to this day i still dont understand..

why are we always attracted to things that we know are bad for us..
we're always so tempted by things that we kno we shouldn't do....
one would think.. with age and wisdom.. we'd learn to think beyond those things...

yet strangely enough.. i find myself in that same situation over and over again..
i kno i shouldnt.. yet i can't help it..
it hurts too much.. yet i can't break away..

all the pain and tears and stress.. its not worth it. and i know that..
but something as simple as a phone call.. and that all doesn't seem to matter anymore..

why haven't i learned?
why am i still doing this to myself?