i finally realized today.. how much i am actually worth to my friends.. and u know what is?? i was a lil surprised..


NOTHING!!!!!!!!

absolutely nothing.. i mean i never expected to be worth a lot.. but at least just a lil something.. just even the tiniest lil amoutn.. i didn't know that i was nothign to them.. worth absolutely nothing


i mean.. this coming weekend is my birthday weekend.. and i told my friends.. that i was gonna come spend the weekend with them.. thats how much i wanted to get to spend time with them.. cuz i missed them.. i wanted to be with them.. get to enjoy some happy moments with them.. and i told them like weeks in advance.. and when i told them.. they were like.. oh yeah.. i'll be so much fun.. i can't wait..


and now i found out now.. that out fo the ones i asked and was hoping to get to hang out with.. only one is actually gonna be able to hang out with me.. one decided to go home.. althought i told them.. another decided that he didn't have tiem for me!!

i mean.. is it too much to ask to have ur friends to spend one day together? not even.. just a few hours on a friday nite with u?? especially since ur paying $50 for a train fare to go visit them?? $50 that i had to pay out of my own birthday money.. to go visit them?? thats how much i missed them.. and wanted to see them

and the decency of them.. they couldn't even bother to tell me.. until i asked what was gonna happen.. for this coming weekend.. i mean..

and this made me realize.. i'm nothign to them.. they don't care.. at all..

i mean.. i've spent the so many years with these ppl.. and i thoght that we were friends.. in fact good friends.. and i guess...

it was all just my imagination.. i was never anything to them.. just a figment of my imagination..

makes u wonder.. how many other ppl think that way??how many other ppl don't treasure u? how many other ppl could care less if u weren't there?? how many ppl wouldn't even notice if u had disappeared?? how many other people had never cared?
how many??

appaarently, for me...

a lot.

so i was studying.. and got a lil tired.. and i decided to redo my lay out again.. and what was suppose to be 30 minutes at the tops.. ended up being 3 hours.. i was trying this and trying that.. and now its 6:10am .. and i havne't gone to bed quite yet.. I have class at 10:30.. and a midterm at 7pm too.. and I"M sitting here contemplating.. should i go to bed or just stay up till after class and then go to bed??

i kno.. this is so bad for my body.. but sometimes.. its just weird.. its like there's a certain line that i pass.. and once i pass that line.. i can't fall asleep or even get tired for that matter.. mine is somewhere around 3am.. once i pass that line.. i dun yawn or anything.. till like 3pm the next day.. i guess its kinda my adrenalin line?? if there's such a thing..

so yeah.. i changed my layout.. its quite cool now.. piano.. and music.. which is very much so me!! woohoo.. now i just have to figure out.. how to put pictures up.. hmmm..

outz

Trip to the Zoo


CDS'ers


MCBC People


My Family

---------------------------------Is it Too Late???--------------------------------------Its been a few days.. and its getting closer and closer to the end of the semester.. and i realized.. i haven't really been applying myself to university quite yet.. yeah thats rite.. 3/4 of the way in .. and i still ahve really applied myself.. I'm doing pretty good in my courses.. except for psyc..

Psyc.. my avg rite now is like a 60.. and it could be much better.. it could be.. if i studied.. read the chapters.. and oh.. most importantly.. showed up for class.. i've been to what?? 3 out of 6 classes... part of the problem being its monday nite 7-10.. long long day for me.. and then nite classes.. other part being.. me just being lazy.. not forcing myself to go to class..

i swear.. i could do so much better.. but i just.. can't find myself sitting down to do the work, studying... reading...

i tell myself, ok.. tonite.. i'm going to study.. chapter blah blah blah.. and read chapter blah blah blah.. and instead.. i find myself sitting at my desk.. chatting on msn or playing stupid games on yahoo.. for hours and hours... its like i'm addicted or something

and its just psyc thats mainly the problem.. i can force myself to study for theory, or basic skills, or music therapy.. but psyc.. i look at the book.. and i get bored already.. i guess it mite b/c i have no interest in psyc? and i do in the other subjects? for eg.

theory.. i'm actually doing better in than before.. i've had 2 midterms and 2 assignments.. i did alrite on my 1st midterm.. 74%..and 77% on my assignment.. and i just had an assignment and midterm this week.. and i studied for it.. and i think i did better.

basic skills.. i was on a roll.. A+.. till this week.. i've had 6 tests.. and all of them 85% and higher till the one i had on wednesday.. i kinda forgot to study and plus i missed 2 classes before that test.. cuz i was sick.. and i got 67%.. i mean.. its still semi-ok.. but could be so much better.. i have a test on monday.. mad studying for it.. i realy wanna have a A avg.. in this course

therapy.. i really enjoy this course.. so i guess thats probably why i'm doing pretty good.. considering its a "memorY'" course.. like have to remember names and dates.. and criterias.. and characteristics and stuff.. normally.. i dun do so good in this type of course.. but i've been doing alrite.. ive had 2 tests and an assignment.. 78% on the test, 99% on the assignment.. now the 2nd test.. i didn't really study for.. so i didn't do so good. but still..for not studying it was pretty good.. i have a test this thursday.. started studying already.. so should be good

wind ensemble... can't really say what mark i have in this course.. cuz i dunno.. but i mean.. if i pratice and show up for rehearsals. can't be that bad.. and i ahve been praticing.. and only actually missed one rehearsal.. b/c of the stupid stones.. so im ok for that too

private lesson.. i'm kinda a lil worried about this.. i have to perform for a jury.. in dec.. 12th to be exact.. 3:45pm... and i have to play 2 movements of the Saint-saens Sonata for Oboe and Piano.. My teacher and I haven't really gone thru much of it.. if any.. and I ahve less than a month to prepare it to top notch.. and i only see her once a week for 1 hr... and thats it.. i've been praticing.. but its hard to get something to top notch in one month.. it really is.. and considering jury is worth 50% of my final mark.. the other 50% being how i do in our lessons.. and i've been gettint 27, 28, or 29 out of 30 for that.. so its good.. but if i screw up on my jury.. i swear I'm f*cked..

so i guess.. i could be working so much harder.. and its kinda never too late? or maybe? i dunno.. i actually forced myself to go study in the library.. i was planning on going for 2 hrs at least.. ended up being 1 hr only .. cuz library closes at 10pm.. and i went at 830... i gotta start forcing myself more.. i got half a chapter done.. in just 1 hour.. which is pretty good

i realized.. that the computer and msn.. and real player.. and tv episodes.. had this uncontrollable power over me.. and what i do.. and my time.. and u know wut.. i really need to cut back.. so i've decided... i'm only actually going to go online and "talk" after what my goals for the day have been accomplished.. or at least to the best of my ability.. so i'll only blog 3 times a week?? maybe less.. depending.. definetly only once or even not at all during exams.. i'm staying home sundays.. for sure.. to study.. and saturday afternoons.. to study.. no shopping or anythign.. unless i have a "really" breezy week..

so yeah.. you'll be hearing less of me.. and reading less of me.. from this day forward.. which is a good thing for me.. cuz this comp stuff.. really killing me.. cuz i'm also staying up till like 3am.. to chat with ppl and stuff..

definetly..

DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP!!!

5 hours.. its a ok amount.. but i'm dying from it.. i'm the kinda person.. who needs a good 6-7 hours a nite.. or 5 during the night.. and 1-2 hr nap during the day... so also.. if u see me online at like 3am.. message me!!!! and YELL at me!!! as meanly as you can.. cuz i need rest..and sleep

Thanx..

Bobo.. Out

i'm officially gonna be a Best Buddy..




its an organization that pairs adults with developmental disabilities with a uni student. We become their friend, that can always talk to, rely on, etc. We have to talk to them once a week on the phone, and twice a month, take them out to activities.. I"m so excited!! it'll be so much fun!!! woohoo :)


aah my week this week is gonna be so boring..

not much to do...

i have a theory midterm on wednesday.. but i'm all good for it.. so i'm not worried

aside from that nothing..

however next week.. AAAH!!!!

Skills Test on monday
Music Therapy Test on Thursday
Psyc Midterm on Friday

aah!! i should start studying but i dunno. i dun really feel like it

i dunno.. we'll see

hehe

so nov is slowly creepin up and making me think...

the Big 1-8

how much of my life will be changed b/c i reached that mark? i mean i'm technically not a child then.. i'm an adult.. and i'd be expected to be so different.. but i dun wanna be different.. i wanna be the same way i am now when i am 40 or 50 or even 80.. kinda strange thought tho.. dunno.. what to think of turning 18.. i mean.. Yeah .. its my birthday.. and i'm a year older.. but turning 18 means i have to mature.. be older.. and i dun really wanna..

ppl have already said that university has killed my childhood.. i'm no longer immature, childish. but i wann be.. sometimes.. wut happens if when i turn 18.. i'm no longer able to at all enjoy the childhood things??? AAAAH!!!!

i dunno even kno what im' talking about.. oh well

My New Favourite Song:

Flying Without Wings - Rubben Studdard

Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
at any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

You're the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

another good quote.. this one from the now deceased
Madame Chiang -Kai -Shek.. also known as Soong Mai Ling



We write our own destiny; we become what we do. - Madame Chiang Kai Shek


She was one of the Soong sisters..

"One loved power, One loved money, One loved China"


There's a really good movie about these 3 sisters. Mai Ling married Chiang Kai Shek, first president of Taiwan, Ai-Ling married China's finance minister, and creator of Hong Kong Bank, H.H. Kung. Ching-Ling married Dr. Sun Yat-sen, The "Father of Modern China".
Dr.Sun Yat Sen is a cool man. We share the same birthday!!!

November 12!!! except he was born in 1866.. and i in 1985.. 116 years later.. woohoo!!!!

but yeah.. let us now..

have a moment of silence for her..

she was 106...

I was searching for some quotes. for a paper of mine.. some of these are really good

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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.


Mother Teresa

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"The future belongs to those
who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

Eleanor Roosevelt

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It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look. To affect the quality of the day - that is the highest of arts. - Henry David Thoreau

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"Friends are those people who know the words to the song in your heart and sing them back to you when you have forgotten the words." (Anonymous)

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i kno another really good one about.. picking ur path in life. but i can't remember.. it was my in graduating blurb .. something about the path that others take.. something about creating your own path..

i dunno

so i was sitting here.. and kinda bored.. with the winnie the pooh layout..

1st- just cuz..
2nd- hard to read the words
3rd- wanted a song with something

so i went searching.. and they didn't have any good "music" skins.. that i liked aside from this one.. its hikaru utadu.. i like her songs.. so it works out good

so this is gonna be my new layout.. at least for a lil while.. one of my friends here.. is really good with html.. so i mite be able to find a good layout.. that i will be quite happy with.. that i won't have to change ever again..

so yeah.. lates

kinda forgot to blog about this earlier.. so yeah..
my W.E concert.. was amazing..!!!
i was kinda worried about it before. knowing me.. i feared the worst.. that i was gonna screw up my parts.. and make some really ugly duck noises.. but i did good.. no ugly duck noises.. no playing wrong notes.. everything came together.. great.. amazing!!! woohoo!!! so proud of myself..

it was kinda kewl having mom n dad come to hear the concert.. i appreciated.. they drove the 4 hours just to hear it.... and then they had dinner with me.. and then went home.. i mean.. a whole day just to come.. was so great.. it felt kinda nice to have them there.. just to kno.. someone came to support me.. cuz i kno some ppl didn't anybody there.. it was a great feeling.. just knowin..


we played a few diff pieces that day..

holtz - 2nd suite
cichy-bugs
grainger - ye old banks
grainger- faroe island dance
whitacre - noisy wheels of joy
old churches.. forget the composer
old comrades.. forget the composer

was great... we have our next performance nov 21..

we're playing some interesting, yet disonant pieces.. waking angels for example.. omg.. i swear u could play all the wrong notes.. and at the wrong beats .. and no one would even notice.. this piece.. features the ugliest notes on every instrument possible..
so weird.. but i mean.. thats 20th century music for ya..

so yeah..

today.. was AMAZING!!! i swear it was.. went to windsor symphony.. omg.. so good..

alrite.. at first.. i thought windsor symphony.. can't be any good.. rite? i mean in comparison to tso?? i mean tso is world reknowed.. and wut not.. but wso.. is just as good.. well not really.. but they're pretty good.. for the size that they are..

tonites perfomance was

Brent Lee - voca me cum benedictis (World Premiere)

Rachmaninov- Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini

Berlioz- Symphonie fantastique


and the cool thing was.. well there were 2 cool things.. one.. 3rd movement of berlioz.. beautiful.. absolutely amazing.. english horn and oboe duet solo thing.. amazing..
2nd cool thing.. brent lee.. well actually dr.brent lee... he's my theory prof.. which is really cool.. cuz i've never met anyone who's composed an orchestral piece and had it performed by a symphony before.. amazing.. so kewl.. anyhow.. he's the new composer in residence for windsor.. which is another kewl thing.. cuz normally only big symphony orchestras have composer in residence's.. not small ones.. which i mean.. is a big stepping stone.. they're getting there..

Lee's Piece.. was really good.. it was orchestrated perfectly.. a wide display of the different instruments.. was really beautiful.. i really enjoyed it..

berlioz.. amazing!!!! just amazing!!!

Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini - the solo pianist.. was incredible.. and the kewl thing.. he's my age.. studying music at juillard.. what i would give.. to be that amazing on the piano.. omg.. so good!!! his music was so emotional.. so touching.. incredible!!!

and it was really fun to get to go with all the music ppl.. lots of ppl from the school of music was there...

aimee - french horn
jenna - french horn
lauralei - trumpet
colin - trumpet
me- queen of the oboe
graeme - trombone
matt - tuba
katie- clarinet
vanessa -percussion
jenn-clarinet
dan- trombone/piano
trevor - the tuba guy
robynne - flute/piccolo


and a whole lot of other ppl.. most of them upper years.. so dun really know them that well.. but yea

was so much fun.. and the tickets.. mad cheap..

robynne and i were sitting lower floor, W10-W11.. and the tickets were $15.. no tax.. no nothing.. so good.. there were seats at cheap as $6.. but they were like mad up front.. had to look up at the orchestra.. not really good.. but i mean.. $15 for pretty good seats.. Yeaa!!!

and i think i'm probs gonna go back for a few times too.. they're lots of good things being performed.. dido and aneas.. romeo and juliet.. halloween pops.. mad kewl

so yeah
another kewl thing about the symphony...

when we were waiting for the taxi.. outside cleary international centre.. i saw a
LAMBORGHINI!!!!!!

so kewl.. i haven't seen one in so long.. it was a brand new one.. mad nice!!! AAAH!!!!! so amazing.. just a great day


only bad thing..

i woke up at 10:30.. hoping to get some of my hwk done.. and i ended up chatting and playing games.. watching tv episodes.. on my comp.. didn't do anythign.. well .. one thing.. but compared to what i had planned.. my bad!!!

here's wut i have to do for monday

1) article summary (3pages or so)
2) article summary (3pages or so)
3) Ames Room Lab (1 page)
4) Study for Basic Skills Test
5) Budgeting for Dad
6) Theory Assignment


so much stuff.. not even funnie.. considering the article summaries will take me 1 hr each.. the lab.. 1/2 hr.. study for 1 hr.. budgeting takes a 1/2 hr.. theory assignment.. anywhere between 1 hr.. to 3 hrs.. thats like wut?

7 hours of work.. yikes!!!

i'm so screwed.. looks like its an all nighter for me tommorow..



another exciting thing

my w.e concert is tommorow.. woohoo!!! W.E being wind ensemble.. our first performance together tommorow at 3pm.. it'll be fun.. i'm hoping i won't screw up.. there's lil parts.. where i play lil solos.. or the oboe is extrememly exposed.. and i've been having lil probs with it.. i can play it fine.. by myself.. when praticing.. but in the midst of all my bandmates.. i screw up.. i dun kno why.. but yeah

on that note.. sleep would be good.. wouldn't wanna fall asleep tommorow on stage.. . lates

man.. that was one short thanksgiving weekend.. incredibly short.. it ended up being not half as good as i would have hoped.. here's why..

friday nite: bunch of ppl going out.. once again.. no body knows who's going .. or going where? what time?? honestly.. they never plan these things.. they just expect someone to just do it for them.. it wasn't going to me.. i'm sorrie.. i've had enough of it.. oh and to make it worse.. where did they did decide to go... on a friday nite? at 10:30pm.. Mickey D"s!!!! who the hell decides to go to mickey d's on a friday nite.. with like 15 other ppl?? who?? ugh...

saturday nite: kinda was hoping that this nite would be more fun than the nite before.. kinda was.. but kinda wasn't either.. went out to boston pizza with d, chris, shay, jason, frankie.. that was fun.. loitered in the parking lot.. chilling.. that was fun too.. went over to d's cuz's house party.. personally.. i'm not much for hanging out with 29 year old strangers.. especially when they're all high and shit.. but i mean.. it was hanging out with d, and all the guys.. so it was ok.. it could have been worse...

sunday: was the one actual good nite.. not amazing.. but at least wasn't too screwed up.. went to outback with auntie eva, uncle tam, nicolas, mom, dad, ivan... that was fun.. man.. i hadn't eaten so much in one day!!!!!! cocount shrimp, bloomin onion, calamari, grilled shrimip, 8oz steak, potatoes, and like 20 cups of ice tea.. man.. my stomach started to hurt.. too much food.. went back to auntie evas.. play majhong.. fun fun.. hadn't done that in a while.. and then went home early to chill with mom...and miranada and ivan.. not my bro ivan... other ivan.. sis' bf... ivan.. bought over their dog.. lang meu.. such a cutie.. aaw.. she sloppers all over u.. but she's loads of fun

monday: went to teppanyaki at taste of japan... with family.. and 6e and elaine.. that was fun.. hadn't had teppanyaki ina while other.. i've been to taste of japan.. last time was jo, tiff, jess lam., and i.. mad eating that day too..

but i mean.. my weekend was relatively boring.. and not exciting.. didn't really get to hang out with ppl i really wanted to.. and when we did hang out.. it was screwed up by stupid bois.. ugh!!!!!

wowo this is cool!! i'm going home at 1:30 pm.. yeah.. just 12 more hours to go!! woo hoo.. oh this is kinda kewl..

www.luradio.ca

my bud jay from high skewl is a dj on this.. lakehead radio.. on thursday nite.. from 12-2 am.. just u kno.. if ur awake then. its kewl.. he sounds much different on the radio.. than on the radio.. in his words.. "sexy".. ha

so i'm going home tommorow.. watch t.o

look out big old badie. Sindy.. woOO Wooo!!!!

ha.. its 1:32 in the am.. and i'm going crazy.. too many drinks.. i swear.. man.. gotta go to bed.. have class tommorow.. and wut not.. so yeah.. chilz

goodbye windsor.. see u soon t.o

so today.. had my last midterm for now.. theory.. wasn't actually that bad... so glad i'm done!!! woohoo!!! yeah.. haha sux to be the ppl who still have midterms.. haha.. laugh at u.. all of u.. hehe...

so two more days till i go home for thanksgiving.. can't wait!!!! get to see all these ppl again.. will be so much fun!!! have a whole list of stuff to do!!!

Friday nite:
-go home around 5:15..
-go shopping for care package with sammi
-go dinner with sammi
-go out with jer, sammi, jo, jon, joyce, edgar, and whoever else
-sleep till i can't sleep no more

Saturday
-10:00 go dt. shopping for oboe supplies with mommi
-lunchtime.. with mommie.. yeah!!!
-go to doctors.. with mommie.. yeah
-afternoon go shopping for clothes w/mommi
-nite.. go out with skewlers.. woohoo!!!! no mini putt.. plz!!!!!

Sunday
-go to church
-have lunch with ppl.. maybe family.. maybe church ppl?? dunno yet
-thanksgiving dinner with auntie eva.. yeah pool.. yeah tennis!!!!!

Monday
-dun wake up till late
-thanksgiving lunch with 6e and elaine.. and TOTO!!!!! woo hoo.. i luv toto
-7:05 train to Windsor...


wowow.. my weekend is jammed pack with lots of fun activities.. yeah..
anyhow.. its 12:30.. gotta go

oh.. last thing..
check out the link to my test.. please do it!! its fun..

Props to peter!! he got the highest score!!! Tiss tiss on everybody else. they all failed!!!

its been a good day so far.. not much exciting but still fun.. woke up nice n earli.. went to worship.. i kinda feel bad.. i was so tired today.. i got home at like 1... was online till lik 230.. and then went ot bed.. had to wake up at 8.. so didn't get much sleep.. *yawn*... anyhow.. went to worship.. slept thru most of it.. and then went back to dorm.. i was just chillin.. talking to some ppl.. praticed the guitar till around 1.. went to buffet windsor.. with church ppl.. was fun.. didn't eat that much.. buffet food is never very appetizing.. so after that.. went back to res.. thats was 3 pm.. played some guitar.. downloaded some tab/chords for some cool songs.. "we all live in a yellow submarine.. yellow submarine.. yellow submarine." great song.. anyhow.. 5.. i get a call.. to go play ball/badminton... i was like.. ok.. fun fun.. went with some church ppl.. st.denis athletic center.. played badminton with pauleen.. and a yan.. and victor.. and some other guy.. dunno his name... woops... and then i played bball for a while.. just shootin n stuff.. didn't play with the guys.. cuz i never play with guys...

a typical bballin boi is the biggest hog.. and just completely ignores u.. i hate that.. its like.. girls can ball too.. and sometimes even better than the bois.... they think they're so amazing.. and then they're ignore on the court.. never pass the ball to u.. even if you're wide open and are gonna to make the shot.. 100%... its so stupid.. urgh.. im just sayin.. this is the typical guy.. so i didn't play...

it was kinda sweet.. just praticing my shots.. not having played for like 1 year. and then played today.. i got quite some many 3 pointers in. kinda sweet.. i think the two guys who were shootin there were kinda surprised too.. me.. short n out of shape lil girl.. who doesn't look like she can play at all.. gets 3 pointers in.. and not just lucky shots.. they were sweet swish.. so yeah.. it ended off on a good note..

tommorow.. class test in basic skills.. 930.. bright n early.. should be fun.. :)
and then midterm .. for theory.. for wednesday
n then friday!! Home time!!! i get to see everybody.. sammi.. and jo.. and jess.. and jess. .n amanda.. n lydia.. n jer.. n peter.. n rachel.. n jon.. n joyce.. n everybody else too.. woo hoo should be lots of fun!!

had a good day today...there was this amazing music therapy worksite.. omg!!! you don't understand.. it was amazing.. i just saw there in awe.. and like.. omg!!! so amazing.. i kno.. this is what i'm meant to do.. when the guest speaker.. amber.. just talked about passion and how there was this great feeling when u kno.. u've touched a lil's one heart.. when everybody else abandons them.. u try your hardest to try to move them.. even its just one lil step.. a smile.. a clap.. anything.. there's this overwhelming feeling.. and its amazing.. I know.. i doubted.. whether this was the rite thing for me.. and i kno.. i just kno.. its hard to explain.. it just overwhelmed today.. by how touching it can be.. and when she described what its like .. i imagined myself there.. in that school.. helping those children.. participatin in the activities she taught us.. I know!!!

went to lunch with some of the girls.. and was fun.. then did a lil bit of praticing.. i admit.. i haven't really praticed all that much these last 2 weeks.. cuz of the stupid stones.. but it was fun.. elizabeth.. taught me this new uh.. ombiture .. and its kewl... i have to pratice whistling.. thats how i get a good ombiture..

went to belle air.. they have the book!!!! i've been looking for this book forever.. not even gary's downtown had it.. and stupid oboe stores on internet.. nope.. but belle air.. yup

"The Oboist's Concert Album" Compiled and Revised by Albert J.Andraud..

great book.. all the most famous oboe solos and excerpts all compiled into one book.. i used it for my auditions.. and i kept on trying to find one.. cuz i couldn't take wendy's so.. yeah i found it now.. and it was only like $20 bucks.. or so.. including tax.. but hey.. there's always tax... bought some new pics.. they're pink!!! yeah..

went to the mall with lauralei, aimee, sarah and ashley.. bought a pair of black pants for wind ensemble from old navy.. a pair of cord from gap.. i swear.. its been a long time since i shopped at gap... dirty girl lip balm from green earth.. a roxy top.. !!!! yeah.. roxy..

went to walmart... bought some glow in the dark halloween stickers.. gonna decorate the room.. and new nail polish.. i swear.. i ahven't bought any in a while..

then went to dinner with norris and jeff.. was fun..

i still gotta study for theory midterm.. its wednesday.. and basic skills test on monday.. at 930... and then friday!!! going home!!! yeah.. can't wait.. i'll get to see sam and jo.. and jer.. and jon.. and rachel.. and joyce.. and cheryl.. and jess lam.. and all my skewlers.. oh.. gonna be great.. can't wait!!!! woohoo...

on the topic of midterms..yesterday was psyc.. i kinda screwed up a lot on it.. i didn't really answer one of the 10 mark essay questions.. and im pretty sure i got quite a good # of m/c questions wrong too.. im pretty sure i passed.. but its definetly not gonna be a 90 or anything... so now.. gotta study nice and hard in hopes of pulling that mark up..

latz

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

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starting today on a happier note.. i'm trying to figure out whether i should do 40 days with wcbc.. i mean.. at mcbc.. i never did it.. b/c i was all not liking mcbc ... but i mean here.. i'm finding my place.. my belonging.. and in a way.. i feel like i'm being called back to the father.. in the last few years.. ive drifted.. first only a lil bit.. to completely shunning him out of my life.. first it was only skipping sunday school every so often after worship.. to completely not goin to koinonia.. to not even goign to sunday school and occassionaly goign to worship.. at least only when my parents are home.. and even rejecting words of prayer. words of worship.. anything that had anything to do with the christian faith..

in the last 3 years.. i've gone to the extreme.. i've done everything he's told me not to.. and my excuse for doing it.. was i wanted to enjoy life while i still could.. but someone told me that was no reason/excuse to live the way i was.. i didn't listen.. and at moments i even dreaded their conversations.. but now.. i guess i wanna say thanks.. to trying to help me.. even tho i tried to push them away..

they could have chosen to give up on me.. leave me to be. but yet they stuck with me.. challenging me... helping me to find my way back .. and i really do appreciate.. the things.. and at moments then.. i may have said things i shouldn't.. done things i shouldn't.. and i kinda regret the things..

i admit.. there are still questions.. that are unanswered for me.. but at least.. i've gone to the point.. where i realized that i had to turn back.. i realized my mistakes.. and i kno..

thats why.. at this moment.. i'm stopping.. and i'm turning back.. i've reached the big stop..

along the way there have been ppl.. who helped me.. and i believe this is the time to say thanks..

orange
tiff
jess lam
sam
jo
peter
cy
jon wong

i just wanna say thanks.. its greatly appreciated for all the help that you've given me..

thank you.. from the bottom of my heart..

so new layout.. cute eh?? winnie the pooh.. quite the adorable lil thing..

ah man.. i can't wait till thanksgiving.. it'll be so great.. everybody is comign back.. even jer.. and then we can all get to hang out .. man mad fun!!! ha...

and even skewlers are coming back too.. frankie, elise, shay, james, hubbert, all back.. so then do our own lil thanksgiving dinner.. that was decided upon . . i think.. i dun even really know

so yeah.. first midterm tommorow.. and mad psyced about psyc.. haha... its funni.. u kno.. its funny..

yeah.. i'm weird.. but y'all know that already.. ha..

dez emailed me the other asking me what i wanted for my b-day..and i was thinking.. its not even for a while.. but yeah.. i looked around in my room and realized.. there's a lot of stuff missing that i really need.. or actually.. want.. so *hint hint*.. jokes..

1. digi cam
2. dvd-r drive
3. new md (yeah miranda... woo hoo)
4. cordless phone.. i have a ghetto style phone rite now
5. cell phone cover ( din wa hok)
6. love undervcover 2 dvd
7. twins effect dvd
8. new desk lamp
9. new wall lamp
10. more stuffed animals
11. piggy bank
12. daniel bedingfield cd.. (jo.. hehe)
13. new daniel chan cd
14. lord of the rings trilogy set.
15. photo albums
16. photo (seung ga)...
17. my cartilage pierced.. (jo.. u still owe me a.. from last b-day)
18. i wanna get a tattoo.. but dunno
19. a car.. (anybody wanna buy me a mini???)
20. trip to bc.. ( i miss janice and camill...)
21. new snowboard
22. new roxy snow jacket
23. new roxy snow pants
24. someone to go snowboarding in windsor with..
25. new cd player
26. a tv.. or a tv on comp program
27. stereo..
28. new wallet..
29. new speakers for comp.. screwed up..
30. i want my g license
31. meet jay chou
32. meet edison
33. a brand new house

haha.. obviously some of those things aren't gonna happen.. but no harm in saying it anyway.. maybe the birthday bunni will hear me..

ha.. birthday buni.. they dun exist.. i just made them up..

oh.. and u kno who doesn't exist either???

SANTA!!!!!

oh yeah.. santa doesn't exist.. never has.. however.. there does exist .. or use to exist.. a figure just like santa.. thats saint nick..
anyhow.. not gonna start on that..

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