. and 20GBS of memory card.. i will be insanely crazy..

check www.bobotheoboe.myphotoalbum.com after toronto monday night.. and you should see over 400 somthin pics of the concert plus lots of other pics from the summer..

omg.. surprise exciting day ..

started off really really shitty. spain lost. so i was definetly pissed off..

game ended at like 4 almost 5am.. went to bed. woke up around 10..

went for breakfast at flying pan with eudora.. went to look at some comp stuff.. and then went to my cousin's store in wanchai..where we did some shopping.. clothes n jewelerry..

went to pacific place at admiralty.. the both of us are so excited and happy to see lots of pretty clothes and pretty brand names..

and the best thing happens.. we walk into zara. look at some clothes.. and then i notice margaret chung behind me!!!! and then i being the biggest loser.. especially a big celebrity loser.. start like freaking out.. and i'm like.. OMG eudora eudora.. look look.. and its margaret chung.. OMG she's even prettier in real life i find.. and she's skinny.. but not like those disgusting uber skinny hk girls.. she's like healthy skinny... prolly from all the yoga she teaches.. my cousin says she teaches yoga around the area..

and we ask her for a picture. and she was so nice and she talked to us.. we were like.. we're from toronto.. can we have our picture taken with u? i knew she was from canada.. but i wasnt 100% sure if she was from toronto. but she was.. and she was really nice. she was like askin us oh. are u guys back for summer vacation.. she was so so so nice!!!!

definetly made my day..

but then my day went downhill from there.. i left for work around 430ish after shopping with eudora.. on the way to work.. my eye started to killl..

my contacts were dying. and they kept on killing my eyes for the following 4 hours. where i honestly felt as if my eyes were gonna fall out..desite my washing and eye drops.. nothing works.. so i finally get home. and take out my contacts.. my eye is all completely red and swollen.. and it still is..

i have a feeling that i kinda scractched my eyes with my contacts.. and with all the stupid germs in hk.. i'm starting to get an infeciton in my eye...

which will totally sux.. urgh..

but leaving with a pretty picture.. so happy.. eudora's looks better tho. her camera on her cell has better quality.. so hers is nicer.. but still so happy with mine!!!

quite the eventful day today..

started off with 2 classes at work..one of which was horrible.. one of the kids was insanely out of control.. so bad that his maid had to come in and carry him home.. waaa...

then lunch at festival walk in kowloon tong where i saw.. lee san san.. sister to jan lam.. i was walking back towards the kcr to take the bus up to work and she was walking towards my direction.. very kewl.. first celebrity citing so far..

then another 2 classes.. then went to sing k with tracy.. sang all my songs!! yeah yeah!! sang from like 5-8..

then went to mong kok where we engorged ourself with street food..man i luv "smelly" tofu, and curry fish balls, and cheung fun, and ooh.. my fav summer drink .. hui lau san.. mango tapoica drink.. yum yum.. walked around.. got another piercing..

yes yes thats rite.. a 7th piercing..

total imbalance now.. 5 on my right ear.. and 2 on my left ear..

planning on going one more on my left ear and a stud on my nose before the summer comes to an end..

also got some earrings.. and while at mong kok.. saw my fave jap cartoon character.. the lil ink ball from Totoro.. they have him now.. by himself!! yeah!! i luv that thing.. its so cute.. but a lil pricey.. $138 for one lil small-sized pin up in car figure..

went to temple street.. had my fortune told by a bird.. haha. mad funny.. had some yummy food... man i luv mong kok.. so totally luv the hk streets...

took the mtr home.. watched the germany-sweden game.. yeah yeah yeah.. germany won.. can't wait till monday nite.. spain-france.. SPAIN better damn ass win!!!

mid-nite snack courtesty of 7-11.. all too lazy to go out to cway bay to actually eat.. gonna watch the argentina-mexico game at 3am.. then sleep for a few hours.. work from 1030-1230.. come home.. eat lunch.. then sleep til mid-afternoon...

so theres my eventful day.. woohoo

short blog..

may-june 2006 pics

finally mananged to upload some of the pics from summer so far..
still have lots to upload tho..

so world cup season... my new love for this world cup is

FERNANDO TORRES... he's so so pretty :P haha

and he's a really good player too.. i was watching the spain vs ukraine game..

hmmm.. can't wait till the next spain game.. MONDAY!!! weeee!!!

i'm not a big soccer fan but i luv world cup... haha..

let's go spain and england.. and germany..

lets go beckham, rooney, lampard,cole, owen,
lets go torres
lets go ronaldo
lets go klose
lets go ZZ

i only work like 2 hours a day with the exception of saturday.. and then nothign for the rest of day or night...


one would assume that with so much time, that i would be happy or excited that i can spend most of the time sleeping or just chillin..

but truth is.. i'm bored.. outta of my mind bored... there is really only so much sleeping and bumming aroudn u can do..

when your friends are either working, in school, or not in the country yet.. when your cousins are still in school.. when there are a lack of interesting english channels on tv.. when you have nobody to go hang out with or do anything with.. you get really really bored..

ive never really been one to go do anything by myself.. so that only adds to my problem..

i wonder.. if i were in toronto.. would i be as bored..

perhaps, i would have a car to go do stuff.. or more friends to hang out with... or perhaps satelite tv... or perhaps my own computer with internet acesss.. or whatever it may be..

i realize.. ...

I MISSS U PPL so much!!!!!!

ok never mind then.. no pics..stupid bloger wont let me put up pics..

so i've been back for almost 2 weeks now.. and not much as happened.. done some hanging.. done some shopping.. done some bumming.. but thats about it..

i swear.. hk is horrible for me.. it brings out the worst shopping habits in me ever!! in a small span of less than 2 weeks.. i've managed to buy 3 roxy shirts, a roxy cell phone strap, a roxy bag and like 8 pairs of earrings... i spent like $500 CAD on stuf fin less than 2 weeks.. arrrrgggggghhhh.. hbow am i possibly gonna survive the whole summer??? how how how i ask???

on the brighter side..i went for a few job interviews..now i'm just deciding where to go.. then start work in july.. and yeha i'll have $$$ again!!!

saw 2 movies since i've been back.. X3 and da vinci code.. X3 was pretty good.. da vinci code.. so-so.. book was bettter..i definetly hafta say that...


from now till july.. basically just chilling.. occasionally tutoring.. hanging out with ppl.. black eyed peas concert..hopefully i can get the tix...

july.. edmund and at17 concert... and also netvigator concert.. i think with aaron kwok and twins..

work and work some more.. some junk boat trips.. some shopping.. some hanging out.. and soon.. i'll be home!!! yeah.....!!!!

i do miss T.O... and i miss ppl too.. everybody!!!! :(

me being the crzy weird take pics of everybody and everything kinda person.. i'm gonna leave you with some pics..

finally in hongkong...

1st time ever..plane arrives like 45mins early..despite a really bumpy ride... met a really cool med student on the plane... :P kinda hot too.. haha.. he was russian.. mmmm...drools..kinda reminds me of alex on grey's!! yeah jo! greys!!!

got home... had food with my sister..chilled for a lil while at home.. just relaxing and what not.. then went out to watch XMEN with my brother and my cousins..pretty good movie!!!

next up.. DA VINCI CODE..so want to see that sooo badly...

not much happening for now..lining up some interviews for work... going to a few family dinners... grandpa's birthday..cousin's birthday..another cousin's engagement party..

prolly gonnna go do a tad bit of shopping..my cousin has a VIP card to QUIKSILVER!!!!! how sweet is that?? 20% off... only like my FAVOURITE store in hk.. well yeah..cuz it sells ROXY baby!!!

got a cell for hk.... its posted up in my name on msn... u can give me a call..text me.. or email me.. i'll prolly be a tad bit bored for a while..

ta ta

sindy

so i've been home for about 2 1/2 weeks.. leaving in a bout 8 days..
being home can be so fun.. yet can be very tiring and annoying sometimes.. i find at least

being home.. and getting to visit with friends can be so entertaining.. especially if u haven't seen them in a while and you're all catching up :)


done lots of fun stuff with all the friends since i've been back.
gone shopping DT @ eatons, gone clubbing, hung out at ppl's houses, celebrating 21'st birthdays @ chuck E cheese... (yes i have weird friends. i kno), bowling, movie, pastry run DT, more shopping, and piggin out.. i luv it all

but on the other hand.. being home means having to deal with parents.. nag this and nag that.. be home by this hour or this n that. dun get me wrong.. i luv my parents n all but its hard having to share a roof with them after u've been away for so long..

come september.. im prolly gonna go insane.. moving home after 3 years away from home..awww geez. i wanna start crying already. .
:(

leaving in 9 days.. still yet have so much to do.. more shopping.. more hanging out.. packing.. school stuff...

i may sound like a nerd when i say this.. but I"m SO EXcITED.. to go shopping for all my skewl stuff..

i get to buy knives, and a new food processor and new stand mixer... and all my book.. and my uniforms.. hehe.. my lil chef hat...


haha.. yes i've actually started to turn into a nerd.. hard to believe but true.. :) :)

1692 days ago..

a tragedy struck the world. a tragedy that to this day still affects living beings in this world
what tragedy you ask ? that would be sept 11, 2001. i'm pretty sure i need not remind anybody what happened on that day..

1692 days later.. i found myself sitting in a movie theatre with a friend of mine watching the highly controversial "united 93"

the movie was nauseating.. physically, mentionally and somewhat spiritually..

first: the cinematography of the movie was very dizzy.. thats the only way i can think of putting it.. tho.. i do hafto say it totally made sense with the movie

secondly: the event itself. to this day i can't totally understand the full context of the incident.. what triggered it? is there really a conspiracy into this incident?? can we really just use this tragedy to justify all the other issues it brings up?

thirdly: the visuals.. the utter truth of the story and how it happened.. made me really be thankful for how lucky i am.. lucky that i've never been subjected to this type of extremity, how fortunate i am to not lost anybody in the tragedy.. just fortunate in general

fourthly: the people on that plane.. i found myself realizing.. if i was on that plane.. i prolly wouldn't have done anything. i don't think i could have gotten the courage to fight back like they did.. and i guess that thought of myself as somewhat of a coward scares me.. people say that in special events like that, people do extraordinary things.. adrenaline rush.. whatever u wish to think of it as.. those people definetly rose to the occasion and did their utter best.. in the end.. they lost their lives.. but they did it for a greater cause. they saved other ppl's lives.. and they showed us that if we fight back against those who do us wrong, we can win. if we just try.

i remember being at school that day, and at first, everybody thought it was some sort of a joke.. some ppl even were saying that the French bombed the States.. i don't really know why.. but it wasn't really till after noon that the seriousness of the incident finally kicked in.. and having gone to a private skewl, where kids' parents work all over the world, including NYC and Washinton, i distinctly remember kids lining up at the pay phone and using their cell phones to call family and friends.

and in the weeks and months that followed. i noticed that people started being with family and attending religious ceremonies more, all because they were afraid.. of losing family.. dying.. amongst many things.

but now, 1692 days later, where have all those people gone? i no longer see the majority of them at any religous ceremonies, i no longer hear of the urge and need to be with your family. in fact 5 years later, i've heard less.

on a different issue.. i think the tragedy has only made some ppl worse in nature. more discrimination, very prejudice.

not to say that these people weren't that way beforehand, but its become so more common and more every-day occurences..

many times that i have travelled across the border, or left the country, i have witnessed such incidents. many times while travelling on a bus, on a plane, just walking around, i have witnessed such incidents.

y must we as the human race think badly of others? are we not all the same? we all came from the same place, born of mothers and fathers, siblings to brothers and sisters?? whats makes us feel that we're better than others? whats makes them less worthy than we?

y must we assume because one was wrong, and commiteed a bad deed, that all are wrong and will/have committed bad deeds?

if your father was a thief, does that mean you are?
if your mother was a prostitute, does that mean you are?

of course not, we make all our own decisions, and we are all unique. we all do things different.

so y is that we think that if it was a group of middle-eastern people who hijacked planes and crashed into the World Trade Centre, that all will.

what gives us the right to search them and question them at the airports, and not others?
are we not just as likely to commit crimes?

the last time i checked, there was not engraving of the word terrorist on their foreheads.. never has and most never will. you can never judge somebody by how they look.

in the end... all i have to say is this.. watching the movie .. for me was a good experience.. it brought back many issues that i have long forgotten about.. things that should be an issue for me, and for everybody else..

i, myself, am guilty of discrimination.
using racial slang, racial discrimination, racial profiling..

its something that i didn't think i did.. but i realize i do.. and i'm ashamed of myself for doing so..
but the most important thing is.. learn from our mistakes.. and change for the better..

if anything we must learn from all of this..

i don't even really know if any of this is making sense to myself, let alone anybody else..
i guess i just needed to get it off my chest

so plz. if the next time you see me or talk to me, and you hear me say something that i should not, do remind me..

sindy out

Note to self:

Stop buying stuff!!! YOU HAVE TOO MUCH CRAP ALREADY!!!


so i'm sitting here in my room. attempting to figure out how exactly i'm gonna pack everything to go home.. 'rents are coming in on the sunday to help me move everything home..

and the last two days.. i've started to pack a lil and i'm not even close to finishing.. and i realize.. i have way too much stuff.

case in point:









i already have numerous boxes filled w/stuff.. but i still have a whole bookcase of cd's and books and binders yet to pack








my comp, my printer, my monitor, my humidifier, keyboard yet not packed.. and all the crap on my desk







the stuff i have packed already.. 2 boxes.. 3 small suitcases and one big suitcase.not even close




2 drawers still with crap inside.. plus shoes..












and did i mention that i still have crap in the kitchen tOO?? all my kitchen supplies have yet to be touched.. man i sux!

i have too much crap.. and i only have 6 days to pack it all.. and i'm working monday-thursday too :( boo..

so we all know what sindy's gonna be doing this week..

being a loser at home.. and packing

so its been a while since i last blogged.. and not much has happened.. crazy easter season is officially over.. pretty hectic.. but surprisingly not as hectic as it was at valentines..

this will be my last week at LS for now.. don't kno if i'll be back in windsor in september so i may or may not be there..

and then i'm going back to T.O and then there for 3 weeks or so.. then hong kong..

but before i leave for hk... got lots planned to do..

this week: work basically monday - thursday, have a inventory shift on saturday nite.. then going with the LS crew.. prolly to 29th park..

going home 1st week of may..

going to see rent with the high skewl crew.. sweets expo with colts.. pastry run DT with the girls.. shopping.. movies.. hanging out..

gotta come back to windsor . prolly last weekend b4 i leave.. pre-celebrate the mouse's july birthday.. prolly shopping in michigan and a few nites out in D-town maybe??

doing all of that.. on top of deciding my plans for september..

ppl keep on asking.. here's all i hafta say about that. if u still don't get the answer.. then ur really not too bright.. haha

i think i have a pretty good idea where i'm going.. just gotta figure out living accomadations mainly..

living DT is too expensive.. but i really don't wanna live at home... when u'ved moved out for 3 years.. u really don't wanna move back..i luv home and all.. but permanently would be just too much.. i enjoy my freedom too much..
so if i can somehow convince the 'rents to fork out the $ for living DT, i should be good.. plus i'll have easier chance of finding job DT since so many bakeries & restaurants uptown and DT..

i'll have made my definite choice by may 15th.. deadline.. so if u really wanna know definete answer.. ask after the 15th..

leaving for hk on the 24th..

up till june...prolly just chill at home, confirm job or jobs, maybe go back to dai leung with my grams to visit my cousins and my lil cousin first removed..hung hung.. haha.. didn't have the time to visit them last summer.. so might do it before my jobs start..

june , july, and august.. working.. macau weekend trip.. maybe either taiwan/japan weekend trip with sibs? still in works.. shopping.. eat out.. sing k.. hang out with fams, hk friends, windsor fobs in hk.... gonna be one really packed summer..

come back on sept 1.. and that will be the end of my sumer... lots to do till then.. so yup

so wednesday..

was prolly my most clumsiest day of earth..

i knocked over a whole back wall of boxes.. filled with chocolates.. including hundreds of hollow chocolates.. not a good thign.. when all your store sells is chocolates.. and its easter season..

and one of those many boxes fell onto the other wall, which has like 3 shelves.. all filled with paper work.. not kewl.. all the binders fell. paper fell, microwave fell... shelf fell and broke.. not kewl not kewl..

then i go to offer samples.. trip and drop the whole plate of chocolate...

and lastly i drop a whole 5lb box of chocolate toppers...

man i'm surprised my manager hasn't fired me yet.. thats like over 1000's of $$$$ of goods i've broken.. so bad


at least on the bright side.. my co-workers got a whole lot of laugh outta it.. it was a pretty dead day.. and it would have been quite boring otherwise..

i'm the biggest KLUTZ ever!!!

and so...

It's Been Decided!


a load off my back.. WOOO!

y do i care so much?
y does it matter so much what they think?
y can't i just grow past this?
y can't i just drop everything and go?

am i being overly sensitive?
is it just me?
why does it bother me so much more than others?

would leaving make it worse or better?

i just need to get past this all.. i need to.. i have to.