I was searching for some quotes. for a paper of mine.. some of these are really good

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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.


Mother Teresa

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"The future belongs to those
who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

Eleanor Roosevelt

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It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look. To affect the quality of the day - that is the highest of arts. - Henry David Thoreau

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"Friends are those people who know the words to the song in your heart and sing them back to you when you have forgotten the words." (Anonymous)

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i kno another really good one about.. picking ur path in life. but i can't remember.. it was my in graduating blurb .. something about the path that others take.. something about creating your own path..

i dunno

so i was sitting here.. and kinda bored.. with the winnie the pooh layout..

1st- just cuz..
2nd- hard to read the words
3rd- wanted a song with something

so i went searching.. and they didn't have any good "music" skins.. that i liked aside from this one.. its hikaru utadu.. i like her songs.. so it works out good

so this is gonna be my new layout.. at least for a lil while.. one of my friends here.. is really good with html.. so i mite be able to find a good layout.. that i will be quite happy with.. that i won't have to change ever again..

so yeah.. lates

kinda forgot to blog about this earlier.. so yeah..
my W.E concert.. was amazing..!!!
i was kinda worried about it before. knowing me.. i feared the worst.. that i was gonna screw up my parts.. and make some really ugly duck noises.. but i did good.. no ugly duck noises.. no playing wrong notes.. everything came together.. great.. amazing!!! woohoo!!! so proud of myself..

it was kinda kewl having mom n dad come to hear the concert.. i appreciated.. they drove the 4 hours just to hear it.... and then they had dinner with me.. and then went home.. i mean.. a whole day just to come.. was so great.. it felt kinda nice to have them there.. just to kno.. someone came to support me.. cuz i kno some ppl didn't anybody there.. it was a great feeling.. just knowin..


we played a few diff pieces that day..

holtz - 2nd suite
cichy-bugs
grainger - ye old banks
grainger- faroe island dance
whitacre - noisy wheels of joy
old churches.. forget the composer
old comrades.. forget the composer

was great... we have our next performance nov 21..

we're playing some interesting, yet disonant pieces.. waking angels for example.. omg.. i swear u could play all the wrong notes.. and at the wrong beats .. and no one would even notice.. this piece.. features the ugliest notes on every instrument possible..
so weird.. but i mean.. thats 20th century music for ya..

so yeah..

today.. was AMAZING!!! i swear it was.. went to windsor symphony.. omg.. so good..

alrite.. at first.. i thought windsor symphony.. can't be any good.. rite? i mean in comparison to tso?? i mean tso is world reknowed.. and wut not.. but wso.. is just as good.. well not really.. but they're pretty good.. for the size that they are..

tonites perfomance was

Brent Lee - voca me cum benedictis (World Premiere)

Rachmaninov- Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini

Berlioz- Symphonie fantastique


and the cool thing was.. well there were 2 cool things.. one.. 3rd movement of berlioz.. beautiful.. absolutely amazing.. english horn and oboe duet solo thing.. amazing..
2nd cool thing.. brent lee.. well actually dr.brent lee... he's my theory prof.. which is really cool.. cuz i've never met anyone who's composed an orchestral piece and had it performed by a symphony before.. amazing.. so kewl.. anyhow.. he's the new composer in residence for windsor.. which is another kewl thing.. cuz normally only big symphony orchestras have composer in residence's.. not small ones.. which i mean.. is a big stepping stone.. they're getting there..

Lee's Piece.. was really good.. it was orchestrated perfectly.. a wide display of the different instruments.. was really beautiful.. i really enjoyed it..

berlioz.. amazing!!!! just amazing!!!

Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini - the solo pianist.. was incredible.. and the kewl thing.. he's my age.. studying music at juillard.. what i would give.. to be that amazing on the piano.. omg.. so good!!! his music was so emotional.. so touching.. incredible!!!

and it was really fun to get to go with all the music ppl.. lots of ppl from the school of music was there...

aimee - french horn
jenna - french horn
lauralei - trumpet
colin - trumpet
me- queen of the oboe
graeme - trombone
matt - tuba
katie- clarinet
vanessa -percussion
jenn-clarinet
dan- trombone/piano
trevor - the tuba guy
robynne - flute/piccolo


and a whole lot of other ppl.. most of them upper years.. so dun really know them that well.. but yea

was so much fun.. and the tickets.. mad cheap..

robynne and i were sitting lower floor, W10-W11.. and the tickets were $15.. no tax.. no nothing.. so good.. there were seats at cheap as $6.. but they were like mad up front.. had to look up at the orchestra.. not really good.. but i mean.. $15 for pretty good seats.. Yeaa!!!

and i think i'm probs gonna go back for a few times too.. they're lots of good things being performed.. dido and aneas.. romeo and juliet.. halloween pops.. mad kewl

so yeah
another kewl thing about the symphony...

when we were waiting for the taxi.. outside cleary international centre.. i saw a
LAMBORGHINI!!!!!!

so kewl.. i haven't seen one in so long.. it was a brand new one.. mad nice!!! AAAH!!!!! so amazing.. just a great day


only bad thing..

i woke up at 10:30.. hoping to get some of my hwk done.. and i ended up chatting and playing games.. watching tv episodes.. on my comp.. didn't do anythign.. well .. one thing.. but compared to what i had planned.. my bad!!!

here's wut i have to do for monday

1) article summary (3pages or so)
2) article summary (3pages or so)
3) Ames Room Lab (1 page)
4) Study for Basic Skills Test
5) Budgeting for Dad
6) Theory Assignment


so much stuff.. not even funnie.. considering the article summaries will take me 1 hr each.. the lab.. 1/2 hr.. study for 1 hr.. budgeting takes a 1/2 hr.. theory assignment.. anywhere between 1 hr.. to 3 hrs.. thats like wut?

7 hours of work.. yikes!!!

i'm so screwed.. looks like its an all nighter for me tommorow..



another exciting thing

my w.e concert is tommorow.. woohoo!!! W.E being wind ensemble.. our first performance together tommorow at 3pm.. it'll be fun.. i'm hoping i won't screw up.. there's lil parts.. where i play lil solos.. or the oboe is extrememly exposed.. and i've been having lil probs with it.. i can play it fine.. by myself.. when praticing.. but in the midst of all my bandmates.. i screw up.. i dun kno why.. but yeah

on that note.. sleep would be good.. wouldn't wanna fall asleep tommorow on stage.. . lates

man.. that was one short thanksgiving weekend.. incredibly short.. it ended up being not half as good as i would have hoped.. here's why..

friday nite: bunch of ppl going out.. once again.. no body knows who's going .. or going where? what time?? honestly.. they never plan these things.. they just expect someone to just do it for them.. it wasn't going to me.. i'm sorrie.. i've had enough of it.. oh and to make it worse.. where did they did decide to go... on a friday nite? at 10:30pm.. Mickey D"s!!!! who the hell decides to go to mickey d's on a friday nite.. with like 15 other ppl?? who?? ugh...

saturday nite: kinda was hoping that this nite would be more fun than the nite before.. kinda was.. but kinda wasn't either.. went out to boston pizza with d, chris, shay, jason, frankie.. that was fun.. loitered in the parking lot.. chilling.. that was fun too.. went over to d's cuz's house party.. personally.. i'm not much for hanging out with 29 year old strangers.. especially when they're all high and shit.. but i mean.. it was hanging out with d, and all the guys.. so it was ok.. it could have been worse...

sunday: was the one actual good nite.. not amazing.. but at least wasn't too screwed up.. went to outback with auntie eva, uncle tam, nicolas, mom, dad, ivan... that was fun.. man.. i hadn't eaten so much in one day!!!!!! cocount shrimp, bloomin onion, calamari, grilled shrimip, 8oz steak, potatoes, and like 20 cups of ice tea.. man.. my stomach started to hurt.. too much food.. went back to auntie evas.. play majhong.. fun fun.. hadn't done that in a while.. and then went home early to chill with mom...and miranada and ivan.. not my bro ivan... other ivan.. sis' bf... ivan.. bought over their dog.. lang meu.. such a cutie.. aaw.. she sloppers all over u.. but she's loads of fun

monday: went to teppanyaki at taste of japan... with family.. and 6e and elaine.. that was fun.. hadn't had teppanyaki ina while other.. i've been to taste of japan.. last time was jo, tiff, jess lam., and i.. mad eating that day too..

but i mean.. my weekend was relatively boring.. and not exciting.. didn't really get to hang out with ppl i really wanted to.. and when we did hang out.. it was screwed up by stupid bois.. ugh!!!!!

wowo this is cool!! i'm going home at 1:30 pm.. yeah.. just 12 more hours to go!! woo hoo.. oh this is kinda kewl..

www.luradio.ca

my bud jay from high skewl is a dj on this.. lakehead radio.. on thursday nite.. from 12-2 am.. just u kno.. if ur awake then. its kewl.. he sounds much different on the radio.. than on the radio.. in his words.. "sexy".. ha

so i'm going home tommorow.. watch t.o

look out big old badie. Sindy.. woOO Wooo!!!!

ha.. its 1:32 in the am.. and i'm going crazy.. too many drinks.. i swear.. man.. gotta go to bed.. have class tommorow.. and wut not.. so yeah.. chilz

goodbye windsor.. see u soon t.o

so today.. had my last midterm for now.. theory.. wasn't actually that bad... so glad i'm done!!! woohoo!!! yeah.. haha sux to be the ppl who still have midterms.. haha.. laugh at u.. all of u.. hehe...

so two more days till i go home for thanksgiving.. can't wait!!!! get to see all these ppl again.. will be so much fun!!! have a whole list of stuff to do!!!

Friday nite:
-go home around 5:15..
-go shopping for care package with sammi
-go dinner with sammi
-go out with jer, sammi, jo, jon, joyce, edgar, and whoever else
-sleep till i can't sleep no more

Saturday
-10:00 go dt. shopping for oboe supplies with mommi
-lunchtime.. with mommie.. yeah!!!
-go to doctors.. with mommie.. yeah
-afternoon go shopping for clothes w/mommi
-nite.. go out with skewlers.. woohoo!!!! no mini putt.. plz!!!!!

Sunday
-go to church
-have lunch with ppl.. maybe family.. maybe church ppl?? dunno yet
-thanksgiving dinner with auntie eva.. yeah pool.. yeah tennis!!!!!

Monday
-dun wake up till late
-thanksgiving lunch with 6e and elaine.. and TOTO!!!!! woo hoo.. i luv toto
-7:05 train to Windsor...


wowow.. my weekend is jammed pack with lots of fun activities.. yeah..
anyhow.. its 12:30.. gotta go

oh.. last thing..
check out the link to my test.. please do it!! its fun..

Props to peter!! he got the highest score!!! Tiss tiss on everybody else. they all failed!!!

its been a good day so far.. not much exciting but still fun.. woke up nice n earli.. went to worship.. i kinda feel bad.. i was so tired today.. i got home at like 1... was online till lik 230.. and then went ot bed.. had to wake up at 8.. so didn't get much sleep.. *yawn*... anyhow.. went to worship.. slept thru most of it.. and then went back to dorm.. i was just chillin.. talking to some ppl.. praticed the guitar till around 1.. went to buffet windsor.. with church ppl.. was fun.. didn't eat that much.. buffet food is never very appetizing.. so after that.. went back to res.. thats was 3 pm.. played some guitar.. downloaded some tab/chords for some cool songs.. "we all live in a yellow submarine.. yellow submarine.. yellow submarine." great song.. anyhow.. 5.. i get a call.. to go play ball/badminton... i was like.. ok.. fun fun.. went with some church ppl.. st.denis athletic center.. played badminton with pauleen.. and a yan.. and victor.. and some other guy.. dunno his name... woops... and then i played bball for a while.. just shootin n stuff.. didn't play with the guys.. cuz i never play with guys...

a typical bballin boi is the biggest hog.. and just completely ignores u.. i hate that.. its like.. girls can ball too.. and sometimes even better than the bois.... they think they're so amazing.. and then they're ignore on the court.. never pass the ball to u.. even if you're wide open and are gonna to make the shot.. 100%... its so stupid.. urgh.. im just sayin.. this is the typical guy.. so i didn't play...

it was kinda sweet.. just praticing my shots.. not having played for like 1 year. and then played today.. i got quite some many 3 pointers in. kinda sweet.. i think the two guys who were shootin there were kinda surprised too.. me.. short n out of shape lil girl.. who doesn't look like she can play at all.. gets 3 pointers in.. and not just lucky shots.. they were sweet swish.. so yeah.. it ended off on a good note..

tommorow.. class test in basic skills.. 930.. bright n early.. should be fun.. :)
and then midterm .. for theory.. for wednesday
n then friday!! Home time!!! i get to see everybody.. sammi.. and jo.. and jess.. and jess. .n amanda.. n lydia.. n jer.. n peter.. n rachel.. n jon.. n joyce.. n everybody else too.. woo hoo should be lots of fun!!

had a good day today...there was this amazing music therapy worksite.. omg!!! you don't understand.. it was amazing.. i just saw there in awe.. and like.. omg!!! so amazing.. i kno.. this is what i'm meant to do.. when the guest speaker.. amber.. just talked about passion and how there was this great feeling when u kno.. u've touched a lil's one heart.. when everybody else abandons them.. u try your hardest to try to move them.. even its just one lil step.. a smile.. a clap.. anything.. there's this overwhelming feeling.. and its amazing.. I know.. i doubted.. whether this was the rite thing for me.. and i kno.. i just kno.. its hard to explain.. it just overwhelmed today.. by how touching it can be.. and when she described what its like .. i imagined myself there.. in that school.. helping those children.. participatin in the activities she taught us.. I know!!!

went to lunch with some of the girls.. and was fun.. then did a lil bit of praticing.. i admit.. i haven't really praticed all that much these last 2 weeks.. cuz of the stupid stones.. but it was fun.. elizabeth.. taught me this new uh.. ombiture .. and its kewl... i have to pratice whistling.. thats how i get a good ombiture..

went to belle air.. they have the book!!!! i've been looking for this book forever.. not even gary's downtown had it.. and stupid oboe stores on internet.. nope.. but belle air.. yup

"The Oboist's Concert Album" Compiled and Revised by Albert J.Andraud..

great book.. all the most famous oboe solos and excerpts all compiled into one book.. i used it for my auditions.. and i kept on trying to find one.. cuz i couldn't take wendy's so.. yeah i found it now.. and it was only like $20 bucks.. or so.. including tax.. but hey.. there's always tax... bought some new pics.. they're pink!!! yeah..

went to the mall with lauralei, aimee, sarah and ashley.. bought a pair of black pants for wind ensemble from old navy.. a pair of cord from gap.. i swear.. its been a long time since i shopped at gap... dirty girl lip balm from green earth.. a roxy top.. !!!! yeah.. roxy..

went to walmart... bought some glow in the dark halloween stickers.. gonna decorate the room.. and new nail polish.. i swear.. i ahven't bought any in a while..

then went to dinner with norris and jeff.. was fun..

i still gotta study for theory midterm.. its wednesday.. and basic skills test on monday.. at 930... and then friday!!! going home!!! yeah.. can't wait.. i'll get to see sam and jo.. and jer.. and jon.. and rachel.. and joyce.. and cheryl.. and jess lam.. and all my skewlers.. oh.. gonna be great.. can't wait!!!! woohoo...

on the topic of midterms..yesterday was psyc.. i kinda screwed up a lot on it.. i didn't really answer one of the 10 mark essay questions.. and im pretty sure i got quite a good # of m/c questions wrong too.. im pretty sure i passed.. but its definetly not gonna be a 90 or anything... so now.. gotta study nice and hard in hopes of pulling that mark up..

latz

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

lates

starting today on a happier note.. i'm trying to figure out whether i should do 40 days with wcbc.. i mean.. at mcbc.. i never did it.. b/c i was all not liking mcbc ... but i mean here.. i'm finding my place.. my belonging.. and in a way.. i feel like i'm being called back to the father.. in the last few years.. ive drifted.. first only a lil bit.. to completely shunning him out of my life.. first it was only skipping sunday school every so often after worship.. to completely not goin to koinonia.. to not even goign to sunday school and occassionaly goign to worship.. at least only when my parents are home.. and even rejecting words of prayer. words of worship.. anything that had anything to do with the christian faith..

in the last 3 years.. i've gone to the extreme.. i've done everything he's told me not to.. and my excuse for doing it.. was i wanted to enjoy life while i still could.. but someone told me that was no reason/excuse to live the way i was.. i didn't listen.. and at moments i even dreaded their conversations.. but now.. i guess i wanna say thanks.. to trying to help me.. even tho i tried to push them away..

they could have chosen to give up on me.. leave me to be. but yet they stuck with me.. challenging me... helping me to find my way back .. and i really do appreciate.. the things.. and at moments then.. i may have said things i shouldn't.. done things i shouldn't.. and i kinda regret the things..

i admit.. there are still questions.. that are unanswered for me.. but at least.. i've gone to the point.. where i realized that i had to turn back.. i realized my mistakes.. and i kno..

thats why.. at this moment.. i'm stopping.. and i'm turning back.. i've reached the big stop..

along the way there have been ppl.. who helped me.. and i believe this is the time to say thanks..

orange
tiff
jess lam
sam
jo
peter
cy
jon wong

i just wanna say thanks.. its greatly appreciated for all the help that you've given me..

thank you.. from the bottom of my heart..

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

lates

so life is finally starting to be hectic.. with tests and work... and reading.. a chapter a week.. for music therapy and pysc... gonna go crazie... he..

but uh.. i went home on the weekend.. it was interesting.. to see how things had changed in the last 3 weeks.. kinda felt out of place.. tho.. kind like.. everything was happening.. and i was just looking from the position of a bystander.. plus nobody went home.. sammi and jo were originally gonna go.. but no.. they all decided to ditch me.. they sux.. ha

jks... yea.. i went back and cut my hair..my hair is quite short now.. ah yeah... i miss my hair already.. i've never had my hair that long for such a long time tho... it was getting kinda shabby..a nd plus.. one disadv. of working at wonderland.. for games.. u stand in the sun for 8 hours a day.. the sun shining on ur hair.. my hair was so sun bleached. my ends of the tips were honest to god... yellow... disgusting...

returned to life at windsor.. gonna be here till thanksgiving.. really looking forward to thanksgiving... cuz everyone is gonna be back.. everyone.. even jer... so we're all gonna get together.. that should be loads of fun

have class. latz

so its been the end of the 2nd week.. and as i am finally adjusting to life here... i realize.. im leaving next weekend.. i'm going back for the weekend.. to hang with d and chris.. and all my younger friends.. the 'rents' and who ever else is there as well...

its kinda freaky.. i never thought that this moment would come.. cuz i'm in university!!!! how freaky is that??

main thing to blog about would probs me.. my sudden change in opinion about religion.. i realized.. that i didn't hate religion... at least not as much as i use to think i did.. i realize it was the bad memories at mcbc that made me so awkward.. and so pessimistic about it all.. but i mean ppl at wcbc.. windsor chinese baptist church.. are so not like mcbc.. they're genuinely nice and i feel at hoem with them

i met some new ppl when i went to fellowship on friday.. i admit it was a lil strange.. cuz it is a dominantly chinese/cantonese fellowship.. and i've always gone to koinionia which is english..

and after fellowshiop.. we had noodles and stuff.. played some ball.. they're not ball hogs.. liek some ppl i know.. ha.. and when we got back.. i was talking to two guys that i met that night.. they live in building beside me.. and it was pretty cool.. everybody's so nice.. and i feel like i'm pretty good friends with a lot of ppl already!!

so yeah.. thats all i gotta. say..

so far not too much hwk n stuff.. but that probs will change in the next week or so.. cuz midterms are 1st week of october... gonna die then...

latz

Happy Mid -Autumn Festival ppl.. Time to eat some mooncake.. i'm glad i have some in dorm.. sweet deal.. not much to say.. but enjoying life so far..
hope u all are too

latz

so its been like a whole week.. and i have to admit.. i'm actually enjoying it here.. i admit.. i tried to not enjoy my time.. that way i wouldn't feel guilty for transferring next year... but ppl that i've met here are amazing.. i feel like that i've known them for a long time.. they're great friends... and we all share a common bond... MUSIC!!! which is really cool.. my roomate is not some psychopathic killer.. which is really kewl.. she's quite nice and we talk a lil about stuff... i'm glad for that too...

but there is a sad part to this all.. i miss all of my friends..i miss all the cds'ers i miss them all so much..

all my music buddies: i expect to turn around and see them... I want to make stupid music jokes with you guys.. i miss having u guys in my band...

d: i miss having you in my class... I miss not being able to pass notes to u in calc class.. I miss our daily lunches in the hummer....

sarah: i miss those daily lunches.. i miss the philosophy classes...

chris: I miss your lil comments.. i miss having u and d around all the time

to the 'bones': i miss having ur obnoxious trombone noices in my band class.. i miss having u guys around

elise: i miss sharing those lil music moments.. i miss being able to ask u questions when i don't understand

sterney: i miss ur ultimate "blondness"... i miss having u around to brighten up the day..

colting: i miss being able to annoy u... i miss having u to make me feel better

cap: i miss ahving ur smartness around.. i miss ur funnie stories...

i miss u all so greatly... u wouldn't believe.. and its hard.. because i know that we'll never be exactly the same.. thigns won't ever be exactly the way they use it... and i miss that.. b/c things were great then.. nothing will ever beat that.. and its hard .. b/c its all a thing in the past.. and tho we will still remain friends.. we're all separated by the many miles b/w us... and we're all starting a new chapter in our life.. we're moving on.. to better thigns.. and to new opportunities.. new friends...

sigh


i miss u all..

first nite was okay... i went out to dinner with sean, paul, winnie, auntie sarah and uncle brian.... it was good.... talking with auntie sarah made me realized... wow... i am actually starting this new chapter... and i dunno.. i still dun think i'm ready for it... i mean i've had the whole summer.. but it just doesn't feel rite.... but maybe by thursday.. when school starts.... i'lll know....so i dunno..... we have faculty-program orientation thingy majing... today.. so i'll get to know all my program buddies.... boo hooo... no more elise to be my music buddie!!! *sob sob*... but was talking to some ppl on msn today.. they seemed pretty happie with where they are now... so thats good... i dunno.. i haven't quite adapted... quite yet... so it'll take me a while.. but yeah... not much to say.. cuz it is 8:40 in the morning.... not quite awake yet... i'll update again later... when i'm incredibly bored... latz

so i officially started my first day at dorm.... it was so incredibly boring... like you wouldn't believe.....i have no internet until sunday... untill sunday!!!! i swear i'm gonna die.. and i was suppose to get a DVD drive.. but for some odd reason.. Future Shop ran out!!! they ran out!!! can u believe that??? ugh.. i'm gonna die now.. i swear i will.... anyhow... um.. so i moved in yesterday... my room is all clean and organized as of rite now.. it won't be for long tho... ha...
i met my roomate too.. she was nice.. her name's tracy.. i was so afraid.. before.. that i was gonna get some creepy pyschopath... but i'm ok now.. she seems really nice.. and like a good study person.. u know what i mean..
i put up pictures on my wall.. but i realized tha i didn't bring enuf...half my wall is empty.. so i need to get/take more pictures when i come out.... that is on the 20th.. i think... for now at least... i dunno.. might change laterr.. i'll have to see about that...

anyhow.. oh...

two b-day shoutz...


Happy b-day to you..
Happy b-day to you...
Happy b-day dear Rachels
Happy b-day to you...

its Rachel cheng ealry b-day and Rachel Tam's belated b-day.. YEah!!!!!!!

so yeah.. oh ppl... i miss y'all already.. just to let u know.. i'll be using comp at comp lab... every so often.. so i will check email and stuff... if u ppl are bored ever.. and wanna email me... hehe... *hint hint*... gotz to go..

chilz

so.. had grad nite tonite.. and i realized.. i valued more things out of friday nite fellowship than i realized...
for 1.. my friends.. wow.. i never realized what they really had to say about me.. really kewl...
and you all know.. i dun cry very often.. not for a song at least.. but this song... was hardcore.. i took it off rachel's site tho.. www.rrrachel.blogspot.com

mark shultz & rachel lampa-- think of me
Packing my bag this morning,
Was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy,
Compared to standing outside your door,
right now to say goodbye to you.

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground,

I know that it feels like leaving,
Is a part of letting go.
But I'm praying with hope and believing,
That I'll see you once again down this road,
I hope that it won't be long.

Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground

Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you

I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground


and tho i'm not religious.. not in the way most of the ppl i know are.. this song was very touching.. very much so..

and tho after grad nite.. i was quite disappointed.. i made a pact to myself...

I'm giving myself 3 weeks time.. and in those 3 weeks.. i must forget.. or at least.. try to forget as much as i can.. cuz if i dunt... i'm gonna spend every waking moment thinking about it.. and i can't... i can't.. do that....

so.. jo.. ur gonna have to help me out here.. and sammi too... plz..

i'm leaving on sunday.. so i won't be seeing anybody.. for a good 3 weeks.. and yeah.. i'm hoping life will be fun.. and exciting.. and full of surprises.. otherwise.. how boring will it be..


last note: I rox at mini golf!!!!!! 53 was par.. i was like 48... something like that.. i redid the math jo.. hehe.. i mad rox!!!! woohoo.. if u dun believe.. ask jo.. she's my witness.. or ask chris n'dez.. they were there too..

last message to y'all until i move in.. it'll be a few days.. so


enjoy your last few days of summer or
enjoy your last few days of having nagging parents around...

lates

so i guess its goodbye.... school is officially going to start on monday.. and i'm moving in on saturday.. and all my friends are moving in to their respective skewls on sat or sunday.. and i guess its kinda scary.. i mean..
i've never been one to wanna make new friends.. unless i need to...
i've never been one to like change....
i've never been one to like not being with friends...

and all this is going to have to change now...
i have to make new friends
i have to adapt to new change
i have to learn to be without friends...

i dunno what i'm going to do... but this much i know..

it'll be a hard and enduring time... but eventually i will survive.. and get thru this.. but before i embark on this journey.. i just have to get some things out of my system...

i wanna say thank you... goodbye wouldn't be the rite word.. b/c i wanna remain friends with all these people... its just a temporary goodbye.. but also a sincere and utmost Thank You!

1) for all the happy moments
2) for all the sad moments
3) just for being my friend
4) stickin there with me throught everything
5) helpin me to get over the troublesome and trying moments in my life
6) supportin me thru every stupid decision i've ever made..

my school friends:

you guys have stuck with me and tolerated me for 4 years... and god only knows how annoying and bitchy i can get... but you guys never gave up on me.. stickin with me till the very end... we've had our moments.. whether it be... "band" camp... nyc... france trip.. arrowhon.. or whether it was just cruisin around at lunch.. these moments will forever remain in my mind.. and i will never forget them. thank you for sharing these moments with me.

d- once i got past of being scared of you at arrowhon... you have been my good friend.. you have been there for me all these years... and you were there when i needed you.. to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on..... you were there.. to drive me to lunch.. you were there... to let me express my anger.. you were there to provide some comical relief during calc class.... you are one of the best friends that i have.. and its sad that we will no longer be together like the way we were at cds.. but i know that we will remain friends for years to come.. i wanna thank you for being my friend for the last 4 years...

sarah- princess... we've had our memories.. whether it be crusin in the hummer.. or my spare.. ur art class.. you were there when i needed to talk.. you were there... for me.. always.. and i wanna say thank you.. though the distance between us may be far.. i hope that we will remain friends... thank you for the last 4 years

elise: my music buddie.. i'm glad that there is someone that i can share this interest with... we've had our fun moments.. "band" camp X 2...... band.. when ever i showed up.. choir.. and last but not least.. SOM... we had our fun making fun of piano lady.. didn't we??? though ur in western.. and i in windsor.. i hope that we will continue to share this bond..for many years to come..... thank you...

sterney: blondie.. thru the many years of butt smacking... and poking... and blond jokes.. you have stayed with me for so long.. and i wanna thank you.. for providing me with basketball memories.. spare memories.. society memories.... and i hope that we will continue to be friends.. b/c i would hate to lose someone to say blond jokes to... and you know.. that you will always remain my friend... madelinus sternus...

krystel: my newmarket buddie.. thru the painful pokes in society... and the endless celebrity life dreams in spanish.. we've had our many memories.. as you embark on your journey in life.. always remember... that i am always your friend.. and i hope you will remain mine as well.. thank you for the last 4 years...

cap: hey smartey pants... thank you for being there.. thank you for sharing nyc and band camp memories.. i wish that the distance b/w us wasn't so far.. but i hope we will remain friends till forever..... i wish you the best of luck in washington....

caitlin: gurl...we've shared some good moments.. whether it be, being lost in paris.. band camp.. or just sitting on a dock talking... we've shared many things.. and its sad to see us not together anymore.. i hope that we will continue to stay in touch.. i wish you the best of luck.. as you continue ur life at cds.. you'll need it.. lots of luv

to my music bois.. frankie.. james.. shay.. leppo.. will...

thanks for all the memories that you have shared with me... nyc.. band camp.. som.. whether it was skipping band or making fun of ms. piano lady... we've had loads of fun.. thank you for stickin with me all these years... you have all seen me at my most cranking and bitchy moments.. friday morning band.. and still you have all continued to be there for me.. thank you.... thank you for "bobo"... its something i will carry with me for the rest of my life.. at first.. i hated that name.. but eventually i realized.. it was something special b/w all of us... and i will never forget it.. ever.. i promise... and i hope you won't too... let's keep the bond alive

to all the others.. tommy seymour.. chris.. ang.. alana.. hubbert.. shortie #1.. olivia.. vaness.. liz..

thank you to you all.. for being there with me thru everything... tho we will no longer be together.. i want you all to know.. that you will forever remain in my heart.. i will be always thinking of you.. and the moments that we have shared will always be cherished..


to my other friends:

sammi: we've known each other for a long time.. since markville?? i think.. and... you've been there whenever i needed someone to talk to.. even if it was about something stupid.. and you've been one of the most supporting and reliable people i know.. we've gone thru many things together.. you've helped me get over a lot of things.. and i truly want to thank you for all the help, advice, and love you have given me.. thank you so much.. and as we go forth into different paths.. i hope that our paths will once again cross... and i hope that we will remain forever friends.. best of luck in western... lots of luv

jo: my "sis".. so many ppl think of us as sisters.. b-ball camp.. just random ppl.. and in a way.. i feel that it is somewhat true.. i've known you for as long as i can remember... like a good 10 years... long long time.. and from the very begginning.. you were a great friend.. we've been thru a lot together.. some happy.. and some not so happy.. but even so.. you stuck with me till the very end.. and thank you for that.. i hope that we will remain friends.. best of luck in western...

jess: my paul frank buddie.. thanx for being such a great friends these years.. we've shared many good memories.. karoake in hong kong.. westlife fever.. thanks for the many memories.. best of luck in mcmast

cy: you've been a great friend.. and tho we might not always agree on all the same things.. we've still managed to have lots of good memories.. thanx for that... good luck in your last year of highschool

peter: tho, we've only known for 2 years... we've shared many great memories.. as we go our separate ways.. i hope we will remain friends.. good luck in tyndale

jer: once again.. we've only known for a short span of 2 years.. you've provided me with a lot of comical relief.. thanx for that.. we've had lots of memories in the last while... i will remember them.. dun fret.. when you're lonely in halifax..remember.. that i'm always here.... to call.. and bother.. whatever you like... good luck at dal...

edga: tho in the last lil while.. we haven't talked as much as we use to... i still wanna thank you for all the many memories that we shared.. whether talking about girls or just life in itself.. thank you for being my friend...

miu miu: thanx for being a great friend for the last 10 years.. i think... we shared many good memories.. pioneer club.. pokey boi.. thanx for being my friend...

to all the others: rachel, joyce, jon,

thanks for being my friend.. these years.. we've shared many good memories.. i will never forget.. good luck in high school