so.. had grad nite tonite.. and i realized.. i valued more things out of friday nite fellowship than i realized...
for 1.. my friends.. wow.. i never realized what they really had to say about me.. really kewl...
and you all know.. i dun cry very often.. not for a song at least.. but this song... was hardcore.. i took it off rachel's site tho.. www.rrrachel.blogspot.com

mark shultz & rachel lampa-- think of me
Packing my bag this morning,
Was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy,
Compared to standing outside your door,
right now to say goodbye to you.

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground,

I know that it feels like leaving,
Is a part of letting go.
But I'm praying with hope and believing,
That I'll see you once again down this road,
I hope that it won't be long.

Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground


and tho i'm not religious.. not in the way most of the ppl i know are.. this song was very touching.. very much so..

and tho after grad nite.. i was quite disappointed.. i made a pact to myself...

I'm giving myself 3 weeks time.. and in those 3 weeks.. i must forget.. or at least.. try to forget as much as i can.. cuz if i dunt... i'm gonna spend every waking moment thinking about it.. and i can't... i can't.. do that....

so.. jo.. ur gonna have to help me out here.. and sammi too... plz..

i'm leaving on sunday.. so i won't be seeing anybody.. for a good 3 weeks.. and yeah.. i'm hoping life will be fun.. and exciting.. and full of surprises.. otherwise.. how boring will it be..


last note: I rox at mini golf!!!!!! 53 was par.. i was like 48... something like that.. i redid the math jo.. hehe.. i mad rox!!!! woohoo.. if u dun believe.. ask jo.. she's my witness.. or ask chris n'dez.. they were there too..

last message to y'all until i move in.. it'll be a few days.. so


enjoy your last few days of summer or
enjoy your last few days of having nagging parents around...

lates

so i guess its goodbye.... school is officially going to start on monday.. and i'm moving in on saturday.. and all my friends are moving in to their respective skewls on sat or sunday.. and i guess its kinda scary.. i mean..
i've never been one to wanna make new friends.. unless i need to...
i've never been one to like change....
i've never been one to like not being with friends...

and all this is going to have to change now...
i have to make new friends
i have to adapt to new change
i have to learn to be without friends...

i dunno what i'm going to do... but this much i know..

it'll be a hard and enduring time... but eventually i will survive.. and get thru this.. but before i embark on this journey.. i just have to get some things out of my system...

i wanna say thank you... goodbye wouldn't be the rite word.. b/c i wanna remain friends with all these people... its just a temporary goodbye.. but also a sincere and utmost Thank You!

1) for all the happy moments
2) for all the sad moments
3) just for being my friend
4) stickin there with me throught everything
5) helpin me to get over the troublesome and trying moments in my life
6) supportin me thru every stupid decision i've ever made..

my school friends:

you guys have stuck with me and tolerated me for 4 years... and god only knows how annoying and bitchy i can get... but you guys never gave up on me.. stickin with me till the very end... we've had our moments.. whether it be... "band" camp... nyc... france trip.. arrowhon.. or whether it was just cruisin around at lunch.. these moments will forever remain in my mind.. and i will never forget them. thank you for sharing these moments with me.

d- once i got past of being scared of you at arrowhon... you have been my good friend.. you have been there for me all these years... and you were there when i needed you.. to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on..... you were there.. to drive me to lunch.. you were there... to let me express my anger.. you were there to provide some comical relief during calc class.... you are one of the best friends that i have.. and its sad that we will no longer be together like the way we were at cds.. but i know that we will remain friends for years to come.. i wanna thank you for being my friend for the last 4 years...

sarah- princess... we've had our memories.. whether it be crusin in the hummer.. or my spare.. ur art class.. you were there when i needed to talk.. you were there... for me.. always.. and i wanna say thank you.. though the distance between us may be far.. i hope that we will remain friends... thank you for the last 4 years

elise: my music buddie.. i'm glad that there is someone that i can share this interest with... we've had our fun moments.. "band" camp X 2...... band.. when ever i showed up.. choir.. and last but not least.. SOM... we had our fun making fun of piano lady.. didn't we??? though ur in western.. and i in windsor.. i hope that we will continue to share this bond..for many years to come..... thank you...

sterney: blondie.. thru the many years of butt smacking... and poking... and blond jokes.. you have stayed with me for so long.. and i wanna thank you.. for providing me with basketball memories.. spare memories.. society memories.... and i hope that we will continue to be friends.. b/c i would hate to lose someone to say blond jokes to... and you know.. that you will always remain my friend... madelinus sternus...

krystel: my newmarket buddie.. thru the painful pokes in society... and the endless celebrity life dreams in spanish.. we've had our many memories.. as you embark on your journey in life.. always remember... that i am always your friend.. and i hope you will remain mine as well.. thank you for the last 4 years...

cap: hey smartey pants... thank you for being there.. thank you for sharing nyc and band camp memories.. i wish that the distance b/w us wasn't so far.. but i hope we will remain friends till forever..... i wish you the best of luck in washington....

caitlin: gurl...we've shared some good moments.. whether it be, being lost in paris.. band camp.. or just sitting on a dock talking... we've shared many things.. and its sad to see us not together anymore.. i hope that we will continue to stay in touch.. i wish you the best of luck.. as you continue ur life at cds.. you'll need it.. lots of luv

to my music bois.. frankie.. james.. shay.. leppo.. will...

thanks for all the memories that you have shared with me... nyc.. band camp.. som.. whether it was skipping band or making fun of ms. piano lady... we've had loads of fun.. thank you for stickin with me all these years... you have all seen me at my most cranking and bitchy moments.. friday morning band.. and still you have all continued to be there for me.. thank you.... thank you for "bobo"... its something i will carry with me for the rest of my life.. at first.. i hated that name.. but eventually i realized.. it was something special b/w all of us... and i will never forget it.. ever.. i promise... and i hope you won't too... let's keep the bond alive

to all the others.. tommy seymour.. chris.. ang.. alana.. hubbert.. shortie #1.. olivia.. vaness.. liz..

thank you to you all.. for being there with me thru everything... tho we will no longer be together.. i want you all to know.. that you will forever remain in my heart.. i will be always thinking of you.. and the moments that we have shared will always be cherished..


to my other friends:

sammi: we've known each other for a long time.. since markville?? i think.. and... you've been there whenever i needed someone to talk to.. even if it was about something stupid.. and you've been one of the most supporting and reliable people i know.. we've gone thru many things together.. you've helped me get over a lot of things.. and i truly want to thank you for all the help, advice, and love you have given me.. thank you so much.. and as we go forth into different paths.. i hope that our paths will once again cross... and i hope that we will remain forever friends.. best of luck in western... lots of luv

jo: my "sis".. so many ppl think of us as sisters.. b-ball camp.. just random ppl.. and in a way.. i feel that it is somewhat true.. i've known you for as long as i can remember... like a good 10 years... long long time.. and from the very begginning.. you were a great friend.. we've been thru a lot together.. some happy.. and some not so happy.. but even so.. you stuck with me till the very end.. and thank you for that.. i hope that we will remain friends.. best of luck in western...

jess: my paul frank buddie.. thanx for being such a great friends these years.. we've shared many good memories.. karoake in hong kong.. westlife fever.. thanks for the many memories.. best of luck in mcmast

cy: you've been a great friend.. and tho we might not always agree on all the same things.. we've still managed to have lots of good memories.. thanx for that... good luck in your last year of highschool

peter: tho, we've only known for 2 years... we've shared many great memories.. as we go our separate ways.. i hope we will remain friends.. good luck in tyndale

jer: once again.. we've only known for a short span of 2 years.. you've provided me with a lot of comical relief.. thanx for that.. we've had lots of memories in the last while... i will remember them.. dun fret.. when you're lonely in halifax..remember.. that i'm always here.... to call.. and bother.. whatever you like... good luck at dal...

edga: tho in the last lil while.. we haven't talked as much as we use to... i still wanna thank you for all the many memories that we shared.. whether talking about girls or just life in itself.. thank you for being my friend...

miu miu: thanx for being a great friend for the last 10 years.. i think... we shared many good memories.. pioneer club.. pokey boi.. thanx for being my friend...

to all the others: rachel, joyce, jon,

thanks for being my friend.. these years.. we've shared many good memories.. i will never forget.. good luck in high school