so i was studying.. and got a lil tired.. and i decided to redo my lay out again.. and what was suppose to be 30 minutes at the tops.. ended up being 3 hours.. i was trying this and trying that.. and now its 6:10am .. and i havne't gone to bed quite yet.. I have class at 10:30.. and a midterm at 7pm too.. and I"M sitting here contemplating.. should i go to bed or just stay up till after class and then go to bed??

i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..

so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..

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---------------------------------Is it Too Late???--------------------------------------Its been a few days.. and its getting closer and closer to the end of the semester.. and i realized.. i haven't really been applying myself to university quite yet.. yeah thats rite.. 3/4 of the way in .. and i still ahve really applied myself.. I'm doing pretty good in my courses.. except for psyc..

Psyc.. my avg rite now is like a 60.. and it could be much better.. it could be.. if i studied.. read the chapters.. and oh.. most importantly.. showed up for class.. i've been to what?? 3 out of 6 classes... part of the problem being its monday nite 7-10.. long long day for me.. and then nite classes.. other part being.. me just being lazy.. not forcing myself to go to class..

i swear.. i could do so much better.. but i just.. can't find myself sitting down to do the work, studying... reading...

i tell myself, ok.. tonite.. i'm going to study.. chapter blah blah blah.. and read chapter blah blah blah.. and instead.. i find myself sitting at my desk.. chatting on msn or playing stupid games on yahoo.. for hours and hours... its like i'm addicted or something

and its just psyc thats mainly the problem.. i can force myself to study for theory, or basic skills, or music therapy.. but psyc.. i look at the book.. and i get bored already.. i guess it mite b/c i have no interest in psyc? and i do in the other subjects? for eg.

theory.. i'm actually doing better in than before.. i've had 2 midterms and 2 assignments.. i did alrite on my 1st midterm.. 74%..and 77% on my assignment.. and i just had an assignment and midterm this week.. and i studied for it.. and i think i did better.

basic skills.. i was on a roll.. A+.. till this week.. i've had 6 tests.. and all of them 85% and higher till the one i had on wednesday.. i kinda forgot to study and plus i missed 2 classes before that test.. cuz i was sick.. and i got 67%.. i mean.. its still semi-ok.. but could be so much better.. i have a test on monday.. mad studying for it.. i realy wanna have a A avg.. in this course

therapy.. i really enjoy this course.. so i guess thats probably why i'm doing pretty good.. considering its a "memorY'" course.. like have to remember names and dates.. and criterias.. and characteristics and stuff.. normally.. i dun do so good in this type of course.. but i've been doing alrite.. ive had 2 tests and an assignment.. 78% on the test, 99% on the assignment.. now the 2nd test.. i didn't really study for.. so i didn't do so good. but still..for not studying it was pretty good.. i have a test this thursday.. started studying already.. so should be good

wind ensemble... can't really say what mark i have in this course.. cuz i dunno.. but i mean.. if i pratice and show up for rehearsals. can't be that bad.. and i ahve been praticing.. and only actually missed one rehearsal.. b/c of the stupid stones.. so im ok for that too

private lesson.. i'm kinda a lil worried about this.. i have to perform for a jury.. in dec.. 12th to be exact.. 3:45pm... and i have to play 2 movements of the Saint-saens Sonata for Oboe and Piano.. My teacher and I haven't really gone thru much of it.. if any.. and I ahve less than a month to prepare it to top notch.. and i only see her once a week for 1 hr... and thats it.. i've been praticing.. but its hard to get something to top notch in one month.. it really is.. and considering jury is worth 50% of my final mark.. the other 50% being how i do in our lessons.. and i've been gettint 27, 28, or 29 out of 30 for that.. so its good.. but if i screw up on my jury.. i swear I'm f*cked..

so i guess.. i could be working so much harder.. and its kinda never too late? or maybe? i dunno.. i actually forced myself to go study in the library.. i was planning on going for 2 hrs at least.. ended up being 1 hr only .. cuz library closes at 10pm.. and i went at 830... i gotta start forcing myself more.. i got half a chapter done.. in just 1 hour.. which is pretty good

i realized.. that the computer and msn.. and real player.. and tv episodes.. had this uncontrollable power over me.. and what i do.. and my time.. and u know wut.. i really need to cut back.. so i've decided... i'm only actually going to go online and "talk" after what my goals for the day have been accomplished.. or at least to the best of my ability.. so i'll only blog 3 times a week?? maybe less.. depending.. definetly only once or even not at all during exams.. i'm staying home sundays.. for sure.. to study.. and saturday afternoons.. to study.. no shopping or anythign.. unless i have a "really" breezy week..

so yeah.. you'll be hearing less of me.. and reading less of me.. from this day forward.. which is a good thing for me.. cuz this comp stuff.. really killing me.. cuz i'm also staying up till like 3am.. to chat with ppl and stuff..

definetly..

DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP!!!

5 hours.. its a ok amount.. but i'm dying from it.. i'm the kinda person.. who needs a good 6-7 hours a nite.. or 5 during the night.. and 1-2 hr nap during the day... so also.. if u see me online at like 3am.. message me!!!! and YELL at me!!! as meanly as you can.. cuz i need rest..and sleep

Thanx..

Bobo.. Out