so officially started skewl.. and heres my schedule.. its pretty good.. i hafta admit.

Monday:
Universals of Language from 230-4

Tuesday:
Early British Literature from 10-1120
Culture & civilization of Spain from 1130 till 1
Religion and Culture from 4 till 7

Wednesday:
same as monday

Thursday:
Early British Literature from 10-1120
Culture & civilization of Spain from 1130 till 1

im' trying to get registerered into Spanish for Bgginers which is on Mondays.. but duno yet.. haha.. technically i shouldn't be in that class anyway.. its for ppl who have no knowldge of spanish. whcih .. i dun qualify for.. i took gr.10&11 spanish in high skewl but i kinda forgot it all.. but still shouldn't be taking that course.. oh well.. it will be easy then.. and then good marks.. sweetness!!! haha

and if i can't get into that course.. i'm prolly gonna take some other course.. maybe effective writing?? or maybe fundaments of music.. haha.. thats like an intro course for non-music majors. lets learn about scales and intervals.. wee.. hmm maybe i should just take that?? but i'm assuming palmer who teaches that course.. and is also one of my old music profs.. definetly would not approve. haha

and if u all dunt already kno.. i'm not a music therapy major rite now.. my marx.. lets just say were shitty and had to switch majors.. so rite now i'm a B.English & Creative Writing major.. which is alrite i guess.. i dunno.. i randomly picked a major.

i'm highly considering Modern Languages/History/Music.. my courses rite now are pretty kewl.. i'm actually waking up to go to them.. and actually doing the reading.. which would be a first in all my 3 years at uni.. haha. its still early to decide what i actually wanna continue doing.. but for now all i can say is:

i'm actually going to class.. I'm not falling asleep.. i'm actually reading my text and doing notes.. thats pretty good.. for me at least :P

and on another happy note.. i can now finally sleep.. i had the hardest time falling sleep for the last 1 1/2 yr.. but now its much better.. i've been in bed everynight since i got bck frm hk by like 11pm.. and woken up.. sans alarm clock like 8ish 9ish.. before my alarm clock rings.. automatically.. surprise surprise!


all that having been said.. i do think that my decision to come back to windsor and finish a degree.. was a good one..
not to say that i dun still wanna do culinary.. and be a chef or what not.. but it does make a whole lot more sense to have a back up plan inregardless ofhow hard it may be.. in comparision.. a university degree will prolly be easier to obtain than say.. dealing with life as unemployed citizen.. get my drift??

plus++++ who's to say that i would defintly be good at culinary anyway?? who's to say i'd actually graduate and get a job?? thats hard to tell.. i dun kno if i would be amazing at it.

so for now.. i'm gonna be in windsor.. finishing off a degree.. and maybe if my marks are good.. maybe even considering transfering to another skewl maybe?? i'm thinking states?? i wanna go to a really really small university somewhere in the states.. i have a feeling i would definetly benefit from that sortof environment.. no big skewls for me..

aah enough venting and talking.. gotta go home and cook yum yum.. me hungry.. and then read & notes.. and bum at home..

home is very boring now.. no computer.. no tv.. no internet.. boo urns..
i'm hoping to buying a used tv.. we'll see how that goes..

lates :P

so i'm back in windsor.. and me being the one that always has bad luck.. i'm stuck here with a defective computer that wont turn on.. so no music.. no movies.. no
nothing for me.. :( boo urns.. im gonna be so incredibly bored..

so skewl starts tommorow.. got two classes tommorow.. one at 1:30 and the other at 2:30 .. spanish and then universals of language

la di la.. so yeah.. give me a call ppl if u guys are bored.. cuz i definetly will.. and i miss ppl already.. sinc ei haven't seen most of u in like 4 months :'(
would luv to hear from ya

I"M BACK BABY!!!!!!

but sadly .. leaving for windsor on the sunday morning.. haha.. so yeah

just got home from 14 hour flight from hk to vanc.. then 4 hr flight from vanc to toronto.. dead tired.. blog later!

tim n gendi n cy.. if u are reading.. please please email me so i can arrange a time to give u guys ur stff!!

adopt your own virtual pet!

Au Revoir Hong Kong!



thanx for a fun 3 months and 17 days..
thanx for lots of fun friends..
lots of good people
lots of good bars and clubs
really good cuisine
really good nite life
really cheap clothes n stuff
lots of really good sales

i'll be back.. i promise.. really soon at that too..

in less than 8 months.. i will step foot into chep lap kok international airport.. its soon.. wait for me!!!! i'll miss you :(



im out.. in less than 5 hours.. i'm boarding a plane for t.o

quite an eventful friday..

woke up around 10ish... hung out at hung.. ate some food.. watched some tv..
left the house around 1130.. went to mongkok. got there round 1200.. went to bank.. then went to my friend francis's store to buy some guns n stuff.. 1 hour later.. walked out with 3 guns, and a bag of BB's.. went to argyle center.. bought some earrings and this really strawberry top.. haha.
went to sin tat to check out cell phones.. not one that i realy wanted.. well there was but too too expensive.. $3000 HK.. about $500 CAD!!!

walked around mong kok looking for stuff. suddently decided i'm going to get a 6th piercing.. so walked into some plaza.. and got it done.. i remembered the store cuz i went with my brother to buy earrings there last year..

bought 2 ties for myself.. one silver and one pink.. i luv wearing ties.. buti could never find a tie i wanted.

and then around 3ish. went to get my hair done.. was gonna get it done bright red highlights. but then stupid me .. had dyed my hair black about 1 month before coming back to hk.. and forgot to tell my my mom's cousins husband.. who owns the hair salon.. 1 hr after all the tin foil and bleach.. we realize.. um.. how come its not really red?? he asks me?? did u previously dye it black or blue?? i'm like uh.. yeah..
oh thats y.. aparently if u dye it black.. its hard to dye on type. so rite now my hair is kinda orangey.. but a ncie orangey.. and its only the top layers that u can see colours.. there's absolutely no colour for the bottom.. oh well.. too bad for me.. it stil looks kinda nice.. i think.. it was one hell of a cheap haircut/hair dye job.. for like less than $40 CAD haha.. man i luv relations

went about around 6ish..
chilled at home.. watched some tv.. n stuff

went to K with my sister around 930ish.. and got home about 15 mins ago.. which is like 4 hours later.. haha.. i luv K..

so lots done today..

tmmorow.. is shopping for necessity day with my mom.. then packing up all my crap. haha.. i got loads of it.. and then family dinner @ some jap restaurant with my granni, uncle, aunt, and hillman

sunday.. i promised my two lil cousins i'd take them ice skating once this summer.. and i kinda went with them but i just watched.. so i gotta wake up early.. take them to their skating lesson. and skate with them a lil .. then yum cha with my grandparents. moms side.. and then just chilling with my lil cousins.. then family dinner at my granparents house.. big gathering thing.. evry family has to go.. my grandma just got out of hospital and wants to see everybody.. plus i'm leaving so big din din.. and then i think my cousins.. the older ones that is.. and i are gonna go for drinks after.. dinner usually ends at like 8.. haha.. my grandparents are in bed by like 930

monday... more packing.. visiting the peak again with my mom.. this time to take pics of sunset at the peak.. and going to visit some old childhood places.. n going to visit the DISNEY line on the MTR>. haha. i wanna be a tourist..

tuesday.. wake up n early..9ish go to hongkong station..by 10ish drop off all my crap at the air canada counter.. have brunch around central with my mom.. and then go back to hong kong station to take airport express.. gotta be at airport by 1200.. my plane leaves at 130.. i'd rather wait at the airport than miss my plane... and that will be the end of my summer.. boo urns..

so dessert buffet was fun.. loads n loads of desserts.. both western n chinese.. lots of cakes... fruits... chocolate fountains.. cheese n crackers.. crepes.. waffles.. puddings and custards.. yum yum






wanted to take more pics. one of like every type of dessert.. but wasnt allowed to take pictures of their actual buffet.. only allowed to take pictures of my table n the food in my plate.. boo hoo.. oh well.. it was definetly fun.. and i will definetly go back next time around..

so i'm almost home.. soon.. about 4 days left.. cant wait to be home

Countdown!!!!

3 days till no more work..
4 days till the highly anticipated Dessert Buffet @ Grand Hyatt with my AW buds.. yeah.. last outing b4 i leave
5 days till Mother-Daughters Trip.. being all touristy and visiting Peak again.. Ocean Park.. the whole works
8 days till I leave HK for Home..

man i miss home.. i miss the ppl.. i miss my own room.. i miss driving.. i miss the food.. i miss the AIR!!! the clean clean air..


my trip so far has been lots of fun.. lots of hanging out with friends.. met a lot of new friends..

been good.. sad its over.. but at the same time.. i really miss home.. i miss everything..

tonite was a good day.. last day of working 9-645...then went to mong kok with becky... looked at some wallets for tim & gendi.. bought a shirt for jer.. its kinda funny looking.. got some more stuff for myself.. i still have a lot of shopping to do. clothes. bags.. SHOES especially!!! then pack pack pack.. man i hate packing.. especially when i have too much stuff and can't fit it all.. hahaha

im so excited for dessert buffet..u kno me and how i luv to eat desserts & demetres.. imagine demetres.. and all u can eat.. plus amazing view.. check it out

Grand Hyatt Tiffin Lounge

me n like 15 other ppl are going.. gonna be loads of fun.. i'm gonna take lots of pics..

anyhow.. im out.. 2 am.. just got home from friends bday party in CWBay..

so this week .. despite the horrible weather and the me still not feeling 100%.. has actually been pretty good. main thing for that is the netvigator love music concert.. it was awesome.. best concert i've seen in ages..

see link

cousin works in marketing @ netvigator.. so she got me some pretty awesome seats.. like 14th row..


there were some pretty wicked artists there.. EASON.. C.Hing... at17... Josie Ho.. Soler.. and special guest.. GEORGE LAM!!! OMG!!!!!!

i took 256MB of pics and video.. and for some really screwed up reason.. the pics all turned out really blurred except for the occasional few.. even so i'm so keeping.. and mad vids.. haha..

heres one of the pics that turned out somewhat ok



worked for a few hours today.. and then working from 9 till 430 saturday.. going to go out with g boi n friends..

sunday.. junk boat trip with the cuzs..its one of my cuz bday.. so we're celebrating her bday.. gonna be loads of fun..

so this has been the shittiest week i have had in a really long time..
i have brochial allergies and strep at the same time..

but on a brighter side..

Thursday!!! EASON concert!! wee.. Netvigator is hosting a concert for broadband users... and you have to like redeem points n stuff to get tix..but my cous works at netvigator.. so she got free tix.. and i'm going !!! man thats so great!!!

and Sept 18.. LEO KU concert.. man.. it will be awesome.. Casino Rama here i come..

so for 4 days.. i had what was basically strep throat.. except chinese doctors don't seem to kno what that is.. so it was called "upper respiratory tract infection".. and the stupid doc gave me meds that didn't seem to work too well... so i got a lil better and now its worse again.. so now i'm at home.. with brochial allergy and strep together.. man my throat and my lungs killl!!!!! it hurts even to swallow.. and i have no voice wutsover.. i've missed 3 days of work.. and i will miss 2 more.. damnit.. urgh.. i hate hong kong air.. its so nasty.. its whats making me sick.. well one of the more important factors at least...

i miss my fresh canadian air.. i miss all my trees.. :(

oh another thing.. i'm coming home soon.. well not really.. but sept 6th.. and if there is anything anybody wants .. email me... i'll have some time to do major damage in mong kok n stuff from sept 1 till sept 5.. so yeah.. mail me if u need something

so after 4 days of not being able to talk.. i'm now stuck with a throat and a lung that wont stop hurting.. i'm coughin 24/7 and my throat still hurts..
docs in hk sux ass.. they can't even give me meds that work.. darn it.. urgh

so i've been stuck in bed for the last two days with strep throat.. and the shitty part is i can't even fall asleep.. cuz it hurts so damn much.. urgh!!!

so its been a long 4 days.. waking up every morning at 630am.. and then working

monday & wednesday & friday: classes at mary knoll for 4 hours... first class 19 kids, second 11, third 7, and fourth class 23 from grades 2-5.. then i have work at the learning center from 2:30 till 645.. teaching phonics to little kids age 3 to 8

tuesday & thursday: at the learning centre.. classes stark at 9.. teaching phonics for 3 hours.. lunch.. teaching writing & grammar and then more phonics till 645pm

saturday: bible class starts at 9.. then english & music for 3 hours.. then phonics, writing, grammar for another 6 hours.. ending at 645pm..

how much work is that?? tho i'm really not enjoying the incredibly longdays.. but its been fun so far.. the kids are so cute.. :P i'll post pics of them later..

surprise surprise... sindy is awake and out of the house at 7:52AM!!!!!!

she awoke at 6:30am and took a shower.. and was able to leave the house prior to 7:00am where she diligently slept on the MTR all the way from Tai Koo to Kowloon Tong.

surprised??? haha.. and i woke up by myself too!!

man i'm gonna hate saturdays!!! i gotta work on saturdays from 830AM till round 430.. the stupid thing is.. i live like an hour (at least.. depending on traffic) from work.. so i gotta wake up so early.. urgh .. totally not gonna enjoy it..

on the other hand.. tonite i get to hear the Pearl Delta Chamber Soloists in concert.. itd be a good way to end a very tiring saturday.. anyhow.. i gotta go now.. gotta take the mini green bus up to work...

later

its amazing how a short 5 days can totally change one's life....

in the 5 days.. i managed to get a total new output on my life.. what i feel about my life.. what my purpose in life is.. what i've always done wrong.. why i always felt so miserable.

i NOW KNOW what i need to do in order to make my life more meaningful..

i'll explain later.. right now i'm so dead tired from crying so much.. never in my life have i cried so much in the span of one day.. and tho i hate to admit i cry.. every tear that was shed.. was worth it.. so incredibly worth it!

man this weekend has been and will continue to be awesome!!!!

friday: happy SARS day.. not the sick SARS.. but u kno.

hong kong SPECIAL ADMINISTRATIVE REGION

anyhow.. so july 1st.. no one has to work or go to skewl.. so i went out to lunch with my grandmother, aunt janny, uncle philip and my cousin sky.. my other cousin ken had to go sailing..

so anyhow.. after lunch.. we hung out at my grandma's for a while and played with my other cousin hillman..

and then around 3ish.. me and sky left to go to mong kok.. i was meeting up with my ex-aunt... and we walked around new century plaza and bought some stuff.. then we went to this new shopping mall called langham place.. that place is huge.. and has some pretty good stores.. but stuff is a lil pricey.. anyhow.. so we had dinner there @ some cafe called "Suzuki Tokyo Cafe".. and basically that cafe is like a NEO-Japanese and Italian place.. its pretty good.. my cousin, me and my ex-aunt order some pasta.. man one of them was soooo good.. i kinda regret not taking my cam out that day.. it was like a wasabi sauce pasta... it kinda sounds gross.. but man it was good.. and then afterward... we took my cousin to the bus station so he could go home.. and then me and my ex aunt went out for some drinks.. gotta hang out a bit.. talk about some stuff... its so easy to talk to her. shes a social worker..

saturday: didn't do that much for the morning.. or afternoon.. woke up at like 12ish.. went to run some errands for my mom.. and then waited at home while ppl came to deliver stuff to the house... then around 10ish.. me my sister and her bf stephen went to go grab some food.. then we went to watch "war of the worlds" @ UA tai koo shing.. man .. i gotta say.. war of the worlds.. aka wotf.. scared the SHIT outta me.. its a pretty good movie.. but i dun really get the ending.. not to spoil the movie or anything.. the ending.. huh?? organisms ?? WUT?? how the hell does earth's miniscule organisms kill aliens driving robots?? wut?? anyhow.. the grossest thing about the whole movie is the sucking brain thing.. GROSS!!! then afterwards. we went down to Lan Kwai Fong for some drinks.. and so hence i'm writing this at 4AM.. haha

Sunday: gotta go have weekly yum cha with my aunts and uncle and grandparents @ Polytech .. then not much for the rest of the afternoon.. but man the nite is gonna be good.. my cousin's bf.. for some reason has some tix for some charity concert thats going on in wan chai tommorow nite.. well actually tonite.. and the commitee for it managed to snag some pretty good singers..
andy hui.. edmund leung.. so wing hong.. and some china singers.. dun really kno them that well tho.. anyho.. i'm just going for edmund leung.. he's a pretty good singer.. like one of those who can actually sing .. and also writes a lot of his own music.. yeah yeah.. so anyhow.. he(cuz's bf) managed to get 7 tix altogether.. so i'm going with my friend Gordon and 5 of his friends.. yeah how sad is that?? i have no friends..

and then Monday: i officially start work @ my jobs..
i'm working at mary knoll fathers catholic elementary skewl.. something along those lines.. in kownloon tong...my lil cousin goes to skewl there.. my parents, aunts, uncle use to go there.. and my uncle (cousin's father) is on the PTA or something.. so i managed to get a job there teaching their 2wk english playgroup. and my friend felicity from windsor is gonna be teaching there with me too...

i'm also working at some centre in kowloon tong.. when i'm not working at maryknolls i'm working there.. which is like basically Mon, Wed, Fri from 1 til 645 and tues, thurs, sat from 9-645... its gonna be some really longs days!!!!

gonna be some completely tired.. but definetly gonna be worth it.. im so NOT gonna be broke afterwards.. haha

4am.. gotta wake up tommorow at like 11.. need sleep..

sindy out

Time bought - June 29, 2005 5: 47pm
Place of purchase - Page ONE inside Times Square, Causeway Bay, Hong Kong
Time of official start - June 29, 2005 5: 53pm
Time of official end - June 30, 2005 6:37pm
Place where last page was read - inside KCR train #18 en route to Hung Hom... somewhere b/w Kowloon Tong and Mong Kok

BEST 24 HRS EVER SPENT ON A BOOK!!!!!! BEST $76 HK EVER SPENT!!!!

i'm officially done!! yeah... i've never been so completely interested in a book ever!!!!!

rite after i finished it.. i went to commercial press @ new town plaza in sha tin.. and anxiously looked around for "breaking the da vinci code"...they were all out.. NO!!
so i rushed to Page ONE again.. hoping to get perhaps find it there... page ONe is bigger and wut not.. and i'm so disappointed.. they didn't have it either.... apparently.. that book is completely sold out in hong kong.. NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

now i have to order it off the internet.. boo urns...

so many many questions left unanswered. this book definetly makes u wonder.. question a lot of things that i've learn to accept.. certain ideas.. certain theories.. i never questioned it really b4..

i mean.. the book is still fiction.. but fiction.. based on truth and evidence. makes u really wonder what u can believe nowadays...

sindy out

*eagerly and anxiously awaiting the arrival of "breaking the da vinci code"

next(current conquest) - Dan Brown's "Angels & Demons".... its supposedly pretty good too.. i'm enjoying the whole cryptography thing.. hmmm..

no working television.. lack of friends.. no $$.. no where to go
and where does that bring you??
for me..

i ended up reading..
YES .. u read rite!!! READING!!! for those who know me.. i am definetly not ur reading type.. i use to be.. but i gave it up .. and ive picked it up once again.. and i most definetly picked the rite book for it...

DA VINCI CODE!!!!!! simply amazing.. tho there are a lot of things i dun quite understand.. but its so intriguing..

last nite i found myself still reading into chapter 40 at 3AM!!!! me being awake so early in the morning for a book.. hasn't happened in a LONG LONG time..


i cant wait to finish it..

on the same topic... some of the issues it brings up in the book.. makes me really wonder about the whole christianity thing.. according to the book.. in simpler words.. a lot of the things that christianity believes in and traditions that it follows.. are questionable.. lets say.. i dunno if the things said in the book are true or wut not.. but

definetly intriguing
i will have more to say once i've finished reading it.. and bought and read "breaking the Da Vinci Code"



sindy out

as of the moment... new fav summer movie ever..

Mr. & Mrs. Smith


"you still alive baby"

for those who havent seen it.. its definetly worth ur 12 bucks

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Your #2 Match: ENFP

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anybody want to buy me this??? i want it so badly.. and NOT just cuz its JAY Chou Endorsed.. i need to a mp3 player to!!!!

J III Mp3 Player

looking at everybodys blogs.. i've missed out on so much since coming back to hk..
softball games.. rugby games.. ppl getting married.. ppl hooking up.. breaking up..
i'm so totally clueless now...

thats one of the things i hate about being away during the summers..

but on the other hand.. i luv being away for the summers as well.. somestime its just nice to get away from everything..

its nice coming back to see ppl i dunt normally get to see. like my cousins.. and its nice just getting to hang out with them.. which i've done a lot since coming back..

gone skating with them.. gone to Jungle Gym USA.. went out to lunch and stuff with them.. had a lil jam session with ginnie & erik.. haha.. that was mad fun..

and i cant wait till sunday...

combine my two most favourite things and u get this sunday

1) kids
2) food

haha.. this sunday is fathers day and so its a big family gathering thing.. and so.. all of my "ng" uncles and aunts are going over to my grandfathers.. and we're having a big feast.. haha.. and me n my 2 lil cousins are gonna bake a cake.. haha.. can't wait to see the mess that they end up with.. so gonna be a kodak moment..

and then dinner.. all the "leung" uncles and aunts.. are going over to my grandma's ... and we're gonna have another big feast.. haha.. my family is HUGE on eating.. haha.. i'm in charge of making desserts and i can't wait.. since my other lil cousin is gonna help me.. and thats gonna be interesting...haha

hmm.. coconut pudding.. chocolate cake.. mango pudding.. hmmm.. MOCHI!!!! yum yum


anyhow..

i miss all u ppl back in to .. i miss being a part of all the commotion... :(
hope ur all having fun in to.. and being safe...

don't do anything stupid ppl!

i swear.. moving and renovating is such a pain in the ass.. unbelievably annoying....

especially in hk.. man.. i use to think that the ppl in canada were slow and careless... apparently not...

so the rents bought a new apt in hk for my sis and my granny and when the rest of my family goes back to visit n stuff.. so we had to renovate the whole appt.. new furniture and new walls, doors, kitchen, all that stuf..

1) we ordered new beds, and desks and cabinets.. made to order.. n wut not... they deliver it finally.. after being like 10 days late.. and then we checked the goods rite.. and 2 of the desks are so scratched and screwed up beyond belief.. so we have to send them back. and the ppl are like.. u gotta pay extra for us to ship the goods back to china and then back to hk again.. and we're like WTH? its their fault to begin with.. and now we hafta wait like another 10 days till we can get the desks.. and aside from the two desks.. one of the closets doors had a big crak in the wood so they had to take tat back as well.. but then the stupid ppl killed the side of the wall when they were assembling it.. now one of the rooms has 3 huge like 6 inch scratches in the new paint.. urhg!!!

2) who the hell delivers an appliance and says oh yeah.. if u want the manual.. ull have to contact our headquarters n ask for one. wth? its suppose to come with a damn manual to begin with!!!

3) our sofa company is screwed up.. they were suppose to deliver it today!!! so i sat in the house by myself with no AC in scorching 32+ degrees waiting for it.. and they never came.. and so i called them.. and they're like.. uh.. we dun deliver on saturdays.. FRIG!!!!!!

so 3 weeks in hong kong.. and surprisingly enough.. i haven't spent that much $$$$

reason 1) i dun have that money on me to begin with
reason 2) spent almost every day either furniture/appliance shopping wiht my mom for new house.. or over at my uncles playing with my cousins
reason 3) its not quite sale season in hk yet.. i'm attempting to save up and not spend till later on in summer so i can get more for less..

as of rite now.. 2 jobs.. but they both don't start till later in july.. so i'm bored now.. if anybody needs anything .. holla i have all the time in the world to go buy stuff..

on the other hand i feel like i'm missing uot so much on all the stuff that is going on in T.O ... ppl's weddings, softball. hangng out with friends... etc...

if anybody is ever bored and wants to fill me in.. by all means... lastly


Get better Tim!!!

saw ur arm on ur blog.. write... sindy hopes u feel better on it ok??

hk... geez its hot here... its been less than 2 days and my god.. i've sweated like a pig numerous times.. aaah!!! but so far.. hk has been not bad.. haven't done an shopping or anything yet.. still dealing with jet lag.. dunt start work till later .. like in june.. so more days of boring nothing to do days...... so yeah.. if bored.. feel free to dro me a line

out

sometimes i seriously wonder if life is worth living.. i mean .. all the pain and sorrow .. all the obstacles that we have to face.. problems after problem..
its not like life ever gets better to the state of being conflict free.. so then what exactly am i living for?

nothing

i have nothing to look forward.. no goal in life..
nothing to work hard for.. and everytime i try to work for something.. it never works out.. everything just come tumbling down..

nothing ever goes rite for me.. i can't remember the last time that things ever went smoothly for me.. i dunt think ever.

i kno that you're not suppose to give up.. and you're suppose to look on the bright side. all those stupid sayings.. tommorow's a new day.. things will get better.. its all completely bullshit..

the only ppl who say that are those who have everything.. life has worked out perfectly for them..

what about those who life didn't work out perfectly? what are they suppose to do?

i'm at the end of my string.. what can i do

aah.. been home for a good 3 weeks now.. its been a good 3 weeks i'd say.. a rather bother but good 3 weeks.. i've caught up on all my sleep.. :P which is good.. and i've gotten to hang out with some ppl while i've been home :)

13 days till hk.. and in that time being.. i have a load of stuff to do..

BIGGEST THING- convince my dad about culinary
if convincable.. then gotta figure out some apps stuff.
-shop for work clothes
-shop for gifts for my lil cousins
-softball/basketball/ some sort of exercise
-finish shopping for grad gifts
- get my passport back
-unpack all my stuff from uni..
-pack all my clothes & stuff for hk..

but b4 all that.. i'm really excited for the next two weeks.... lots of fun stuff planned

-tiffs coming home!!! yeah.. girls night out!! jazz club ... desserts & drinks!!! weeee
-bbq!!!!! woohoo i luv bbq!!!!haha
-jam sessions with the maestro.. haha.. when u coming home btw?

so yeah.. i'll miss everybody while i'm in hk.. i guarantee that..

man.. i never really realized that i missed a lot of things.. well not just things.. events.. places.. people.. sitting here in windsor at 7am on a friday morning.. not having yet gone to bed since thursday at 4pm.. anyhow.. beside the point.. i miss a lot of things...

i miss high skewl.. i kinda somewhat miss going to class.. well at least my high skewl classes..the small classes.. the close knit environment.. all my friends .. the teachers.. sadly i even miss my old school uniform..the old ugly blazer, tie and kilt.. i guess i kinda miss the organization of high skewl.. how everything was so planned out..i miss going to all my classes, then out to lunch with the girls.. and skipping classes.. and going back to skewl just for pratices.. i can't even really remember what my high skewl band and choir pratices were like anymore.. but i guess the thing i miss most of all about high skewl would be being on the basketball and softball teams.. i remember on a beautiful sunny day in april.. i'd be outside in the back field with all my girly girls.. batting it up..doing some good ol'catching and pitchin.. man i really do miss it all.. aaawww.. basketball.. i miss that a lot too.. not just the sport but the whole being on a team environment thing.. i mean.. i miss all the girls.. some of them i'd played with them the whole 4 years.. and one of them for 6 years.. since elementary skewl.. back then.. i guess i just miss getting to play my game with them.. i mean i haven't played softball or basketball in a really long time.. :(


i miss home.. technically i'd only been away from home less than a month.. but the last time i was back.. it wasn't really home.. i miss having my whole family at home.. i miss having a good family dinner.. the last we had a full family dinner.. was in the summer.. when my mom, dad, miranda, ivan and i deleberately set a day aside to go have dinner in hk. i mean we were all so consumed with work and play and wut not.. and since then we haven't had one.. mainly cuz miranda's been in hk ever since and hasn't come back yet..
this year has been so different.. my mom's been gone for most of the past 8 months.. she came back from hk.. then hthe states..then vancouver.. then ottawa.. then panama.. and now hk again.. and without my mom around.. my brother and i dun have much a motivation to go back home to newmarket much.. so even just the 4 of us minus my sister.. we haven't had a family dinner since .. i dun even kno if we had one.. i miss having the whole family around.. i miss living at home with the whole family.. back then.. our house will be really loud.. me n the siblings fighting all the time.. fighting over ever lil possible thing.. whether it be the computer.. or the tv.. or the phone or even just to complain to my mom about each other.. its definetly different now..


i miss a lot of things..

feli & i
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wynne, faith , and I
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eunice & i
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english group pic
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and cutesy wei wei too..
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and lil wynonna too
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im gonna miss lil ethan.. so cute :)
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the chinese bois
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ryan & i.. jeff in the background
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steve & i.. haha
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dorothy & i
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danit & i
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tonite was the grad dinner for Timothy fellowship @ wcbc..we had a nice dress up dinner for all the grads.. and tho i wasn't graduating.. they included me in the list.. cuz well i'm leaving windsor.. and it was really nice..and lots of fun.. haha.. mad picture fest.. everyone took so many pics.. and it was nice seeing almost everybody get dressed up.. cuz normally we're all like sweat pants and flip flops.. hehe :P

kinda made me realize.. that my time here in windsor is soon to be over.. im leaving on i believe the 24th .. and im gonna miss all my friends here.. :( i've gotten to kno some of them quite well and its kinda sad to be leaving..

i dunno when i will see them nxt.. the fellowship is having a retreat in toronto sometime in june/july.. but then i'm not here.. and by the time i get back from hk.. they'll all be in skewl.. and i dun kno if ill have the time to come down and visit..

im gonna miss certain things in windsor.. skewl most def not.. but ppl yeah.. :P

so i've been dealing with a dilemna for the last lil while.. and things are so complicating..
i mean.. i thought i knew exactly what was going on.. in regards to where i was going and what i was going to study and wut not next year..

but as things seem now.. i have no idea.. well i kno where it is i wanna go and wut i wanna do.. but things dun seem to be going too smoothly for me.. main thing being..theres a very big hurdle in front of me.. and im at a stump as to what i should do.. theres basically 2 options

1) do what others are telling me... i dun piss anybody off or hurt anybody's feelings but then i kinda end up hurting my own feelings.. forcing myself to do something i dun really wanna do

2) do what it is I kno i want to do.. but resulting in people's disappointments, anger, confusion, pissed off.. and the list goes on.. i mean im not the kinda person to seriously want to do something that will hurt other ppl's feelings..

now what the hell am i suppose to do? i dun wanna be selfish and just do what i want to do.. but then at the same time.. i kinda realized that i'm at this stump because i didnt really voice my opinions back in the day..

to be honest i've never really been someone to want to go against everybody or in another words.. im kinda a follower.. have always been tho sometimes i dunt act it.. i hate being alone.. not being in a group.. i've always kinda rather be a silent member of a group than being the very active leader of the group..

and i find that often because of that i get myself into situations that i dun necessarily enjoy and miss out on the things that i do..

during the last year of high skewl.. just like any other graduating high skewl student.. i contemplated on my life.. what was i to do after graduation.. what did i want my career to be.. etc.. all those questions.. unlike some ppl.. the answers weren't clear to me at all.. i honestly didn't really know..

i mean.. academically wise.. i never was all that bright.. i mean i had alrite grades.. but i wasnt smart or anything.. i wasnt all that good at math and sciences... i worked my ass off in those classes and hated every moment of it.. i was obviously not gonna be some mad scientist or mathematician or something like.. i enjoyed my language classes but learning too many languages confuse me.. so no English or Spanish or wutever language major.. i wasn't too good at remembering dates and #s.. absolutely SUXED at geography.. so no history major/geography/classics/politics.. etc..

basically it came down to the one thing academically i was good at in skewl.. music.. i pretty much didn't have that many options when looking for programs at skewl.. music.. and music related..
and i thought
man i would sux as a music teacher..
i dun think i would survive being a performer
music history?? sux at memorizing #'s and dates and wut not..
music therapy? i guess thats kinda works.. using music to help ppl.. sounds kinda fun.. i guess i could that..


at the same time.. i had always loved to make food.. specifically desserts.. i have always loved to eat and make them.. i had done my fair share on research in regards to entering the culinary arts.. and it seemed kinda kewl..

when presenting the options to my parents.. basically.. the typical chinese response.. be a engineer or a lawyer or an accountant or something.. something belonging to the "si" class.. and since both of my choices didn't belong in that class.. the response well wasnt too positive.... but one thing was clear. music therapy was definetly according to them a better choice than culinary especially for a girl..

and i mean tlaking to other ppl about me n music therapy.. everybody seemed so keen on me doing it.. they all thought that it suited me well.. and me being so easily coerced.. i just went along with it..

i let the decision of what to do for the rest of my life lie in the hands of others.. im not blaming my parents or friends or whoever for this.. i blame myself.. i didn't say what i needed to say or do what i needed to do.. because of my somewhat shy nature, afraidness of being singled out.. my easily pressured self.. i ended being where i am now...at a stump..

and now once again the question of me or other ppl comes up again.. my decision??? their decision??

what i want?? what they want??

the answer seems easy to make.. textbook answer: do what please yourself.. but life is always so much more complicating.. if only life were easy.. doing what i want hurts the ppl around me.. doing what they want means doing something i dun think i wanna do..

i dun kno what i do.. i sometimes just wish life were simple.. and the right answers were always so evident.. right in front of us.. but lifes not like that.. it never is..

i dun really even kno why i'm bloggin about this.. i guess its kinda be itchin to be said.. i mean its been bothering for a long time.. and i find that sometimes just letting it all get out in the open helps to make me feel better..

Confuzzled Sindy leaves her note

tagboard is up.. feel free to leave me a message :)

It bothers me that people always assume that whatever I plan on doing, I'm not being serious about.
It bothers me that people treat me as if I was a child.
It bothers me that people don't take me seriously.
It bothers me that just about everybody is against whatever it is I have to do, or want to do.

I mean.. is it really that hard to take me seriously??
Why is it that everybody thinks i'm stupid or something.. i do have the ability to think about the things i choose to do.. i have the ability to make my own decisions..

for once in my life.. i feel really really strongly about something and everyone just blows me off.. its my life and its my decision.. please for once just respect that its what i want to do.. respect my decision.. and STOP telling me its wrong.. STOP saying that you're right and I'm wrong.. cuz u kno wut.. U DON"T KNOW THAT.. no one can ever really say that they're always rite..

URGH

i really need to get this off my chest..


OMG!!! i really need to learn how to drive.. i really need to pay more attention to the things around me while i'm driving.. and most of all.. I NEED TO LOOK AT MY MIRRORS more often..
geez.. before i hit something again!!!

i hit someone's car today.. i had one of two choices:

1) hit and run
2) leave a note and tell them

and u kno wut.. #1 was really so tempting.. i really wanted to.. i mean.. if i had just left and not said anything.. i wouldn't have to pay for the big dent in his car.. OMG

but after some contemplation.. i decided to leave a note.. and i left.. and after i left.. i kept on thinking.. hmm maybe i should go and get that note back.. i really dun wanna pay.. and i really dun have the $ to pay.. and idun want my insurance and wut not to go up..

but i ended up going home.. and the guy emailed me.. and we have to talk about his dent.. geez.. of all cars to decide to dent.. i dented a friggin RSX.. and its huge friggin dent!!!!! HUGE i tell you.. a dent that will take at least a good $200-300 to get fixed.. at least!!!

but the thing that bugs me the most of all about this.. is i really wanted to just hit and run.. i mean i could have easily done it..

i mean.. i'd always thought of myself as someone who wouldn't do something like that.. or even think of doing it.. i mean.. being the person i am.. having being brought up the way i have.. i would have never actually thought i'd consider it.. and even consider going back to get the note.. OMG.. seriously.. sometimes i surprise myself.. and not necessarily in a good way..

urgh.. now i definetly need to find a job .. to pay off that guy.. i dun even kno how much exactly that stupidity of mine is gonna cost..


frig.. i am so stupid sometimes.. i do the stupidest things sometimes.. man .. i seriously think that i should lock myself in a room sometimes.. to keep me from doing the incredibly stupid thigns that i do.. URGh

haha.. tonite just made me realize how stupid and blonde i can be sometimes..

i spent my last friday nite in toronto with some friends.. eating jap food @ taste of japan and watching constantine @ colossus

normally.. eating jap food with friends doesn't make me look like an idiot..but i went with some of my high skewl friends who hadn't tried teppanyaki b4.. so there i was with my friends.. and they asked me some typical questions when they're trying something new.. u kno.. like.. whats this food taste like?? how do you eat it?? etc. etc.. and i was so dumb.. i was like.. uh.. i dunno.. how do u hold chopsticks?? uh.. i dunno.. what do u mean u dun kno how to hold chopsticks?? ur chinese.. and ur.. uh holding chopsticks!!! haha.. i'm such a loser..

and then theres also.. oh.. sometimes they do these really kewl tricks that the chef guy sometimes does with your food.. oh really?? like what.. um.. they like uh.. u kno.. um.. do that burning thing.. burning thing?? what do u mean?? they burn your food?? ... yeah u kno.. they like burn it.. wait.. no.. whats it called.. whats what called??... they like.uh.i forget what its called.. torch ur food??set it on fire.. oh oh yeah.. thats it.. they set ur food on fire..

and to top it all of.. we went to see constantine rite.. and for those who've seen it.. theres a scene at the beggining where it shows these two guys in mexico.. and i dun what was wrong with me.. maybe it was the tiredness... or the extremely alcoholic strawberry daquiri @ taste of japan.. but i was sitting there looking at the screen.. and i said really loudly.. OMG what did happened to mexico?? and everybody at the theatre is just looking at me really weirdly.. i guess it doesn't make much sense.. but let me explain.. the scene shows this dilapidated town.. kinda.. like 2 poles and 2 crosses.. the building has like fallen apart. and all it says @ the bottom of the screen is "mexico".. so i'm like what happened to mexico? OMG is that what mexico looks like in the future?? and my friends are like.. uh.. sindy.. i think they mean just a part of mexico.. and i was like.. uh.. OH.. woops.. lets just say.. ppl @ the movies thought i was like psycho or something..

and for those who have seen constantine.. you'll kno that the movie is quite confusing.. and it doesn't really explain much.. so the whole entire movie.. i'm like huh?? what?? why did he die?? or like?? what happened to gabriel?? huh?? is he like in hell or something??

so yeah.. i spent my friday nite being a very ditzy dumb chinese gurl.. i will say that.. according to my high skewl friends.. i should have been born a blonde.. cuz i'm not exactly the brightest crayon in the box.. hehe

:P

ah.. its been a good few days so far since coming home from windsor...

friday: hung out with jo.. went to pacific.. went to mikes.. played some poker with ppl.. man i missed hanging out with ppl.. especially since some of them i dunt normally hang out with.. lots o fun :) got to see jess lam.. hadn't seen her in a long time too..


saturday: slept till like 4pm.. haha.. such a pig.. i hadn't shoveled the snow since i got back.. nor had it been shoveled since my parents left.. woopsee.. so matt came over and helped me:) yeah.. how is it, it took him only 20 mins to do my whole driveway when it normally takes 3 ppl 1hr to do it?? huh?? wuts going on there?? then went to korean bbq with d chris and matt.. haha.. now you're devirginized .. hehe.. glad u had fun.. mini golf.. haha.. i beat u all !!! wohoo!!! even tho we all cheated really bad.. except chris. ever so honest.. then demetres!!! woohoo.. i luv that place.. hmm strawberry waffles!!!

sunday: didn't up getting home like 2am .. so slept till like 11.. sorrie mcbc ppl.. missed seeing u guys b4 u all went back to skewl. my bad.. i promise i'll see u guys soon :)
had lunch with my aunt .... got to chat with her for a while.. yea :)
i miss having good chats

monday:didn't do much once again.. didn't wake up till 2pm.. was planing on not waking up till even later.. if not for a stupid visitor.. urgh.. y some ppl just wont give up.. and now i have a damn 2nd degree burn on my hand..
frig.. wont stop calling.. wont stop showing up.. wont stop messin up my life.. GIVE UP ALREADY!!!! geez..
went to medical centre to get burned checked out.. got oil change on my car.. and just hung out @ home..
went to have night snack with Cy.. happy 19th birthday.. boo urns.. all the english dessert places were closed.. :( oh well.. went to go for tea.. had a nice lil chat.. thanx.. haha.. ur still watching tv @ my house while i'm typin this :P

my plans for the rest of the week
tuesday: going to watch constantine with the windsor gurls.. just hanging out :)

wednesday: not much so far

thursday: possibly girls nite out with krystle and d

friday: gonna attempt to start on my ethics paper.. hmmm.. lets see if that actually ends up happening..

saturday: more working on paper.. maybe get together with some ppl..

sunday: leaving around 3ish for windsor.. the end of my reading week...

but i think i'm prolly coming home again in mid march.. :)

aah.. had the best weekend in the longest time....

went to london on thursday.. hung out with jo & the alma girls... and jo.. Sound of Music Is SO SO SO much better than stargate!!!! haha

friday morning.. went back to toronto... haha. mad funni.. mad snowing in london.. 2 seconds outside of london.. clear blue skies :) man gotta love the canadian weather.. saturday was lydia's bday so friday nite eveyrobdy was @ her house for a surprise bday party. aaww... gotta luv lyds!!!! haha.. she even has a blog now.. she finally conformed hehe..

happy 21st lydia!!!

saturday nite.. was lots of fun.. went to thai food by york with all the cds ppl.. me, d, chris, krystle, ariana, jason, leppo and frankie.. ariana was back!!! hadn't seen her in so long ... 2 years.. :)

went down to tonic afterwards. so much fun.. definetly need to do that afterwards..

sunday: drove bro to pacific .. hung out @ pacific with jo.. then watched nba all stars @ lydia's.. mad piggin out.. me and jo.. & the maxim cakes!!!! HAHA.. SUCH PIGGY WIGGYS..

monday: long long drive back into windsor all by myself.. even so.. this weekend has been lots of fun.. hung out with lots of ppl.. ppl i haven't seen in a long time :)

goign back into town again on thurday .. my reading week officiaily starts on the 28th.. :)

even tho this weekend has been so so so much fun.. there have been its bad moments..
saturday nite.. i acted out b4 thinking.. and now i feel so embarassed and stupid about it.. tho in some ways i shouldn't but in other ways i do... :(
its hard to explain.. but definetly feeing stupid rite now..

so you're prolly wondering one of 2 things:

1) why am i awake so early???

2) why haven't i gone to bed yet??

if u guess #2.. smart smart..haha.. i dun have an actual sleeping pattern anymore.. well i knda do.. but is screwed up.. i wake up everyday around 1pm.. and do stuff and wut not.. and go to bed at 5-6am every day..

haha..

so once again that time of the year came to pass... and by that i mean.. the official.. "singles awareness day"..
this year was actually suppose to be "valentines day" for me.. but bois are stupid.. haha..i dun mean all bois.. but some.. well most that i kno.. so once again.. ended being "singles day"..

hey.. but this years singles day was lots of fun..

had a bunch of the girls over.. made lots of food.. haha.. LOTS of food..

Menu:
italian wedding soup
tri-colour salad
garlic bread
pork chops
chicken steak
salmon steak
shrimp
rotini pasta.. (which was really screwed up.. something wrong with the pasta..ended up looking like dough.. :P)
veggies
valentines cupcakes
chocolate covered strawberries

all that food.. for 5 ppl.. hehe.. well was suppose to be 7.. but 2 coudln't make it..
and we managed to chomp it all down.. aside from the doughey pasta.. haha

it was fun.. just all girls.. made me think.. who needs bois?? haha..

whoever was it that said: you need boys in order to have fun on valentines day... YOU"RE SO WRONG!!!!!! haha..

valentines day is as good as n e other day to chill out with the friends :)

so .. going home soon.. thursday.. its not even my reading week.. its everybody elses but mine..
mine doesn't even start till the 28th of february.. but since everybody has theres this coming week.. thought i'd go home anyway..

so going to london thursday nite to meet up with jo.. then frankie is driving us out to toronto.. dinner plans & clubbing with cds peeps sat nite..
chill out and wut not till monday nite.
driving back into windsor.. got midterm tuesday nite..
participant in research on wednesday.. going back out to t.o prolly wednesday nite/thursday morning
and then my official reading week starts 2 days afterwards..

this reading week.. man got so much to catch up on.. ppl especially..
this RW will be great.. a good friend i haven't seen in 2 years is back in town!!! yeah!!! and parents are out of town!!! yeah!!! both are in hk.. so freedom, space and free stuff coming back!!! yeah..

haha


lastly.. its my babi cuz's bday today.. he turns 5!!!! yeah.. happy birthday Eric Jai!!!

haha.. my weird slanted strawberry

Feli & Manry .. Hmm yummi cupcakes

Manry, Danit & I

Me & the housemate Faith

Manry & Faith

I made my own choco strawberries !!! Yummi

Din Din with the Girls

Happy Valentine's Day! Won't You be My Valentine?

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You Are 15 Years Old

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man.. this totally suxs.. i bought 2 new fishes yesterday: Eddie & rupert.. Eddie was a pretty black goldfish.. this morning i wake up.. both Eddie & Brows (my other goldfish) were dead this morning.. so NOT kewl!!!. man what a shitty way to start a morning..

i had 4 yesterday: Brows, Flutter, Eddie & Rupert.. Now I only have Fluter & Rupert left.. boo urns..

Eddie, Rupert & Flutters

Eddie & Rupert

Another New Addition to Sindy's Fishy Land: Eddie

New Addition to Sindy's Fishy Land: Rupert

aaah.. chinese new year's is coming up.. less than 3 weeks!!!!

February 9th!!!!

i've only started realizing how much i loved holidays.. and the reason for that i think is...

i dun live @ home anymore.. holidays means that i get to go home & relax.. hang out with friends :)

well.. roomie faith and i went to Ming Li after fellowship tonite to buy groceries.. 11:30pm.. y so late u ask??
Ming Li gets fresh groceries every Friday at 11pm.. and u'd be surprised.. but a LOT of ppl wait for them to unload the groceries every friday.. its like a Chinese tradition in Windsor :P

so anyway.. as we were standing there unloading the groceries from the truck.. something struck my eye..
looking @ all the red boxes they were unloading. something fell out from the boxes... packets of "lai see" envelopes.. and looking @ them made me really miss home.. and really miss my mum and dad..

thinking about it.. i dun think i go home in enough.. i only go home once a month at most.. and i dun think i talk to my 'rents enough either.. the only reason i call them now is either to get $ or b/c i need something.. i haven't just called them to say hi and see they're doing in a long time.. i dun call them to tell them i miss them or that i luv them.. life being so hectic all the time.. i realize that i take a lot of things for granted.. :( i definetly need to make some phone calls

so we were @ the supermarket.. and faith n i decided that we were gonna do hot pot with our friend wynne.. and so the two of us like crazy girls went around buying so much food :P like $40 worth of food just for 3 ppl @ hotpot tommorow.. haha.

back to the chinese new years.. so we're looking round and something catches both our eyes @ the same time.. Chinese New Year Cake.. Lin Go!!!!! man.. these are my most FAVOURITE thing of chinese new years... well aside from the red pocket $$ hehe...

my thoughts for the day: missin home.. can't wait to go back... i need to stop takign everythign for granted and start appreciating.. :)

this weekend has the best weekend so far of this year :) .. aside from the week that it has only been 2 weeks into this year but anyhow..

i had visitors!!!! yeah..

it was NAIAS this week... North American Internaional Auto Show.. for those who dont kno..

high skewl buds came to visit.. yeah.. i got to meet bud's gf.... aww they are so cute.. and went to the car show.. awesome cars.. free stuff!! sweetnes!!!!

bf also came in from western for the weekend.. :P lots of fun.. hadn't seen him since boxing week.. went shopping.. movies.. and the most frightening thing of all!!! Meeting the Parents..!!!!! aaah

me being the fool that i was.. said all the wrong things and did all the wrong things.. man.. i must have come off as a really big dumbass with no manners...

luckily.. his parents didn't think that.. :) yea... his parents are actually really nice.. kinda reminded me of mine.. :) yeah thats a good thing...

so thats the jist of my weekend.. very eventful.. very memorable.. :)

why the similiarities are non-existent.. i look nothing like this.. wut happened?? 15 years and there is no resemblance whatsoever.. urgh

i luv it when i clean my room and i find old pictures or gifts.. well in this case its a picture.. 1987 my family christmas picture.. 17 years ago.. awww

cute ain't it?
celebrating my 3rd birthday with my siblings @ mei foo in hk.. we all look so different now.. man we should take a picture of the 3 of us.. and see the difference.. hehe

i'm done!!! all my exams..

je suis fini!!

sweetness.

home i come!!!!

see you all back there :)

Love & Hate of Exams

..exams make me grumpy
..exams make me sad
..exams make me mad
..exams make me frustated
..exams make me insane
..exams make me angry
..exams make me bitchy
..exams make me nervous
..exams make me anxious
..exams make me MOODY

..exams make me feel sick
..exams make my stomach pains worse
..exams make me OD on tylenol 3
..exams make me get the flu
..exams make my body ache all over
..exams make my shoulder & back hurt.. :(
..exams make my sleep patterns go wacked
..exams make me tired
..exams make me sleepy
..exams make me have to survive on 3 hr sleep daily
..exams make me OD on sleeping pills

..exams make me lose weight (in a bad way)
..exams make me gain weight .. how the losing + gaining @ the same time works?? is way beyond me!
..exams make me waste $ on eating out
..exams make me a can food addict
..exams make vegetables/fruit non-existent
..exams make me have junk food cravings
..exams make me my buy LOADS of junk food
..exams make me a Coca-Cola Addict

..exams make me messy
..exams make my room a pig sty
..exams make my closet a random mess
..exams make my already big stack of dirty laundry EVEN HUGER
..exams make my desk unorganized
..exams make my carpet stain filled
..exams make my pens go missing
..exams make my stack of dirty dishes as high as the ceiling
..exams make my room smell nasty
..exams make me LAZY
..exams make me forget to clean the fish tank (it really smells!! & the water is cloudy.. ewww )

..exams make me get bad marks
..exams make me fail
..exams make me feel insuperior
..exams make me dumb
..exams make me useless
..exams tell me i have no idea what i'm doing
..exams tell me i dunt know anything
..exams tell me i sux @ the oboe
..exams tell me i can't finger-pick on the guitar
..exams tell me i can't sight sing, sight read, or sight clap rhythms
..exams tell me im in the wrong program

..exams make me lose hope
..exams make me lose faith
..exams make me give up
..exams make me wanna be a drug addict
..exams make me wanna be an alcoholic

..exams make me miss home
..exams make me wanna go home
..exams make me miss home made food
..exams make me miss my friends
..exams make me antisocial
..exams make me miss going out on weekends


HOWEVER, on a brighter note

..exams mean i can go home soon
..exams mean i can go Christmas shopping soon
..exams mean the semester is so close to over
..exams mean the year is almost over
..exams mean CHRISTMAS is soon
..exams mean Christmas decorations
..exams mean Christmas gifts are arriving
..exams mean decorating the family Christmas tree
..exams mean Christmas Dinners are soon
..exams mean Christmas get-to-gethers are in less than 2 weeks
..exams mean fattening up on the yummy food soon

..exams mean New years is soon..exams mean New Years Celebrations!
..exams mean 2005 is less than 20 days away

..exams mean a new semester
..exams mean never taking those same courses again


man..the love & hate relationship of exams..i hate it when exams come.. but i'm so anxious and happy for them to be over

4 down.. 1 more to go

2pm train back to T.O on Saturday

Newmarket.. here i come
mommy & daddy.. here i come
home sweet home.. hopefully my fishie will find a home while i'm gone.. :(i hope they don't die :P


Christmas!!! I am anxiously awaiting your arrival!!!

cute lil candy snowmen ^.^

its beeen a while.. the last few weeks have been very confusing, yet also very enjoyable... strange yes .. i know

confusing: trying to rearrange my life.. straighthen things out. .figuring out what i've been doing wrong.. reprioritizng my activities..

i've had a sudden change in heart.. about many things.. i mean.. ive kinda tried to avoid certain things in my life.. just simply because i was afraid of what has happened, what might have happened, what would happen, what might happen.. and now that i look back on it.. sometimes i screwed up really badly.. and i didn't necessarily have to.. b/c of my fear, i couldn't see the logical answer..

and if i had.. i guess my life would have turned my differently.. i dunno whether for the better or for the worse tho.. i guess it doesn't really matter what the past is about.. a lot of things made me realise.. the past is the past.. ur mistakes in the past can't be changed.. u can however change how the future will be..

there are many things i kno that i need to work on:
having faith in myself
having faith in others
honesty
admitting that i'm wrong
dealing with $$$.. man i'm a chronic shop-a-holic.
relying on HIM
trusting HIM
having faith in HIM
loving HIM with all my heart
staying in the right path..
and the list could go on and on...

but on a brighter side..
life has been very enjoyable for the last little while.. at least in comparison to b4..

in so many ways.. ive realized that i've been blessed..
with a great family ^.^
with amazing friends :P
opportunities to DIE for!
just having "things".. basic necessities.. i realized how fortunate that i've been just to be able to grow up in the environment that i did. having food and clothing and water.. technology.. transportation.. loving family.. relatively healthy body with no serious medical problems or diseases.. I'm Grateful...

and i can't even tell u how long its been since i've felt that way.. i've always thought.. its not fair.. life is unfair.. y can some ppl live the perfect life.. have everything.. and why couldn't i have it?
why couldn't i have this?? and why couldn't i have that.. i always wanted more..

and i mean i still think that life's unfair and wut not.. but i've kind of learned to appreciate the things i have..

many times.. u dun realize how privileged u are.. until u see what life would be like otherwise... and its kinda sad that we only realize it afterwards.. but at least we do.. so i'm very grateful for everything that i have.. and i dun think i would trade it for anything..

ah.. so this past weekend.. awesome i say.. sweetness.. lots of fun.. was longer than expected.. even better..

thursday: both profs for the day were away.. so no classes.. took 5pm train into london.. had dinner with jo & her housemates.. went out for the night w/frankie.. saw james.. meet their housemates.. fun fun :)

friday: went to the nerdy music classes with elise :), then lcbo with jo.. haha.. good nite.. drinking.. and german ppl!! hehe.. sorrie for falling asleep.. went out to G.T's on richmond with alexa, andrea, and jo.. was fun. well except for the creepy asian dude.. haha

saturday: i woke up early again!!! 2 weeks in a row!!! mad shopping @ birch run.. met some pretty kewl western ppl.. OLDIES all the way!!! bought some new gear.. sweetness

3 new shirts
new pink tongue twisters by kswiss!! baby!!
some christmas gifts for ppl
man.. mad cheapness @ bath & body works
mad cheapness @ aeropostale
mad cheapness @ reeboks

dinner @ big boys.. haha.. mad oldies for 2 hours on the way home!! woohoo!! man i miss the oldies.. thanx.

sunday: slept in.. breakfast with the "alma" girls.. minus sarah..add layla.. fun fun.. good food.. cheap tho.. :) very happy

so good weekend :)

HOLY FUCK!!! i fuckin hate bell mobility!!!

they fuckin stole $101 from my account w/o my approval!! i had never ever signed up for pre-authorized payment with them!!! and they just stole it!!! they didn't even fuckin send me a bill for the $101!
FUCKIN BELL!!!

i swear.. bell business office is gonna get one hell of a beating tommorow morning!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!
the $ in my account.. i needed to pay stuff tommorow too!!!

FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK

aah.. this wkend.. tho short.. and not as expected.. was still great :)

friday:

stupid damn ass train got in 45 mins late.. oh well..
korean bbq with 'rents.. yummi :P haven't had that since hk
dropped of @ mcbc
went to demetres with jo, cheryl, guy, peter, garway and tim.. hmmm.. yummi crepes.. thanx for coming out
went back to jo's house.. raptors game & pigging out.. ewww dessert alcohol.. gross!!!

saturday:

believe it or not.. i woke up @ 9am on a SATURDAY morning!!! ha!.
went to vaughan mills with jo and her mom..
meet up with my mom at 11ish

shopped around till around 4.. bought lots of goodies :) new roxy jacket, 2 sweatshirts, 1 sweater (pink) hehe, pants, pjs, skirt

afternoon tea with my mommie.. got my hair cut short.. wanna see??

drove mom 2 church.. picked up there by d and chris... got a pretty necklace.. wanna see?

went to pizza hut.. yummie

drove around till lepp got off work..

went to an interesting choice of destination... haha.. saw lepp make a fool of himself in the midst of about 50-60 strange men.. and like 10 women.. (thanx d & lepp for the drinks, & chris for just staying there :P )

went home

sunday:

woke up .. had bkfast with my mommi.. went to mcbc with her..
lunch with mom, dad, uncle joseph and auntie rosetta..
costco.. yeah i'm a costco member now!! haha
cell phone fixd...

OMG!!! i luv chinese stores & their discounts!!!!

went to fmp.. was gonna buy a new cell.. but then saw one of the stores had repair service.. so decided to check that out.. man.. $30 and my cell phone is now officially fixed and workign!!! ha! props to chinese ppl and their cheap prices!!!

compare $30 @ chinese place.. and over $100 with rogers techs.. boo urns on rogers

train home..

so i had a pretty good wkend.. cant wait till the next one @ western..

too tired to blog all bout this weekend.. 2 highlights

1. Demetres

2. Lepp making a fool of himself in public!!! "strip"

will blog more later..stay tuned

good morning.. good morning..

y the sudden jolly mood?? well..

its my day of legalization after all.. ha!! i'm finally 19
and continuing with tradition.. well at least from last year...

props to:

momi & daddi
ivan
miranda
tiff
maddie
tamara
6e
LL
Aimee
Sarah
Melissa
Faith
Sam
Jo
Leppo


i'm very excited this weekend.. hehe.. can't wait ... this weekend and next.. loads of fun

heres the lowdown..

friday: train home @ 2pm.. dinner with 'rents.. out with jo, and some mcbc'ers
saturday: shopping with mom..haircut.... dinner with mom.. out with leppo and cds ppl
sunday: mcbc.. lunch with ???... out for some fun with the fobbers.. 7pm train back to the ghetto

next weekend:
friday: train to western @ 2pm.. either dinner with cds western fellas.. out with them after?? or shopping in states with jo, sam & their friends
saturday: out with jo and sam.. man i missing them.. haven't seem sammi since summer
sunday: out with jo and sam... train back to the ghetto at 7pm

itll be fun :)
fun i desperately need..
i'll take pics and load later

Happy 19th Birthday to Me!!!!!

i have this new blog thing.. its just a place for me to randomly pictures.. things i'm feeling.. things i'm missing.. and wut not.

My Life Thru Visuals


basically its a photo blog...

Flutters & Brows again 

Flutter 

Flutters & Brows 

Countdown!!!!!!

5 days!!! wee!! i'm so excited..

5 days till:

1) i'm legal to drink
2) i'm legal to buy cigarettes
3) i'm legal to gamble in casinos
4) i'm legal to go clubbing..
5) no more worrying about using fake id
6) my 1st legal hangover in windsor

6 days till:

1) my 1st legal hangover in t.o
2) going shopping for winter gear

12 days till:

1) my 1st legal drinking esponage @ western
2) my 1st legal hangover in western
3) a good weekend.. courtesy of jo & sam
4) my tattoo!!! wee... i'm so excited about this.. yet freaked.. its gonna hurt.. and i'm scared of pain.. but thats ok.. i'll have to deal

but unfortanetly... b4 i get to do all of these things.. i gotta deal with a test on friday!!! the one day of importance!! a test!!! boo urns!! it better not spoil my day!!

enuf with the whole lovey dovey backgrounds... i'm so past that now..
thought i'd go back to my own and only original love.. of jay chou.. ha!

surprisingly .. he looks pretty good in the pic.. thats pretty odd.. jay is not exactly a good lookin fella... but he's very "cool".. "yau ying"..

i luv his musik and his image matches that of it..
so yeah..
enjoy

so i'm sitting here at 3:22 AM ... unable to sleep.. just like every other night this week.. well except for last nite...

i dunno even kno y this whole insomnia thing is.. its not like i'm really busy or anything..

every night i find myself @ the same place... wanting to fall asleep b/c my body physically is tired.. i'm yawning.. and my eyes are starting to shut..so i change and get ready for bed.. i'd lie in my bed for 30-45 mins w/o no avail.. not being able to sleep.. i've tried so many different things too.. more blankets.. less blankets.. heat.. no heat.. music.. no music.. lights.. no lights.. warm milk.. warm tea.. lots of different things.. even sleeping pills.. and i'm still stuck..
i dun end up being able to fall asleep usually till like 4am..

man..major suckage.. i wanna sleep.. i have early classes that i actually have to go to.. and i can never wake up for them.. i sleep rite thru my alarm clocks.. and i have 4!!!!!! 4 different ones that go off in 5 minute intervals... I DUNT HEAR ANY!!!!!!

i need to go see a doctor or something..


and then i set my clock to wake up at say like

so it ends up.. i HAFTA get a new cell phone..

my motorola c350 decided to break down on me.. wont even turn on.. went to ask rogers..
my warranty is over.. so

i have 4 options...

1) get it fixed.. $25 labour fee just to see whats wrong with it.. plus like $50 -$100 to get it actually fixe

2) cancel service.. $200

3) preupgrade.. $100 to upgrade.. plus $27-$87 to buy the phone

4) buy a new cell phone on my own and use my sim card..

now the first 3 options make no sense to do.. so #4 it is..

i now need to find a good cell to actually buy w/o having to spend too much $.. i'm definetly low rite now.. i need a job.. but nobody wants to hire me.. :(


all the ones that i wanted are too expensive

anybody got any cell phone suggestions for me??

aah.. my week's been going good so far.. yeah

parents came to visit.. then got some extra $$$
went shopping yesterday.. bought new jeans.. new sweater.. aah and best of all

"NEW FOSSIL WATCH!"
mad cheap too.. only like $45
yeah!!

went & bought aimee's 20th b-day present.. as well as finish off felicity's 17th b-day present.. kinda a lil late. woops

on the bad side.. boohoo.. i can't seem to find my reciept. i cant get my MD fixed.. urgh

and its gonna cost $60 just to bring my cell phone in to see what's wrong with it.. and then i'll prolly cost more to fix it.. so annoying...

but anyhow.. been a good week so far..
have 1 midterm, 1proposal, 1 test due this week.. not too bad

aaah!!! its so nice to have visitors!!! unexpected ones tooo!!!!! yeah


i luv my mommi & daddi

i'd had a good saturday so far.. woke up..went to worship pratice.. went home.. had rehearsal with accompanist.. went home..
was just gonna check with my dad about $ for nov.. so i called him.. and they said they're almost here..

almost here?? huh?? turns out.. they decided to make a surprise trip here!! weee!!! i'd previously email them cuz my monitor was going crazy.. making really high pitched annoying sounds.. so i was gonna go home and buy a new home during b-day weekend.. hehe no need now..

they went and bought me one already!! yeah

they bought food for me tooo!! my fav.. Sweet and sour pork!! wontons!!! weee

i hadn't seen my mommi in SOOOO long.. since august 31!!!!

so we spent some quality chatting time .. while my daddi slept.. hehe.. long 4 hr drive..

then grocery shopping!!! yeah.. me no pay for groceries for next week!!! yeah!!!

then dinner.. woohoo.. free food and no cooking!! even better

oh to top it all off.. early b-day present from HK..

1. Burberry scarf!!! i luv my auntie 3
2. Shu Uemaru makeup.. i luv my auntie jenny
3. Perfume.. woohoo
4. $$$ ... who can ever have too much?? no one.. especially not me!!

so as u can see.. my avg saturday.. has just become an AMAZING saturday!!! i just hope this continues for the rest of the day...

something that made my day

I can't wait till 2005 and INITIAL D comes out!!!

check this out..

Initial D

Jay Chou
Edison Chen
Shawn Yue
Jordan Chan

4 of my fav singers/actors in the same movie!! how great will that be!!

in regards to dealing with things.. how long is considered too long?
i mean dealing with ppl, relationships... moving on with ppl.. trying to forget about a previous relationship or things like that.. is 2 months too long a time, too short a time or about rite?? i think that 2 months is a rather long time.. and i think that its more than sufficient to deal.. especially if you don't see or talk to the person.. and u just move on.. am i so wrong to think that??

i kno ur reading this.. so pleaz move on... its been a while..and im flattered that u feel that its worth contemplating.. but as we've talked about b4... i've made my decision..please respect that..i thought u had done so too..but i guess u haven't..i'm sorry again for this.. i didn't want it to be like this.. i really didn't.. but things wont get better b/w us unless we both move on...

and in regards to the small world thing

one equation:

best friend + ex-bf = engaged

best friend who i've known since i was 4 who lives on other side of world.. meets ex bf who i dated for a year on some website.. and one two three BOOM and they're engaged.. haha.. funny eh??