today is friday.. the 9th of january.. of the year 2004..
at aproximately 8pm tonite, i, for the very first time, made tong yuen!!! from scratch.. like taking glutinous powder.. making it into the shell of the glutinous balls and then filling it with lotus paste. i'm so proud of myself!!!! my one big thing for the nite!! wowo!!! i can't believe it!! so proud!!! wohooo!!!!!!

ugh... i hate this... i always get sick.. and when i do.. its always a bad flu or bad cold...ugh.. and i've missed class b/c of it.. rite now.. my head is pounding.. can't stop sneezing.. feeling the shiveries.. ugh.. i hate this..


:(


i dun have any more classes now... i missed basic skills, theory, private lesson, as well as reed class... so not kewl....

i'm just gonna end up chilling for the rest of the day in my bed... in my room.. trying to rest.. get better... so i can go to class tommorow... ugh.. i hate winter....

aside from being able to ski and snowboard... and having snowball fights.. i hate winter... i wish winter had snow.. but was never cold or windy.. ugh.... not fair..

aah.. i swear!!!!! i hate fire alarms!!! so not kewl!!!! one went off in my building at 4AM!!!!!! freakin 4 am!!!! so not kewl..

my whole building was standing outside in the freazin cold for like a good 30 minutes... not fair.. i was only wearing my pajamas and a jacket too.. soo cold!!!!!

:(


b/c of it.. i missed my appointment that was at 9am..and my psyc class that was at 10am... wanna kno why??

cuz the stupid fire alarm went off.. and i couldn't go back to back till like 530.. and only slept for like 2 hours.... so tired.. couldn't get up at 8.. which i had to get up by.. so ended up...being.. sleeping thru my appointment.. as well as my class!!!! soooo not kewl!!!!

oh... notice the kewl new jay chou layout?? its nice.. i thought so at least..it fits doesn't it?? me and my big obsession with jay chou?? haha.. yeah me!!!

hey hey!!! its been a while since i've blogged... and christmas has been interesting.. and very long... parts of it sad.. parts happy.. parts confusing.. parts very mad.. aah.. too many emotions experienced.. in a short span of 3 weeks.. but yeah

skewl is back on... first day today...have some pretty fun classes this semester

Monday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Psyc Lab 2:30-3:20

Tuesday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30
Community Orchestra 7:00-9:30

Wednesday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20
Oboe Lesson 12:30-1:30
Reed Class 1:30-2:30

Thursday
Intro to Psyc as Social Science 10:00-10:50
Skills for Music Therapy 2:30-3:50
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30

Friday
Basic Skills 10:30-11:20
Theory 11:30-12:20

so the only really long day i have is Tuesday.. which isn't so bad.. but yeah..

so New Years!!!

my resolution:

is to do better in skewl.. and not to give up in anything too quickly.. try my hardest...
is to be patient.. and have faith..wait for things to occur naturally.. instead of forcing them to happen when i want them to

haha.. thats a lot of hard things.. i kno.. but i'm gonna try.. so if u ever hear me saying i give up.. please encourage me.. i need all the help i can get..

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Sigh!!! aaah.. its so nice to finally be done exams and have no worries.. 4 exams.. all done!! i think i did pretty good on most of them.. well except for psyc.. which i BOMBED!!!!.. i still pass the course.. i think.. but im not really too sure... hopefully they'll bell curve it up!!but yeah... i'm officially done exams !!! woohoo!!!

well actually.. not quite.. i still have jury to do tommorow.... its 3:45pm.. and i'm worried shitless for it.. and i dun think i even should.. considering.. i've been praticing my ass for it... but i kno me.. and i'll definetly screw up tommorow!!!

but yeah..

15 days.... till:

1) home cooked meal
2) my own bed
3) my own room
4) christmas tree w/lots of decorations..
5) snow!! and lots of snow!!
6) all my cds'ers
7) all my mcbc'ers
8) sushi!!!!!!
9) restaurant food.. not cheap ass vanier food!!
10) My MOMMI!!!.. and im proud to say so...
11) getting to see someone special... !!!!!

exams start on friday.. and i havne't even reallly started to study for that exam yet..
here's my schedule:

wednesday dec 3 - scales test
- basic skills individual exam
friday dec 5 - psyc 4pm
sunday dec 7 - woodwind studio class
- reed class
tuesday dec 9 - music theory exam 330pm
wednesday dec 10 - basic skills final exam 430pm
thursday dec 11 - music therapy exam 4pm
friday dec 12 - oboe jury 345pm
saturday dec 13 - train home 955am

long two weeks!! aah!!!!


ppl to get christmas gifts for:

MCBC
sam
jo
tiff
jess lam
jess ip
cyrus
godfey
jer
cathy
lil rachel

cards for:
amanda
lydia
jon
guy
rachel
joyce
eleana
peter 10 shiny 1996 pennies


CDS
des
chris
frankie

cards for:
leppo
shay
elise
ariana
sarah
james
andrew

family
mommie
daddi
ivan
miranda
6e
elaine

wcbc
wynne
fred
wai lit
manry

cards:
valerie
victor
max
raymond & alice


yeah.. so i'm totally gonna blow all my $$ away b/c of christmas presents and cards!! aah!!! someone wanna donate money to me?? haha.. wait.. i have to donate money to peter and jer first!! hmm.. how's that gonna work????

anyhwo.. gotta go back to lots of work and studying

so i went over to london for the weekend.. and i gotta say.. u lucky asses!!! ugh.. have some much better than here in ghetto windsor.. so not fair!!!
for example:

1) jo's dorm room.. like twice my room size.. and she has double too!! and oh closet space... ugh!!!! ok how is this fair?? jo.. has like half the clothes i ahve..and she has more closet space than me!!! OOH!!! i luv ya jo..

2) dorm food... how come there's is better than ours?? how come? not fair.. i want decent dorm food

3) East Town PIZZA!!! they have a really good pizza place rite outside campus gates.. massive slice for $3!!!! and what do we have?? not even a good pizza place.. ugh

4) RICHMOND street. their dt is so much better.. lots of lil boutiques.. such as elizabeth noel, green earth.. archies..

5) Cafe Demetres.. we dun have one!! they do.. i wanna have desserts.. waaaa waaah!


now that i'm done complaining.. heres what i gotta say about my weekend..


Friday:

- train to london.. was so tired.. slept the whole 2 hours..
-took a taxi to syndeham hall...
-saw jo's room.. met her roomate.. honestly when she said her roomie was psycho. i didn't believe. but she is.. haha i mean that in a nice way.. hehe :)
-hung out for a hour or so..
-frankie came to pick me up
-went to essex hall.. saw jenna on the way there
-shay came over
-frankie made dinner!!!!!!! OOOOOh!!!! i didn't kno frankie even knew how to cook.. altho he did have a lil sauce problem.. hehe...
-shay left.. hung out.. watch cartoons with frankie
-went to cafe demetres.. jo was there w/friends.. frankie came too
-took taxi back to dorm

Saturday:

early morning
-played monopoly with natalie, jo, jo's roomate..
-mad fun.. u dun understand.. so much fun!!!!
4am.. went to bed

later that morning.. 11ish
-woke up..
-had breakfast at syndehnam caf
-went out to shop with jo and natalie.. around 1
-we walked all the way from main gates western to like almost VIA rail.. richmond.. thats pretty far!!!
-we went shopping along the way tho.. lots of kewl lil boutiques
-such as elizabeth noel, boxwoods, archies,
-had lunch at quiznos.. i missed the yummi subs.. :'(
-took a bus to white oaks.. shopped some more
-left at like 7:45..
-went to perfect image.. got my right ear cartilage pierced!!! woohoo..
-jo did too
-took taxi back to Easttown Pizza. bought amazing pizza!! yummi
-went back. .played monopoly some more..
- and then trivia pursuit.. with a bunch of ppl from jo's floor.. till like 2ish..

sunday
-woke up around 12..
-got ready to leave
-walked to Easttown to get another pizza for trip back
-took taxi to via rail..
-sat there waited for train
-got on train.. slept and slept.. till train arrived back in windsor...

all in all.. western weekend was fun!! thanx jo.. and all her floormates..
thanx shay and frankie.. for entertaining me on friday. lots of fun

so my list of things i bought over 8 hours and $350 later..

1) new boots.. from aldo..

2) new modrobes.. light blue.. mad cheap $18

3) these kewl lights.. for miranda's christmas present

4) b-day present for lauralei.. soap and bath salts..smell realli pwetty

5) christmas present for roomate.. soap and bath confetti..

6) new scarf.. roxy.. but not b/c it was roxy. but b/c it matched with my jacket.. realli.. nothign to do with roxy.. honestly..

7)got my cartilage pierced

8) bought lots of food..ate way too much


my next missions:

1) get most of my christmas shopping done b4 i got home.. which is the 13th.. i think..but then i dunno.. i kinda do have exams in 3 weeks.. hmm??

2) get my belly pierced.. no nerves there.. its just fat.. so mom will let me

3) tattoo... still thinking about that.. its kinda gonna be there forever so i dunno.. and if i do.. $130 .. thats a lot

4) start studying for my exams.. aah!!!!!

5) make plans for new years.. christmas is out..cuz up in ottawa with 'rents and miranda and ivan..

6) start thinkin about summer.. its a lil early.. but skewls over in less than 5 months.. aah!!


one big thing


Happy Birthday Lauralei.. 18th!!!



2 smaller things:

sammi n godfrey: thanx for the monkey and book.. did u kno the monkey's called bobo? coincidence or did u actually kno?

jo: thanx for the piercing..

last note:
i had a very good b-day weekend.. thanx everybody!!!

i'm out

so.. i'm 18 now.. for 19 hours and 5 minutes.. and i kinda feel a lil bit older.. now too much.. just a lil bit.. but wanna just give props to more ppl

aimee
becky
natalie
nicole
tracy my "roomate"
Sully.. from next door
Mommy
ivan
jenna
frankie
cap
sarah salomon
edgar
joycey woycey

long distance props

robbie.. all the way from england
macy..my cuz.. all the way from scotland
vera.. from hk
joey..my cuz.. from hk
kevin.. from australia..
camill.. from bc


mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda
tiff

for mailing me a card!! thanx!!

mad props to

d
chris

special phone call.. wow i'm special!


MAD MAD PROPS

to Samantha Tam


w12.11.03


to sindy:
happy birthday!

have a delightful cakeful, ice creamful and chocolateful birthday! purple is a wonderful colour because it looks like taro...bbt?

posted by echephron at 12.11.03


check it out..



and last but not least


Happy 18th Birthday to Kyle..

my Birthday Buddy!


its just too bad i'm older than you.. 4 hours. 9 minutes.. I can boss you around!! wooho!!!

Happy 18th Birthday To Me

so ive officially be 18 for aproximately 1.5 hours.. and i gotta say.. feels absolutely no differnce.. thanx to those who wished me a hppy b-day

in no order
cy
jo
sam
jer
clement
jess ip
lydia
amanda
wai lit
manry
wynne
fred
sarah savage
aimee
lauralei
trevor tuba boi
lisa my "ra"
graeme
sarah salomon
my sis..
joey. my cuz

mad props to
lydia
jess ip
amanda

for mailing me a card!! thanx!!

so yeah.. i'm 18.. i can officially buy lottery tickets.. no more botherin jer.. and godfrey for them.. hehe :)
i can vote.. ooh.. federal election.. occuring soon.. wooho!! i can make a difference.. and oh.. i can buy porn.. great.. just #1 thing i wanna do..


can't wait till next year.. i can buy booze.. and cigs. not that i drink or smoke.. but just to be able to say i can!!!
sweet!!!

i finally realized today.. how much i am actually worth to my friends.. and u know what is?? i was a lil surprised..


NOTHING!!!!!!!!

absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing


i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..


and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!

i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them

and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..

and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..

i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...

it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..

makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??

appaarently, for me...

a lot.

so i was studying.. and got a lil tired.. and i decided to redo my lay out again.. and what was suppose to be 30 minutes at the tops.. ended up being 3 hours.. i was trying this and trying that.. and now its 6:10am .. and i havne't gone to bed quite yet.. I have class at 10:30.. and a midterm at 7pm too.. and I"M sitting here contemplating.. should i go to bed or just stay up till after class and then go to bed??

i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..

so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..

outz

Trip to the Zoo


CDS'ers


MCBC People


My Family

---------------------------------Is it Too Late???--------------------------------------Its been a few days.. and its getting closer and closer to the end of the semester.. and i realized.. i haven't really been applying myself to university quite yet.. yeah thats rite.. 3/4 of the way in .. and i still ahve really applied myself.. I'm doing pretty good in my courses.. except for psyc..

Psyc.. my avg rite now is like a 60.. and it could be much better.. it could be.. if i studied.. read the chapters.. and oh.. most importantly.. showed up for class.. i've been to what?? 3 out of 6 classes... part of the problem being its monday nite 7-10.. long long day for me.. and then nite classes.. other part being.. me just being lazy.. not forcing myself to go to class..

i swear.. i could do so much better.. but i just.. can't find myself sitting down to do the work, studying... reading...

i tell myself, ok.. tonite.. i'm going to study.. chapter blah blah blah.. and read chapter blah blah blah.. and instead.. i find myself sitting at my desk.. chatting on msn or playing stupid games on yahoo.. for hours and hours... its like i'm addicted or something

and its just psyc thats mainly the problem.. i can force myself to study for theory, or basic skills, or music therapy.. but psyc.. i look at the book.. and i get bored already.. i guess it mite b/c i have no interest in psyc? and i do in the other subjects? for eg.

theory.. i'm actually doing better in than before.. i've had 2 midterms and 2 assignments.. i did alrite on my 1st midterm.. 74%..and 77% on my assignment.. and i just had an assignment and midterm this week.. and i studied for it.. and i think i did better.

basic skills.. i was on a roll.. A+.. till this week.. i've had 6 tests.. and all of them 85% and higher till the one i had on wednesday.. i kinda forgot to study and plus i missed 2 classes before that test.. cuz i was sick.. and i got 67%.. i mean.. its still semi-ok.. but could be so much better.. i have a test on monday.. mad studying for it.. i realy wanna have a A avg.. in this course

therapy.. i really enjoy this course.. so i guess thats probably why i'm doing pretty good.. considering its a "memorY'" course.. like have to remember names and dates.. and criterias.. and characteristics and stuff.. normally.. i dun do so good in this type of course.. but i've been doing alrite.. ive had 2 tests and an assignment.. 78% on the test, 99% on the assignment.. now the 2nd test.. i didn't really study for.. so i didn't do so good. but still..for not studying it was pretty good.. i have a test this thursday.. started studying already.. so should be good

wind ensemble... can't really say what mark i have in this course.. cuz i dunno.. but i mean.. if i pratice and show up for rehearsals. can't be that bad.. and i ahve been praticing.. and only actually missed one rehearsal.. b/c of the stupid stones.. so im ok for that too

private lesson.. i'm kinda a lil worried about this.. i have to perform for a jury.. in dec.. 12th to be exact.. 3:45pm... and i have to play 2 movements of the Saint-saens Sonata for Oboe and Piano.. My teacher and I haven't really gone thru much of it.. if any.. and I ahve less than a month to prepare it to top notch.. and i only see her once a week for 1 hr... and thats it.. i've been praticing.. but its hard to get something to top notch in one month.. it really is.. and considering jury is worth 50% of my final mark.. the other 50% being how i do in our lessons.. and i've been gettint 27, 28, or 29 out of 30 for that.. so its good.. but if i screw up on my jury.. i swear I'm f*cked..

so i guess.. i could be working so much harder.. and its kinda never too late? or maybe? i dunno.. i actually forced myself to go study in the library.. i was planning on going for 2 hrs at least.. ended up being 1 hr only .. cuz library closes at 10pm.. and i went at 830... i gotta start forcing myself more.. i got half a chapter done.. in just 1 hour.. which is pretty good

i realized.. that the computer and msn.. and real player.. and tv episodes.. had this uncontrollable power over me.. and what i do.. and my time.. and u know wut.. i really need to cut back.. so i've decided... i'm only actually going to go online and "talk" after what my goals for the day have been accomplished.. or at least to the best of my ability.. so i'll only blog 3 times a week?? maybe less.. depending.. definetly only once or even not at all during exams.. i'm staying home sundays.. for sure.. to study.. and saturday afternoons.. to study.. no shopping or anythign.. unless i have a "really" breezy week..

so yeah.. you'll be hearing less of me.. and reading less of me.. from this day forward.. which is a good thing for me.. cuz this comp stuff.. really killing me.. cuz i'm also staying up till like 3am.. to chat with ppl and stuff..

definetly..

DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP!!!

5 hours.. its a ok amount.. but i'm dying from it.. i'm the kinda person.. who needs a good 6-7 hours a nite.. or 5 during the night.. and 1-2 hr nap during the day... so also.. if u see me online at like 3am.. message me!!!! and YELL at me!!! as meanly as you can.. cuz i need rest..and sleep

Thanx..

Bobo.. Out

i'm officially gonna be a Best Buddy..




its an organization that pairs adults with developmental disabilities with a uni student. We become their friend, that can always talk to, rely on, etc. We have to talk to them once a week on the phone, and twice a month, take them out to activities.. I"m so excited!! it'll be so much fun!!! woohoo :)


aah my week this week is gonna be so boring..

not much to do...

i have a theory midterm on wednesday.. but i'm all good for it.. so i'm not worried

aside from that nothing..

however next week.. AAAH!!!!

Skills Test on monday
Music Therapy Test on Thursday
Psyc Midterm on Friday

aah!! i should start studying but i dunno. i dun really feel like it

i dunno.. we'll see

hehe

so nov is slowly creepin up and making me think...

the Big 1-8

how much of my life will be changed b/c i reached that mark? i mean i'm technically not a child then.. i'm an adult.. and i'd be expected to be so different.. but i dun wanna be different.. i wanna be the same way i am now when i am 40 or 50 or even 80.. kinda strange thought tho.. dunno.. what to think of turning 18.. i mean.. Yeah .. its my birthday.. and i'm a year older.. but turning 18 means i have to mature.. be older.. and i dun really wanna..

ppl have already said that university has killed my childhood.. i'm no longer immature, childish. but i wann be.. sometimes.. wut happens if when i turn 18.. i'm no longer able to at all enjoy the childhood things??? AAAAH!!!!

i dunno even kno what im' talking about.. oh well

My New Favourite Song:

Flying Without Wings - Rubben Studdard

Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
at any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

You're the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

another good quote.. this one from the now deceased
Madame Chiang -Kai -Shek.. also known as Soong Mai Ling



We write our own destiny; we become what we do. - Madame Chiang Kai Shek


She was one of the Soong sisters..

"One loved power, One loved money, One loved China"


There's a really good movie about these 3 sisters. Mai Ling married Chiang Kai Shek, first president of Taiwan, Ai-Ling married China's finance minister, and creator of Hong Kong Bank, H.H. Kung. Ching-Ling married Dr. Sun Yat-sen, The "Father of Modern China".
Dr.Sun Yat Sen is a cool man. We share the same birthday!!!

November 12!!! except he was born in 1866.. and i in 1985.. 116 years later.. woohoo!!!!

but yeah.. let us now..

have a moment of silence for her..

she was 106...